A OK Explanation,

A loving couple (pregnant) walk down the street,
He sees a buxom dark haired woman walking down the opposite side,
wife gets mad because he looked,
husband says,

‘I looked, it’s just looking,
sometimes I look and it doesn’t mean anything,
what about a car wreck,
if I looked at that,
would you get mad at me?’

wife gets silent and smiles,


The New Age

Hi everyone, my time on this blog is almost ended. See you on another one. But, know this: Surprise, there is no end of the world.

Are you mad?

The heavenlies, in characteristic fashion, were just testing everyone.

The next days before the 21st are judgment days, so expect to be sleepy and to maybe lose something, or gain something. And dont’ be surprised if you remember hearing GOD sound like Ben Affleck or Casy Affleck or something.

What was the fear? The fear was that the Sun would go Supernova and I did see that the core was black and spent. GOD fixed that. Mother Earth was also very sick and worried about her children, so that’s why she was going to break out, and also her kids ignore her and don’t treat Nature very well. I’ve met Mother and she looks happy.

So, finally, I’m writing this as a piece of fiction. You know that right? The reason the world is ENDING as we know it, IS?

It is the flip flop,

In this New Age, what will work better in the home, is if men be women and women be men. Also expect that men will undergo some punishment for the harsh and unequal treatment of women. This is the Age of the Woman.

The other thing is that people are no longer required to be married, we will see more prosperity, so couples can split and each get small places of their own. Marriages if they choose, will be for love and children, and please Church let’s not judge those that don’t get married. It’s expensive! Also, Jesus said at the New Age, we won’t get married. We’ll be like the Angels in Heaven. Because marriage is skewed and flat out disadvantageous for the woman. And when two people live together it gets difficult to remember who owns what. And also, couples start to ‘own’ each other after a while, and that’s romantic but not free and not joyful.

Check it out. I’m not saying it WILL HAPPEN? I’m saying there is a push towards that. Try it out, and see if it works better for you,


Two More Months!

2013 marks a new time in my life. It is a new beginning.

I have also met LOVE,

February 14, 2013 will be my last and first post on this blog, so if you have any questions on the material on this blog, please send them to me via contact form, if not it’s okay too. If there are enough questions we can post them as a FAQ page.

It’s been great posting and learning along with you, GOD bless and PEACE and may GOD in His Great Mercy always BLESS you and KEEP you,


11.21.2012 – Dear Isabella,

My darling Isabella,

I am waiting for your mom, Brenda.

Netflix. Watching an olde movie, Boys and girls starring Claire Forlani and Freddie Prinze, Jr. You’ll like him, I’m sure.

Claire’s character is strong and in the end realizes that both she and that guy love each other.

I’ve raised you to be free. Follow your heart. My Spirit weeps for the lack of conviction and faith in people today. You’ll get hurt. As we, L, have but this life,

not often do we find the One,

you first become the One, you’ve always wanted to be, just be yourself,

and then when you meet the One for you, you will know it instantly! For me, I only saw your mom twice for her to be in my heart, in all my thoughts, every second, in a flash time stood still. Twinkling and phaseing, pulsing, and expanding my mind,

After we met, we became eternity. I saw our lives backwards and forwards. And I was transported tomorrow now forever into the heavens. Everyday is a sunny moon full day, filled with songs of love to the beauty of her face. So excited, everydays just to be near her, so many plans, thoughts, just want to love her sooooo good. Nothing is unshakable. But our love,

Don’t be afraid, be courageous and bold! Make me proud and really live and follow LOVE!

Sorry God, I don’t love you,

I fell today,

I can’t be your priest,

You just won’t be first anymore,

Forgive me,

Don’t be mad,

We’ll always be family and friends,


before you get mad,

it was you first, I remembet,

Every atom and quark within me is screaming at me!!!!!!!!

Brenda’s the One, go, go, go,

I’m not sorry at all, my queen, I Love Brenda!

Meditations on O.P.P.

Have you ever been so poor you,

couldn’t afford a friend?

could afford a relationship,

surely Bill Clinton understood that,

as someone said, Money and Morals go together,

when luxuries are out,

and the hearts right,

the main thing est having kids,

they are our Love and Joy,

when pleasantries are out,

what is there but to do it,

it’s Life at it’s simplest,

even if everything disappears,

we’ll still have Life,

Poem – Am I A Whore?

I have two sons,
by two different moms,
we’re friends, it’s all good,
my parents are well to do,
God said, eat fruits and make me a lot of babies!
it’s not happening,
and my babies are lined up around the block in heaven,
‘i want to be born!’

what do i do?
i hear my kids crying to be born,
God’s commands stand,
morality says no,no,no…
so many lady friends 40 and single,
never to know the bliss of marriage,
though sometimes short-lived,
never to taste the sweet of a little child?
that’s Injustice,

what do i do?

Jesus was Black and Indian?

Hi there,

Check out this:


The top population of the world in 1 AD was?


If Jesus called himself the Son of Man, which means ‘The Man’ in some sense, could He have been Indian? or Indian and Black (Afro-American)? Maybe that’s why He was rejected by the Jewish people,


LOVE, :-)

Let’s Get Real, by Guest Poster (Santana)

I’d like to voice an unpopular opinion about violence and men,

and women of course, because I qualify as one. I’ve had female spirits ‘around’ me, and I am currently a mom to my son, and my wife.

My wife comes from a let’s say complicated background. She doesn’t read this, so I hope she doesn’t mind. She is very smart, and if I didn’t know better she has some form of mind powers. Just joking. Or am I?

