No Rest for the Righteous?

In the Bible, it says, in the Gospels, the LORD Jesus Himself tells us to ‘Watch!’ That made me lose a lot of sleep. And that was good training, because for a guy, I did love my sleep a little too much.

We are to be ever vigilant. But those of us who are not natural watchers. Not everyone can NOT sleep for a week. That’s a talent! But we can work on it. Why is it important? Because someone has to stay awake during the time that the LORD Jesus is coming. The Scriptures say no one knows the day or hour. But I can guess when as in regards to what month and what week.

Most likely the LORD is coming during the Jewish holiday of Tabernacles. That is a reason why the LORD chose to come as a Jewish person. And the Jewish people have been entrusted with much, including the calendar. Tabernacles is the last festival which closes out the year and is after the last summer harvests of fruits (grapes, dates, olives, etc.). Tabernacles is called Sukkhot in Jewish and this festival lasts one week. I don’t know the details, but if someone doesn’t stay awake, some of us could be left behind and miss the ‘prison break’. The LORD Jesus is coming at the right hand of Power, and with clouds of glory. And He is coming like a thief. To me that means, that He is coming to get His people, that have for some reason been kept here on Earth.

So, I’m going to try to stay awake for the entire week of Sukkhot, we’ll see what happens. May GOD, our Holy Father and Mother, the LORD Jesus and His Eternal Love, bless us all,


I Discerned Our Mother,

One of the gifts of Spirit is the discerning spirits,

Mostly, people I’ve come across with the gift can discern good or bad. They can usually sense the presence of ‘bad’ spirits or the general spiritual climate or tone of a room or place.

But, after the truth of the formlessness of spirits is now sinking in, I can see that often spirits talk to us through everyone and everything. If you are a ‘spiritist’ or ‘medium’ in the OT Bible, you would get stoned to death. So where the line between being a spiritist or medium and a prophet or seer or oracle? I think, the line is who or Who you serve? Do you do what you do for money or self? Or do you do what you do out of Love for GOD and your fellow living beings? Sorry, I’m playing James the Just and not the Living Christ.

Yesterday, a beautiful African American woman sat next to me. She asked for a bus token. She said she had been asking around for hours and no one would even give her a token (which cost only one dollar). Of course, I gave. But, she said she just came from church and just needs a ride home. She showed/flashed the Bible. What was interesting was the way she dressed. She wasn’t in a business suit or typical garb that women wear so well to church. She was wearing purple and her clothes were very unique looking like she made them herself. There was gold in there and she told me, ‘I’m not a homeless person.’ I told her I look more like a homeless person than she, and she started to cry. And she told me a bunch of things I don’t really remember but I got the meaning.

After I went home, I thought about it again. And many things she said touched on things I was thinking about or things that happened to me lately. Lately, I’ve been wondering how I can treated the Mother Earth better. How can we commit to recycling, to using safe products, creating less waste, treating animals better, treating all life better even trees and bugs? How about just being sick so the bacteria can have a chance to live? I know it’s madness.

Well, I heard our Mother Earth there. She is a Living Spirit. A Great One! She is in a lot of pain b/c we are not treating Her well at all. And She’s Black. She has mostly appeared to me as So. A secret is all living bodies have spirits. So is Earth a big rock? No, it is a planetary body, and She has a Living Spirit. Our bodies were creating from Her, so She is our Mother. We have a Heavenly Father and Earthly Mother. The Heavens are also masculine and feminine, etc. Please think about it. But, the first step, and we have to take a step back, is to reconnect with the Earth Mother, for Malkuth (The Kingdom) is the Mother Earth Spirit. And She is the root of the Tree of Life, and our first step towards the Kether (Crown) or Most High Heavenly Father and Mother.

Let’s LOVE our Mother Earth, remember Her, She’s crying…

Salt and Fire,

We are the Salt and Light! We’ve heard that, but let’s look at Mark 9:

Causing to Stumble
42 “If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them if a large millstone were hung around their neck and they were thrown into the sea. 43 If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out. [44] 45 And if your foot causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell. [46] 47 And if your eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into hell, 48 where

“‘the worms that eat them do not die,
and the fire is not quenched.’
49 Everyone will be salted with fire.

50 “Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can you make it salty again? Have salt among yourselves, and be at peace with each other.”

What the? Hang with me, and I’ll explain it to you. Although honestly I rather like to, when you feel the Spirit prompting you, don’t come to learn from me anymore, but try to learn and hear the Spirit, Himself. For remember, in the Last Days, the Spirit Himself will teach us. No one will teach his brother or sister, the Law will be written on our hearts and minds,

OK, that said, if you look at the verses before this, Jesus calls His disciples, “Little Ones”. We are Jesus’ kids. And like any good parent, He is protective. If you mess with His kids, who are very naive when young, then you are setting yourself to be burned in hell.