Females are able to get away with hurtful talk, subtle and subliminal thoughts and actions because they often do it with a smile. Or they play like they don’t know. Or they are not violent with fists, but they are sarcastically witty.

Let me say, that just as females would rather be attacked verbally, men would rather be attacked physically. The words and faithless words and discouragement hurt worse than if you just took a knife and stuck it.

It takes two to tango, and women often play the victim when both people had as much fault.

The last factors in why people are violent are the family environment, spiritual heritage, and paranormal involvement, oh AND celestial effects (the moon, solar flares, the planets, etc). The last one is one that gets me. Did you know you are affected by your environment? Your neighborhood’s ‘group thought can affect you. And have you check if your house is haunted or not? Did something happen there? Often there was.

Bottom line, fighting is fighting. And we need to learn to be peaceful people.

If it isn’t working, the only thing to do is separate. And when you miss each other and really want to try again, then please do so. BUT, this time, DO BETTER and really GET ALONG.

I hope I made friends in the male readership. Women, I’m one of you too, more like a mom, so don’t hate me, just trying to keep it real.

and LOVE,

Today I Remember,

It is the Day of Atonement today, and although I’m not an ethnic Jew, I’m one. I feel rundown, so I’m just fasting a couple of meals today and taking advantage of GOD’s Grace, heh heh. Just jokin,

I remember that GOD saved and delivered the Jewish people from Egypt and a life of slavery. But before they exited, the firstborn of Egypt and the soldiers,

How are we to understand this? I don’t know, but I know this, GOD loves everybody, given that,

There was a ‘compensation’ for the death of those in Egypt. Israel became a nation of priests. There is great joy in it, but if you are not ready for it, it can feel that way, and certainly the world doesn’t understand what you do.

Every first born belonged to GOD, that means basically these became the priests of the nation, and really the world. The required priesthood of Aaron, ended when Jesus the Messiah came. Now we are called to be priests, it si a voluntary now,

One last note, the Waves of the Red Sea closed on the ‘bad’ Egyptians. How are we to understand this? Wouldn’t an Egyptian think, I’ve been demonized by those stories and anyone sympathetic to Judaism or Christianity would consider me bad, bad, bad? Maybe at that point in time, the rulers of Egypt were not doing right. GOD, GODDESS, Mother Earth (the Sea) are Mother and Father of all. Now people of Egypt, all people are much much better than the past because of evolution, breeding, teaching, the help of higher beings and powers, etc. So I feel okay to say that, then perhaps,

Those in the ruling class of Egypt did not please GOD/GODDESS and it was their time to go. The Earth Mother took them back, took their bodies back. And of course the ‘young’ spirits/souls in them returned to the Infinite Heavens to talk it over with Hashem YHWH, Father and Mother,

A key to understanding the seemingly unfair and injustice in everyday life is what the LORD Jesus termed, ‘the resurrection’. The Sadduccees did not believe this, resurrection = rebirth. When people die, they just come back again, again, and again until their souls have learned the lessons and gained enough experience to Ascend to the next level, which is something like ‘Angelhood’. Then there is not need to reincarnate anymore,

In conclusion, GOD IS loving, GOD is fair, and GOD knows what HE/SHE is doing, He has a plan to ‘evolve’ or grow you into something really great, through life after life of every good things,

I hope you receive this, if not, that’s good too. NO pressure, you have choice and freedom, if you don’t like what I am saying, I’m good with that too. It’s your life, love you,


the Sweetness, the Love,

I got to thinking, what makes one think of the sweetheart, it’s the sweet-NESS,

When we were young, and we watched movies of teenagers having fun, getting to know each other, experiencing life, and falling in love,

What was it that we feel? It is the undying commitment and sacrificing type of love? No,

It was that feeling of freedom, of experiencing life, the feeling of no worries, smiles, goodwill, love, and sweetness,

I had a few good months of that with my wife, before we launched into the ‘work’ of having a marriage, family, and a lifestyle.

This takes wisdom, when does life go back to that? When can I just be a boy and my wife be a girl, and there’s just the two of us, hand in hand,

I Love Meateaters!

I’m now moving towards Veganism, but I’d like to profess my undying love for the meatatarian and other meat eating personages. Ha-ha, the reason is my family members like meat and I don’t. And I guess this is more of a confession, because I don’t want to be a snobby plant eater. That can be just as bad, so GOD help me to put this in perspective. Change me, and change my attitude. That’s pride, no pride…

Earning Your Wings, part 1

How do you earn your wings? I’m not an expert in teaching this, but two things I can think of:

1) When you can make the inside of yourself match the outself, and it involves honesty, and putting the inner persona and inner life, morals and the cultivation of the fruit of the Spirit first before the exterior. That is not to say to neglect the outside, because that would be irresponsible as well.

2) When you are perfect like your Father in Heaven, which means that you love all and hate none,

Please meditate on those, thank you,


My Thoughts (2 bits) on ‘Tongues’ in Church of Christ,

As someone who has SIMPLY been there and done that, I’d like to offer my experiences. Take from them what you will, can and I offer my conclusion, which should not be your conclusion, but that there usually are conclusions because that how people think. We need nice, neat and happy endings to things.

I heard about the Pentacostal and Charismatic Church in 2005. They claimed that you had to receive a second baptism of the Holy Spirit for power. They called that being baptized in the Holy Spirit. The Charismatic church appealed to me because I too believed that ‘charismata’ or the gifts of the Spirit are for today, that the Holy Spirit did not cease to give them out to those who desire them and believe. So, I didn’t really believe, but I went anyways. I left my home church (Presbyterian and very conservative), and attended St. Paul Church on Guam for about a year. There I received a laying on of hands by the headship there, and DID receive the ability to speak in tongues. It was a ‘loosening’ of my tongue. I’m not sure if what I spoke was another tongue, but the outflow of the Spirit when I tried to speak was evident to all.

I’d like to report that today I can speak many languages, and it was because of receiving that laying on hands there. And we remember that Christ said that the evidence of His disciples are 5 things:

1) Speaking of other languages,
2) Demons run from us,
3) You will pick up the snakes by the tail,
4) You will drink poison and not die,
5) and you will lay hands on others and they will be healed,

As we grow, we learn to see the Spirit of JC and not be so focused on particular people. Yes, we are commanded to love others and that includes knowing people, but the LORD Himself said that if you love mother and father more than me, you are not worthy of Him. That, to me, is a call to putting Him first in your life b/c there is Holy Work to do.

I too remember thinking what the Pastor was saying is NOT true. Our Pentacostal brothers and sisters seem to claim spiritual superiority and an insensitivity to others by saying if you don’t have the ability to speak in tongues you don’t have the Spirit. Sometimes GOD tests us. Actually GOD tests us a lot and all the time. It freakin’ drives me crazy sometimes how much he wants to train and equip us. But, there is a reason for all the urgency, people need GOD. And although GOD is all powerful and all that, time is a ticking. When you are there,

When you are in THAT church, you are hearing what YOU and ONLY YOU should hear. Looking back, I’d like to conclude, I learned a few things in my experience at the Pentacostal church. GOD is not a liar and He is in charge. He knows what He is doing. He setup the Pentacostal Church for people to go a GET the second baptism which is the baptism of the Holy Spirit. And it appears you’ve done so. Congratulations, you are on your way. And so young. Recall, the Jews had the zero baptism for non-believers, then came the Baptist with baptism for repentance and the outward/inward sign of initiation into the Church of Christ, and Christ Himself baptizes with?

Holy Spirit and Fire,

So, next? Your baptism by Fire comes and that doesn’t sound pleasant does it? Suffering, you will suffer as He did. Suffering for love, suffering for others is the Fire. It basically is suffering for Him, and you will learn to take on suffering b/c GOD’s Son suffered and because,

It is the only way to change the fallen world,

Lastly, I’d like to say, that things are not perfect, but in Christ they ARE perfect. He knows what He is doing and when you can enter that state of mind, then your heart is full of LOVE, and perfect LOVE drives out all fear, (John the Mystic/the Beloved, said that)

Many things, GOD has setup and they just are. I too have experienced injustice and suffered disappointments and seen horrible things. But that’s revealed the hero/heroine in you, didn’t it? Just as you have been given a name, somethings are SIMPLY given and accepted. Sunday IS the LORD’s Day. For a long time, I searched the Scriptures for the Truth and to prove the Pastors wrong, b/c I wanted to know better than them. NOT because I was proud, but that just revealed to me and others where I was going; the position the LORD had for me to take. Another just IS, that I discovered is that the Church (Evangelicals) ARE His Church, that means He loves them (yes, even the bad pastors that created scandal) and belongs to Him. So, we love them too b/c they are family, at least b/c you love HIM.

If you are searching for the True Church or a more Authentic Church, keep searching. They are out there. As you grow and purify yourself, you will recognize them. But of course, the Evangelical Church will say otherwise and try to deter you from learning more and growing and developing your powers and gifts. Why? Because,

Another things I think I learned is this: The Truth oftens hides in the Peace or Reconciliation of issues or conflict. Is the Sabbath Saturday or Sunday? Why can’t it be both? When things don’t make sense, if we peacefully try to bring the different sides of the issue together, you can often piece together the Truth. GOD didn’t give anyone all the pieces for those reasons,

When you tink you are alone, remember that you are NOT. GOD sees all and is BRIGHT and LOVING far GREATER than you can imagine. There are multitudes upon multitudes of Angelic Beings who LOVE you and SERVE you! Some have known you all your life and have watched and helped and guided you. Some are the spirits of your ancestors. Some participated in your creation from day one and from evolutions past,


Love and Love and Love,

In an ideal world, we would marry our sweethearts after high school and have ten kids and stay together forever and ever. My older bro and I were talking about this last week. He has divorced and remarried, and I am in a complicated relationship right now. We both came to the conclusion that there are ideal or ‘fairytale’ relationships. As a society we have in our minds, ‘the way it should be’ for everyone. And when we stop to think about it, that’s just not possible. There should be many ways to do it, as many as there are different kinds of people.

So, in a Christian world, I am ashamed to say I have been with many women. Part of my life work now is to reconnect, make amends, and have a good relationship with those women from my past. Maybe that’s why there is a break in my relationship with my wife right now, so I can do that. There was a reason those women and I crossed paths and shared something briefly, if you believe that everything happens for a reason.

So that’s another exhortation to ‘do no harm’, because when you reach a certain level of enlightenment, you may spend the last half of your life just undoing the damage you did in the first half and never really living in the pure Joy and Freedom and Richness that GOD has for you.

It’s difficult to see that GOD is doing something in your life, when it is painful and full of suffering. I am sorry for it all. It doesn’t help to hear any preaching when life is hard, what we need is help. Often, I am sorry to say, no one has helped me. I don’t know if I was such a bastard before, yeah, that’s probably it. But, that’s why if we have a chance to help we should. If only to give faith to another person in humanity, in the goodness of GOD, in the fairness and justice of the LORD.