But, here is the thing about GOD, He is mysteriously just and merciful and kind at the same time. We are the Salt and Light (Fire). Those who try to hurt us, we burn, for we are the fire. The hands, feet, and eyes are also metaphorical for members of the church. When GOD sends an Apostle to a church, if the church leaders have eyes to see, and they see members who are treating the Apostle bad, then it is better to discipline that member than be punished by GOD, Jesus Himself.

How can salt lose it’s saltiness, by being messed with and taught wrong by church and the world. Salt can be made salty again, but by GOD, by a miracle. This is the nature of people, they don’t like to have the righteous and holy among them, b/c they are self-conscious and don’t want to give up their deeds. But those who do wrong, must at least recognize the Grace of GOD in the presence of Salt and Light among them. They are helped by it, even if they are not conscious of it. Let us be peaceful at all times and with all people,


P.S. – We are the Salt and Light or the World. And here is the secret, we are also Hellfire, for GOD puts His bright lights everywhere, even Hell, to help those return to Him. Hellfire seems to hurt and scary, b/c the state of those there are so dark, they can’t stand the light and fire anymore.

Love and Love and Love,

In an ideal world, we would marry our sweethearts after high school and have ten kids and stay together forever and ever. My older bro and I were talking about this last week. He has divorced and remarried, and I am in a complicated relationship right now. We both came to the conclusion that there are ideal or ‘fairytale’ relationships. As a society we have in our minds, ‘the way it should be’ for everyone. And when we stop to think about it, that’s just not possible. There should be many ways to do it, as many as there are different kinds of people.

So, in a Christian world, I am ashamed to say I have been with many women. Part of my life work now is to reconnect, make amends, and have a good relationship with those women from my past. Maybe that’s why there is a break in my relationship with my wife right now, so I can do that. There was a reason those women and I crossed paths and shared something briefly, if you believe that everything happens for a reason.

So that’s another exhortation to ‘do no harm’, because when you reach a certain level of enlightenment, you may spend the last half of your life just undoing the damage you did in the first half and never really living in the pure Joy and Freedom and Richness that GOD has for you.

It’s difficult to see that GOD is doing something in your life, when it is painful and full of suffering. I am sorry for it all. It doesn’t help to hear any preaching when life is hard, what we need is help. Often, I am sorry to say, no one has helped me. I don’t know if I was such a bastard before, yeah, that’s probably it. But, that’s why if we have a chance to help we should. If only to give faith to another person in humanity, in the goodness of GOD, in the fairness and justice of the LORD.

When it comes to male female relationships, this world is whacked. Sorry, if my use of medical terms seems condescending. If the church cannot even acknowledge the equanimity (wrong) of male and female, GOD and GODDESS, then we know that as a world, as a society, we still have a long ways to go. Our Sovereign LORD Jesus said that when we go to the Heavens we will be like the Angels that neither marry or are given in marriage. And again He said in the beginning we were created male and female. And for those who really read carefully, the mystery of John the Baptist being Elijah is a reference to reincarnation. That all taken, my thoughts are:

Sometimes, especially on earth, we meet people who will point us to our ‘other half’. Maybe I wasn’t suppose to get so romantic and serious with other women. We were to be friends and I would learn what I like and don’t like. Never hurting, never using, never controlling but serving in Love. Angels must have perfected loving relationships without lording and controlling each other. So when you meet the ‘one’ you will most definitely know and be prepared for a lifelong relationship with him and her. The other women were suppose to help me as sisters, but instead we have regrets about past words and deeds. They actually did help, but the regrets. If you believe in many lifetimes, then sometimes you have to wait til the next lifetime to get it right with your other half. I have reached a point in my life where I am willing to be that patient. I’ve found the one, and things aren’t right. I know through Faith I am sure she is my one and only. But she and I are not good together right now. I will wait for her for the rest of my life if need be.

So, those of you out there with eyes to see and ears to hear, that is my understanding of the Truth. However, everyone has different strengths. Mine just happens to be in the area of marriage and sexuality. Like the Apostle Paul I have the gift of singleness, but I have found my sweetheart. Those of you who don’t see things this way, I am not preaching. It’s your life and how you think about it is what you should think. This is just my take on things and what I think is GOD’s best for us. If you know you have found the one and have problems then please try your best. If you haven’t found the one, then it’s simply that we must learn how to engage and treat our brothers and sisters. I hope that makes sense,


GOD loves Chinese,

When I was young, we were PROUD to be Chinese. Chinese invented gunpowder. We have almost 5,000 years of history. Chinese invented silk. Chinese look like aliens, so we are more advanced.

But now, after living in the United States and other places too. I confess, Chinese are not all that. We have a long history of human rights abuses. We have a long history of disregard for the freedom of choice. But mostly, we the Chinese EAT EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. Yuck!