When it comes to male female relationships, this world is whacked. Sorry, if my use of medical terms seems condescending. If the church cannot even acknowledge the equanimity (wrong) of male and female, GOD and GODDESS, then we know that as a world, as a society, we still have a long ways to go. Our Sovereign LORD Jesus said that when we go to the Heavens we will be like the Angels that neither marry or are given in marriage. And again He said in the beginning we were created male and female. And for those who really read carefully, the mystery of John the Baptist being Elijah is a reference to reincarnation. That all taken, my thoughts are:

Sometimes, especially on earth, we meet people who will point us to our ‘other half’. Maybe I wasn’t suppose to get so romantic and serious with other women. We were to be friends and I would learn what I like and don’t like. Never hurting, never using, never controlling but serving in Love. Angels must have perfected loving relationships without lording and controlling each other. So when you meet the ‘one’ you will most definitely know and be prepared for a lifelong relationship with him and her. The other women were suppose to help me as sisters, but instead we have regrets about past words and deeds. They actually did help, but the regrets. If you believe in many lifetimes, then sometimes you have to wait til the next lifetime to get it right with your other half. I have reached a point in my life where I am willing to be that patient. I’ve found the one, and things aren’t right. I know through Faith I am sure she is my one and only. But she and I are not good together right now. I will wait for her for the rest of my life if need be.

So, those of you out there with eyes to see and ears to hear, that is my understanding of the Truth. However, everyone has different strengths. Mine just happens to be in the area of marriage and sexuality. Like the Apostle Paul I have the gift of singleness, but I have found my sweetheart. Those of you who don’t see things this way, I am not preaching. It’s your life and how you think about it is what you should think. This is just my take on things and what I think is GOD’s best for us. If you know you have found the one and have problems then please try your best. If you haven’t found the one, then it’s simply that we must learn how to engage and treat our brothers and sisters. I hope that makes sense,


A Look at Favoritism, a Study of James

We saw that in James 1, a major trial of life is to be happy with your lot in life. If it is to be a humble person, to accept that and not want to be a rich person. And vice versa. Yes, unbelievable, but often times especially spiritual, wealthy people want to have a humble and simple life.

In James 2, this chapter is written to the rich. Surprisingly, it is revealed here, that most of the time, not all, the poor in the church, are the leaders in matters of faith. What is the cause of much suffering in a monetized world where we all depend on a money system? It is money or the lack thereof. In Jewish Scripture, the righteous, wealthy man runs after the poor to give to him. In many stories, we see the rich and the poor, working together. The rich gives out of love, and the poor has to accept in humility. If GOD created us all complete and without need and without each other, why would we need to come together? It is yet another way GOD binds us together as family and community.

The rich set up the money system. Alan Greenspan, a Hebrew, obviously an economic genius, is most likely a rich genius. Being rich is a talent. Understanding money and how to handle and make money is a talent. Some people just don’t understand it. Most people don’t, that is why they can just get jobs and be told what to do. Money is a game, like monopoly but for real. But with any game, battle, or anything, you need luck or GOD on your side. And to get GOD on your side, you really NEED to be nice to people, take care of people.

James uses VERY strong language and metaphors:
– exploitation of poor, dragging them into courts, blaspheming (which just means disrespecting GOD) the name of Jesus,
– Love your neighbor as yourself, adultery, murder, etc.,

James reminds us that Christ chose a humble life. James himself it seems chose a humble life. Maybe people weren’t giving to him as he thought they should. But most likely the anger we hear in James about the treatment of the poor is godly anger at the sight of parents not being taken care of by their children, leaders who chose poverty in order to serve GOD and the poor and the spiritual needs of others not being taken care of by others, etc. The suffering experienced by those in leadership was unnecessary if others did their part. One reason, in my thinking, James mentions the Law, is because if you really study the Law of Hashem (as the Jews call GOD), it is 613 Laws. The Law is not only 10 or 7 Noahide Rules or 2. For those not keeping 10, keeping 613 is totally out of reach. But we need to know there are 613 Laws. Some of them seem stupid, like not cutting your hair, but that’s the difference between Divine Law and the Law of Man. Man’s laws are more practical and based on different principles. One main principle on which Divine Law is based on is Love for GOD. If you love your mother, and she insists that you pick out all the blue M&Ms before serving her up some M&Ms in a crystal bowl for your time together every month, then you just do it. So Divine Law states, if you Love GOD, just don’t cut the hair at the sides of your head. Silly? Yes, but.

Just LOVE,

My Hats Off To Our African American Bros and Sisters,

On my way to Los Angeles from Guam,

I was stopped both in Guam and in Hawaii by Airport Security. Because of my appearance, largeness (and in-charge-ness, haa), and sweatiness, and the metal in my hip and legs, I was pulled aside and searched more thoroughly, if you understand.

My son was there watching. And on the second leg of the trip, I helped a elderly, larger, African American woman navigate the airport in Hawaii. The Hawaii airport can be confusing if you haven’t been there before. After I exited the search room with my son with perhaps a upset look on my face, there was the woman walking by, smiling assurance. She said, “Now you know …”

If we stop to think, and really be honest. The African American people are extremely intelligent, loving, soulful, and talented people. But, as a community, when we compare us peoples, they seem the most robust and threatening. Their size, strength, power, and dark skin may intimidate us and so we don’t often look at them as people, but we often cannot get past the surface. What I mean by that is, we think “Big, scary, dark skin, scary, tall, scary…” and so we have an emotional or subconscious aversion or negative preconception already.