With, the building wave of vegetarianism, I hope the Chinese ride this. For in the Bible, GOD tells us what foods are clean and unclean. In the beginning, people only ate fruits and green vegetables and leafs. The Apostle Peter had his vision, why? Ask seasoned Christians in Chinese church and they’ll tell you have the freedom to eat what you want. That is true, but GOD always gives us freedom. If you want GOD’s best, you’ll return to the fruits and veggies. Sometimes it is good to be a Gentile, you get to eat all kinds of crazy stuff, but to me, I only eat to eat with other people (ministry). At home, I eat the best, or at least try to.

Part of why, the Apostle Peter and the others ate. It was said by Jesus Himself, that He ate and drank. That’s how special He was. He was the exception and LORD of the Sabbath. These days, some Essenes will tell you the fact that the original teachings of Jesus (Yahshua) on vegetarianism were changed. That is true. But, maybe the LORD allowed this, because He knew how slow the eating habits of the world would be changed. And our LORD is reluctant to lose anyone. He paid for all, it is best that all be saved! The Chinese are the craziest eaters and I pray that the Chinese learn to be more discerning about what they put into their mouths. For there are spiritual ‘consequences’ for even small things like this.

Just as there is blood money. We understand that. When you buy coffee that is not fair trade, you are a party to the unfair treatment of workers. I’m not trying to burden you but encourage you, for GOD is the judge of the heart and knows when you tried your best or not. If you are Chinese and reading this, I am Chinese, and please know that animals are also living beings with hearts, souls, and minds. Eating more vegetables to be kind to animals and for your better health will also result in blessings from above and a greater experience of heaven on earth.


Matthew 23 – Serve

I’ve been thinking and rethinking my approach to ministry. I mean, I’m sure I do good and all that. But, as I study and live and prepare for my ministry, I am starting to see that Jesus simply wanted us to be servants.

Don’t call anyone Teacher,
Don’t call anyone Father,
Don’t call anyone Instructor,

But just as it is not possible to reach some people without being something or a way that they can understand, not everyone can practice this type or level of ministry. It is more important to be faithful to where the LORD Jesus places us.

What the above paraphrase of the LORD’s Words mean to me is that we shouldn’t always minister from a position of authority. We tell people they should do this, and they shouldn’t do that. Why can we? Because of our titles and position. I think Jesus is telling us that we should just serve, love, and give. If people ask and if they need our advice, we can maybe offer a little. But, it is best people figure things for themselves anyways.

What does that look like? I think this type of ministry is more like how a mother would be like. Remember the Oracle in the Matrix films? The crew of the Matrix went to visit the Oracle. Instead of visiting a high and holy temple, they went into a simple apartment and sat with her as she baked cookies. I used to drive a BMW and had a Louis Vuitton pen. I don’t need these things anymore. It’s not that those things aren’t nice or that I wouldn’t have them. I had to choose between them and other things and the other things won out. Sometimes religious leaders need those things because they like them, and sometimes they need them to be able to connect to others. Jesus didn’t need any of those things, yet He was the best minister ever.


Sower, Reaper, Gatherer, Grape, Wheat, What?

What are these jobs? They are very hard to understand, especially since people these days don’t grow their own food. I have some idea because I had a little farm for a while. And I have some prophetic thoughts on this. I say prophetic because it is divined and I don’t really know what I am talking about. When you hear a pastor or priest speak and it gets deep and it is spiritual, a lot of times that is prophetic utterance, given from above to the speaker to bless you the hearer.

In the LORD Jesus’ parables, who is the sower? He is the sower. And missionaries are sowers. Anyone who is sent out to some field is a sower. And when they work they are doing very important work of spreading seed which is the Word of GOD. The Son of GOD is with them, right there when they speak. Yes, a pastor is sowing in the sanctuary! Even when you see a preacher at the Santa Monica Pier (amusement park) and it seems no one is paying attention. Who are we to say GOD didn’t send him to a very hard, dry field to work it. I’ve had to work dry, hard ground on Guam. The soil is not soft, brown topsoil at all. It is rocky and dry. I’ve often had to use a pickax to break it up. We had to allow weeds to grow to break it up and create a little soil when it dries and dies. Spreading seed is the toughest job that’s why Jesus says the sower is the Son of Man.

But often there is only one sower per locale. That is why Jesus says those who are with me gather to me, and those not with me scatter. Other sowers like Himself, spread out and scatter. But all sowers often have a team of gatherers with them. Who are these? They are the angels. How do you earn your wings? That is a topic for another day. But gatherers are those that receive what is due the landowner of GOD, the Father. A sower should have been a gatherer already. The sower is team leader.

What are grapes and wheat? Who are they? They are mentioned in Revelations aren’t they? They are talked about often by the prophets. The prophets are known by their fruit – grapes and dates. And what about sheep? Who do they represent? Let me know what you think?


Keep the Sabbath,

If GOD is the same GOD, why don’t we keep the Sabbath? When is the Sabbath? The Jewish people got it, it is Friday night to Saturday sundown, you get my point. What do we do on this day? Mostly stay home, study the Bible, and rest. It is a eternal sign that you are His people if you follow this commandment,