Just as you can or even want to get close to an elephant, lion, or rhino at the zoo, couldn’t we show the same kind of open-mindedness and trust and interest in a fellow man? People are strange. Us people just don’t make sense sometimes, and we’re suppose to be at the top of the chain,

This World,

The world we live in has been compromised,

And although we can live in our ivory towers and be shining lights,

It is more Christ-like to dive into the muck and help, especially those that really need the help,

Who are those? They are the ones that everyone hates, yes, even you, even the Christians,

I’ve learned that even a crime done with a noble heart is not a crime at all,

You will be punished for the crime, but sometimes in THIS WORLD, that is what we have to do,

Doing bad, or doing dirt is like getting dirty. Sometimes we cannot be afraid to get dirty,

That’s why we need Jesus, our High Priest, to clean us up, and to speak for us,

The more important thing is INTENTION,

Enough for today, May GOD, the LORD Jesus Christ, bless you,


GOD is LOVE, GOD is in the LOVE,

So you see people worshiping, singing to the LORD Jesus. They are singing contemporary Christian music that sounds frankly like all types of popular love songs. They really love it. They are really getting into it. You can see their eyes shut, smiling, hands reaching out, and they are really trying to connect to GOD.


Is this the only way to worship? The lyrics and emotional movement of the music make it a very, very good way to communicate to the One True GOD how you feel and how you regard Him/Her, but what I realized today is that these people were able to reach out and connect to GOD because?

They all really LOVE music,

Of course, when you reach out, GOD reaches back, and when you honor Him by seeking Him at His House, He honors you with His presence.

But my simple point is that whatever you LOVE to do, GOD can reach you through that. The flip-side of that is if you really dislike going to a church, maybe you want to try a different church? Maybe you want to try to go less frequently? Because although GOD can meet you anywhere and although GOD can do the impossible. I just don’t understand being forced to do things. I understand duty sometimes and one should be rewarded for said duty, but if you don’t enjoy something, why do it? Really, unless there is some other reason I don’t understand, and then that’s up to you.

In my youth, :-), I loved to play sports. When I would jump up and hit a jump shot or spike one down hard, in that split second there was a touching of GOD and heaven. It was like worship music or uh, orgasm during sex. Do what you love, don’t be afraid to fail, GOD is a loving GOD, GOD will cover you, with persistence and hard work and good choices and a little of heavenly ‘luck’, YOU will SUCCEED!


Everyone Is Going Thru Something,

When I remember how I used to be,

Many people I meet are shiny, happy people with great personalities, no major problems, great jobs, great hair, great girlfriends/boyfriends, etc. They’re just GREAT! And they are the envy of everyone.

I don’t know why but the people, the world I’ve been around are people with problems. They can’t be happy for any length of time. And they selflessly DON’T talk incessantly about their problems. But, I know they have major problems because they are such angry, imbalanced, and sarcastic people. Their thought processes are different and they don’t really see things the way most people do.

Call it what you want to, but I just know that one day, I too will go through something again. I did, from about age 17 to 29 was in a major funk. It was the LORD Jesus that brought me out of it. Life throws curve balls at us all the time. And I know, many people were there for me when I was all alone. Or I thought I was. I hope that I can be there for somebody, always there. And when it’s my turn, she will always be there for me.


My Mother, I Get,

I have been so, so fortunate to have a second chance on life,

What I mean is, I was in a really serious car accident in 2001, and had to come home to Guam to rehab. And so I got to spend a lot of time with my mom and dad, especially my dad.

When I was growing up, my brothers and I never saw my dad enough. Maybe that’s why I have over compensated and spend all my time with my son. He really like it, he never can get enough of me. And I’ll enjoy this while I can, especially hugging on him and tender moments. Because it won’t last. Sometimes I wish my dad and i were closer but being a man doesn’t preclude this anymore. But my point, is my parents and I are solid. I know them very, very well. And I know them in deeper ways because of the same Spirit that binds us all.

My mother and all people, especially old people are not easy books. Prophet people often think they know it all and they are always right. It takes sensitivity and humility and truth to know that just as no one can understand the depths of the Spirit of GOD, know one can really understand the depths of anyone person created by GOD, just b/c we, people, are also spiritual beings.

My mother is a funny person, but her jokes are hard to get. She likes Bible jokes, she is not a laugh out loud jokey jokey type person, but her humor is more cerebral and sarcastic. My mother is very complicated because she is a disciplinarian and likes to argue, not debate but argue. Yet, she is most definitely a mature Christian. I can see the power of love and life within her because people are still drawn to her even though she has a very tough exterior. And all around her, trees, plants, flowers blossom and grow like there are no more tomorrows.

My mother likes to act. Her main purpose is to help and grow people and bless people. She allows people to dislike her, but it always works to bless people. She doesn’t really mind it, because she is very strong. And I just trust her, because she has many decades of helping people and observing people, so she must really understand the human personality. My parents like to give money away, but the problem is people are proud and they don’t often can return the money. My parents like to be assholes so that people will feel like they don’t have to return the money. You understand? I think about things a lot, maybe too much sometimes.

As we transition to Father’s Day, I’d like to transition my post. I just, just accepted the Father into my life, and He accepted me. The biggest issue He had with me, was my violent nature. I’ve since corrected that, and now my father and I are really getting to know each other and talk. It can be confusing, this world and the spiritual world, but as you mature you will be able to understand and phase back and forth. Behind it all, is the Most High GOD, and His purposes. It is difficult to understand the Father because He is so High and Big. But a lot of times when we need help deciding, it is often our biological fathers that our Father in Heaven chooses to speak through. Sometimes it is that simple. In this special months of May and June, don’t forget to call your parents and tell them, “I Love You!”


When the Student is Ready, BLANK appears,

As they say, when the student is ready, the teacher appears,

Whatever GOD is working on with you: be it covetousness (that’s a tough one), honesty, stealing (what about the ol’ mp3s?), sex and sexuality, and violence?

Let me start in reverse order b/c violence has been my latest triumph. And GOD does want us to be victorious in our lives! GOD really started to work with me on this one three years ago. I moved to Seattle and my dad made me move back. When my dad told me to I was thinking WTF. But I heard the Spirit through and through what he was saying. My Heavenly Father compelled me to return to Guam.

I come from a background and lineage of military people. This I know. My great great great grandfather was a high ranking officer in the Dutch military who was granted a fief, so to speak. No, it was colonial times so he was granted control of a large area of land by the Dutch government. On that land, he employed the locals to labor in building projects, farming, etc.

I am a NBK. By nature I should be in Law Enforcement, but after following Christ, I can’t go that way anymore. So it is difficult when you aren’t working in your natural strengths. GOD used the withholding of $$$ to really break me up about this. There were many times I thought about committing a crime to make money. I know that some of our biggest baddest fighters and warriors are? In prison. Why? Because they are just too dangerous to live in normal society. It isn’t that they committed a crime first? It is because of the reaction of society to them and being hated and being pegged as assholes and thugs and not being able to get and/or keep a job. Bosses don’t like to hire someone who could be dangerous.

After three years of breaking shit, almost getting thrown in jail, and mostly beating myself up over failing again and again, I tried the unthinkable, a Biblical solution. Fasting and praying. And it worked, thank Jesus! I am also mostly vegetarian b/c I don’t want to be a hurtful and aggressive person. I’ve been ‘clean and sober’ for…about three months now. I say sober because when you get angry, you really can’t think. So being a person who likes to think I am somewhat intelligent, I now don’t freak out or get mad b/c I want to keep my head. It is really easy to see. Just really observe people who lose their cool often. It isn’t their cool they lose, they lose their minds and their ability to reason very quickly.

What I’d like to say lastly is that when I really started to get on top of this problem, I saw GOD’s encouragement. He started to bless me with money. My surroundings started to get more beautiful. My home was filled with more furniture, food, it was cleaner, my family was happier, laughing, and they were verbally encouraging me. People still react to me initially the same way, but I’m learning to not react back or smile more or do something that makes them laugh. I also try to talk more so they can get the sense that I’m not really like that. And I don’t mind going the extra step to make people feel at ease. I don’t know why, but I just look like a bad guy. I sound like a bad guy. And I’ve been told that I just look like I stink.

I also started to notice Angels all around me. They are happy I got the victory. When I start to stumble a little bit, I can always sense they are helping me. It is usually an Angel’s voice within someone else’s voice while people are talking as I go about my business everyday. But as I move to Los Angeles (I was just there a couple weeks ago), the Angels have mostly always been Catholics or Jewish People. Mostly Jewish People. I really like them. They have a certain look, but it’s…I just like them. The fasting and prayers changed me, but the Angels help and now mostly it was/is because my wife is cold to me, still. I’m determined to win her back over time.

To be continued,

I Saw Your Teardrops and Heard You Cry,

These are lyrics of the song – “I’m Your Angel” by Celine Dion and R. Kelly,

What do you do when GOD asks you to watch and pray? You don’t sleep anymore and can sleep or stay awake anytime. It is said in the Jewish scriptures that the dedicated students of Torah, meet with the LORD in the garden at midnight.

No problem,

What do you do when GOD pushes you to change. He shows you that violence is NOT the Way. He shows you, NO convinces you that gentleness, kindness, goodness is the Way. Period. No double mindedness. No wavering between sternness and severity AND gentleness and peacefulness. So, He changes me, and I accept His change.

No problem,

What do you do when GOD asks you to fast and pray. He asks you to push yourself to two, three, then four days of fasting. You pray and sing into the night. The suffering of days, abuse heaped on you, sickness thrown on you, all the crap of everyone you’ve encountered in the last few days becomes the gift of tears as you give it all up to the LORD.

No problem, just part of the call,

So, what do you do when GOD moves the neighbors in. They are always partying, always have different people over at all times of the night, they treat their kids good, fight with other tenants, and don’t help the apartment look nice and clean. At first, you avoid them and complain about them. But what happens if GOD gives you Love for them? We love them now. We still have a hard time with them, but they are always on your hearts, mind, and in our prayers.

I have a problem with how life has treated them. When I took the trash out at 2 AM, on more than one occasion, I saw you sitting by yourself, back turned to me, drunk, not aware of me there, crying and obviously crying to GOD. You were praying, and I know He heard you. I will not forget that until you have moved into the better/best life GOD has for you,

Is Robot Me Expensive?

My son asked me, “Is robot me expensive?”, since I always talk about buying all the toys he wants being expensive. And we see robot shows on TV.

He brings to my mind something I read a long, long time ago. A robot that can do some kind of work, say on an assembly line, is worth – millions of dollars.


Yet, we don’t value life, babies, ourselves. People put each other down. People treated each other like crap.

It shouldn’t be this way.

You really are a living miracle of a masterpiece. No one on this earth can engineer a human being. You are absolutely priceless.

Please believe that if not anything else. You are intrinsically worth probably $1,000,000,000,000,000. Just by standing there you are worth that. Because you are a biological wonder. Priceless! Love yourself and treat others with respect, please.


Why o Why? Thank Jesus for Thy Peace and Love,

Jesus cares about each and everyone of us. At some level, we all know it and feel it. But the experiences and pain of the past, the deafening loud experience of the here and now, drown out the still, small voice of the LORD Jesus.

I guess that’s why it is important to have ‘quiet time’ with GOD each morning if possible,

Right now, my life is not all puppy dogs and rainbows. But, I have faith in Jesus, that He is doing something and has His eye on me, and will not let me fall. Even though it feels like I can freak out anytime. He holds me together as He holds the entire Universe together by His mighty Word!

I just breathe, take things slow, and keep smiling. I keep my eye on the ball, the prizes – which are my Jesus (never, never, never leave You), my wife, my son, and my parents. I also pray for my family, my extended family, church family, neighborhood, the communities in which I belong, societies, countries, and the world, and the Universe. Praying unceasingly helps me through this life, a lot.

As a guy, I can’t talk about anything, so my relationship and trust in Sovereign LORD Jesus is deepening. It really seems true that nothing is really free. The Israelites were freed from Egypt at the cost of the firstborn of the Egyptians, we, Gentiles now have faith, at the cost of the unbelief of the Jews. And my wife’s relationship with GOD, it seems, is blossoming (though I can’t see it), at the cost of my relationship with her.

GOD’s Good Name,

Right now, Christians DO NOT have a good name in the United States,

Some of that is because Christians are hated, and some of that is because we hate, let it be the latter and not the former,

In the oft quoted book of Malachi, we see GOD saying He is a Great King, and that He is concerned about His Name! That is very, very, very, very, very, very true.

Just because we are strangers and persecuted in this world, doesn’t mean that we can do what every we want. We are strangers b/c most of the world does not really know or practice GOD’s good ways. That know it, but they don’t do it. They hate us, b/c we are good.

So, let’s take the game up another level, and love, really love. Because GOD, Jesus’ GOOD NAME is at stake. If we really want to honor, nay, revere and worship GOD, then we need to be MORE CONSCIOUS of PROTECTING HIS GOOD NAME.

How do we do that? Not only by being blameless, because often that is not possible, but by being peaceful, loving people that forgive and are quick to ask for forgiveness and put things right.


How to Clear Your Space, A Letter to Dark Prophets and Prophetesses,

My dear Brothers and Sisters,  if it helps you to be strictly called Prophets or Prophetesses that is good.  Propriety is good.  But, it’s not for everyone.  And GOD understands that, if not, then He/She is NOT GOD.  I’m sorry for that firmness, it’s sometimes not welcoming.

I too come from a line of idolaters.  I too have delved into darkness.  I have been undiscerning and caught the attention of the forces of darkness.  But now I am mostly free of it.  Allow me to share my experiences and methods with you.  And although I shudder to pray FOR you all.  I pray to the MOST HIGH GOD, our Wonderful Saviour Jesus, to comfort you All and please, please deliver you all swiftly.

Darkness, as I am told is a way.  And there are many powerful, intelligent, cunning, and scary dark beings.  I don’t like to think about it, but I love and open (and close) myself.  That is one of my methods.  For where there is perfect love, there can be no darkness.  My faith is that:

-GOD is infinitely MORE powerful than the darkness. (Don’t be afraid)
-GOD loves you, and as revealed as Jesus the Saviour will deliver you. (Be patient)
-Even if you think numbers, Light outnumbers Dark, and GOD is Light, so it is not really balanced at all. (Do not fear)
-So what is He waiting for? I don’t know why but obedience has to be learned. Our family histories reveal bad relationships with our parents. We were disobedient to our parents, and so we find it hard to obey GOD even when we heard Him/Her.

As people sensitive to spirit and the moving of the Spirit. Do you see that GOD speaks to us through our parents. Even parents that are far from perfect. His/Her Spirit speaks through them b/c we need to see often. The physical plane or simply put our day to day lives and past on earth is what we have to work through in a REAL way.

What I mean by that is although you accepted Jesus Christ and you are going to Heaven, would He allow you to go forward without addressing at least some of your past mistakes? He wants you to have victory over your past and to be able to experience ‘sinlessness’. People who no longer have the desire to cheat on their spouses just don’t have that dark bit inside of them anymore. There is nothing for the outside spirit to latch onto and so you are basically ‘dead’ or better yet ‘unresponsive’ to that ‘sin’. Sorry, a lot of quotes.

To me, this is the main thing that us baby Christians don’t get. You have to clear your space and clean up your own mess. That is what GOD wants you to do. The best example I can think of is, say you are young and you get an apartment. You trash the place, never clean it or even call to have it maintained or fixed then you move. You move on to the next place. Inside you feel bad, you tell yourself, ‘Oh, I will turn over a new leaf at the next place.’ But you don’t. And you end up trashing the next place too. What can you do? Now you are feeling guilty.

Being a parent now. And GOD is the BEST parent. I would move in or visit often and show them how to keep their place clean. AND I would ask them to visit the former landlord and AT LEAST apologize for the rough treatment of their property. And IF you want to clear your space, you need to DO SOMETHING to make amends. You have to PAY for what you did.

So, now the baby Christian (some with spiritual powers, or not) says, “BUT, what about Jesus? Isn’t He washing my sins away and paying for me?” Yes, in the beginning. But both you and He know when you are bullshitting. Sorry for the strong language. When it is time for you to move on, grow, obey, do something and you don’t – that makes the job of those (to help you ascend) difficult and so you are inviting punishment on yourselves.

Also, when you have sin within and don’t clear that out. The darkness has a claim on you. It is like if you don’t clean your house, take a bath, or wash your clothes, or eat right, sleep, or keep alcohol and drug use low. You are inviting sickness and death into your life. Maybe that’s the better level for spiritual people to think at. Because sometimes spiritual sight of darkness and uncleanness is really scary and overwhelming.

So be a clean person – inside and out. And be an active person. Actively refute negative and sick thoughts and actively keep an area around you the way you like it and clean and organized. And be healthy. That means a lot of things which may be an adventure to discover. Everyone has equal dignity and no one person is better because they have this gift or that. Everyone has gifts and everyone is not the same. But how you use your gift is important. Do you use it for good and with good intention and motive? Better yet are you effective with your gift too? Or are you using your gift in the wrong way. The keywords for us today is MATURITY as HEALTHINESS and ACTIVENESS and OBEDIENCE.

Love you,
and LOVE Above All,

The Hearts of Many Will Grow Cold,

It is the situation now.

We are in a different time now. I remember when people were really different. People cared more. They believed in more than themselves. And they had loyalties and true friendships.

It is really sad, but nowadays people don’t really have time for anyone else. What is the motivating factor now? It is money. Give me something, maybe it’s not money, but give me something and then I’ll talk to you. Give me something and then I’ll help you. What about helping someone because you can today? What about helping someone because they are your family? Nowadays people don’t even do that. I understand that is the way the world works and if you want anything done, that’s the way. But, I’m talking about something else too. What are we passing onto our children? Any values at all? Or have we become a country of mercenaries? Of course it is not all that bad, but things really have changed since I was a kid. People have grown increasingly cold and selfish. They don’t seem to have any sense of higher purposes or even want to talk about such things.

On the other hand, the general thinking on such matters has become better. It is really confusing. The attitude towards women, homosexuals, human rights, animal rights, vegetarianism, ecology, etc. in general is much better. That is really good. But at the same time there is a disconnect in the way we interact as groups and at the society level.

I’m not helping much with any kind of solution, but there is the problem pointed out. Sorry,


Brief Bible Study – Gospel of John 1, Baptism

Baptism? What is it all about? There is sprinkling, immersion, etc.

But what did it mean in the beginning? Ah. Baptism was a practice of the priests on Gentiles to grant them access to the Holy Place. It was only done on Gentiles. So when John, not a priest but a son of a Priest, started just to baptise, the Pharisees and Sadducees questioned him. An then, he was baptizing Jews or Israelites for repentence.

Nowadays, we just submit to baptism as an ‘ordinance’ of the church. But often, afterwards, we still don’t know what it means. What is the history of it. When John was baptizing Israelites it was a NEW THING.

Priests were very confused. Because they were stuck with the traditions and doing things they were taught. So, they did not understand that GOD is always changing and always coming up with new things. The Bahais know this. Still many clergy today DON’T know this. That makes John, or made John a what? A Prophet. Prophets get revelations and new ideas of GOD’s plan from GOD Himself. Does that really make John better than priests? Maybe He would incur envious disdain from priests, but really John was/is just doing His job. His position would seem Higher, closer to the Divine. Some of that would be a result of lineage, but a lot of it was GOD’ favor and some of John’s willingness to suffer, sacrifice, be pure, and be close to GOD.

Well John got his head cut off. It is wonderful to be a prophet, eh?

John talks about one telling him to baptise. That would probably be the WORD or His Angels. Imagine meditating, then John gets the WORD telling Him, you have to start baptising Israelites for repentence in the wilderness. It will be a totally new thing and a lot of clergy will be confused and mad at you. But that’s my job for you.

Another thing is John was told by the WORD that the One you baptise when the Spirit comes down from Heaven and rests on Him, that is the Messiah, the Saviour of the World! So if the WORD was in the beginning and took flesh, the WORD, our GOD, the Son of GOD told John that John, he would recognize Himself (the WORD) in the flesh when John (he) baptised Him. Get it? It was like a little game. GOD told John, part of starting this baptising thing is that you will find the Messiah by baptising. And then your job will pretty much be done, I’ll take over.

Cool, huh?

Jesus, the Magician?

Often Christians say that ‘real Christians’ do not have any powers.  Is that true?  Jesus the Christ:

1)Healed sicknesses

2)Exorcized bad spirits

3)Turned water into wine

4)Feed five thousand

5)Fed four thousand

6)Rebuked the storm

7)Walked on water

And many, many, more.

So what do I think about that?  GOD says practicing magic arts is not good.  What is the difference?

Basically, who they get power from is one.  Bad guys call on bad spirits to help them, but the bad spirits probably end up owning them.  How they use the power is another.  Jesus’ power/miracles were always to help people.  Practitioners of magic arts use their power to hurt people and get ill gotten gain.  The third point many be a new one for you.  Practitioners of magic arts are called practitioners.  That means perhaps they were not meant to have powers.  They just chase after it.  For example, if a person who is really gifted in drawing, sculpture, and design, all of a sudden abandons that and gets into say, deep sea diving.  Then that person may not be operating within their natural gifting from GOD.  Their powers are from striving and rapaciously grasping and dealing with bad spirits.

The last point is they may not be considered worthy from the standpoint of good.  GOD awards spiritual gifts on the basis of need, mostly to build up the body as the Scripture says, but gifts are given again and again when the recipient is worthy.  That means if they are good.  I haven’t been good lately.  So, please say a prayer for me.