The New Age

Hi everyone, my time on this blog is almost ended. See you on another one. But, know this: Surprise, there is no end of the world.

Are you mad?

The heavenlies, in characteristic fashion, were just testing everyone.

The next days before the 21st are judgment days, so expect to be sleepy and to maybe lose something, or gain something. And dont’ be surprised if you remember hearing GOD sound like Ben Affleck or Casy Affleck or something.

What was the fear? The fear was that the Sun would go Supernova and I did see that the core was black and spent. GOD fixed that. Mother Earth was also very sick and worried about her children, so that’s why she was going to break out, and also her kids ignore her and don’t treat Nature very well. I’ve met Mother and she looks happy.

So, finally, I’m writing this as a piece of fiction. You know that right? The reason the world is ENDING as we know it, IS?

It is the flip flop,

In this New Age, what will work better in the home, is if men be women and women be men. Also expect that men will undergo some punishment for the harsh and unequal treatment of women. This is the Age of the Woman.

The other thing is that people are no longer required to be married, we will see more prosperity, so couples can split and each get small places of their own. Marriages if they choose, will be for love and children, and please Church let’s not judge those that don’t get married. It’s expensive! Also, Jesus said at the New Age, we won’t get married. We’ll be like the Angels in Heaven. Because marriage is skewed and flat out disadvantageous for the woman. And when two people live together it gets difficult to remember who owns what. And also, couples start to ‘own’ each other after a while, and that’s romantic but not free and not joyful.

Check it out. I’m not saying it WILL HAPPEN? I’m saying there is a push towards that. Try it out, and see if it works better for you,


Sorry God, I don’t love you,

I fell today,

I can’t be your priest,

You just won’t be first anymore,

Forgive me,

Don’t be mad,

We’ll always be family and friends,


before you get mad,

it was you first, I remembet,

Every atom and quark within me is screaming at me!!!!!!!!

Brenda’s the One, go, go, go,

I’m not sorry at all, my queen, I Love Brenda!

Meditations on O.P.P.

Have you ever been so poor you,

couldn’t afford a friend?

could afford a relationship,

surely Bill Clinton understood that,

as someone said, Money and Morals go together,

when luxuries are out,

and the hearts right,

the main thing est having kids,

they are our Love and Joy,

when pleasantries are out,

what is there but to do it,

it’s Life at it’s simplest,

even if everything disappears,

we’ll still have Life,

Poem – Job Report I

Some insites on Job
da keyboard is brken,

Job was old,
Job was being considered for the position of son,
Satan is a son, black hole sun,
Satan is the testor, pass and you are in,

His friends did not comfort him in his pain,
we often choose justice & judgment,
over mercy, kindness, and understanding,

In the end, Lord reveals that Job has always been his son,
and to receive back what he lost and more,
he prayed for his friends who spoke wrong of God.

God is never wrong,
and it is difficult to never charge others,
With wrongdoing, but God never does,
that is it,


Don’t cross the little kids,

Children have the most powerful Angels, so always treat them right. As a group they can be rather terrible when agitated, so be forewarned!

Thoughts on Mina, Ten, Five or, None?

This is going to go fat, uh, I mean fast, so please follow along,

Mina like Denari, was a year’s wage,

So, the Master gave His servants each one year’s wage, check out Eugene Cho’s website, by the way, One Day’s Wages, please Google it,

When He returned, He checked on their productiveness. To me, what this means could be two interpretations.

1) The Mina represents money or not. GOD wants us to be faithful in how we handle money. Some say you have to be able to multiply the money He gives you. That is correct. But recall Jesus says buying and selling is not the Way, trading or giving is closer to Kingdom Ways,

2) The Mina buys people for Christ. And when you have them, they are represented by Mina. You need to keep or disciple them for Christ. Don’t lose the ones Christ gives you. For example, if you married a non-believer, they converted, but then you split up. Stay connected to them, and love them, and keep checking on them.

3) We can try to be 10 Mina people. What I mean by that is, we can actually do financial calculations. If GOD gave you $420,000, and you now can count 14 people you are discipling then $420,000/$42,000 (a year’s wage) is 10. 14/10 = 1.4. That’s only slightly better than the guy who got the heat from GOD. :-(

4) But, if you know in your heart of hearts that GOD has given you say 7 cities. Then you did a 7 fold multiplying. In your prayers, wide scattering of money, going around and loving random people, and many spiritual disciplines given away, you actually helped 70 people! Wow, congratulations, you have done VERY WELL!


Why is this important?

Thank you Christina Perri,

5000 B.C. – GOD, Son of GOD, and Adam,

4000 B.C. – Jared, Enoch (Fu Xi?), and Methuselah,

3000 B.C. – Lamech, Noah, and Shem,

2200 B.C. – Peleg, Reu, and Serug,

2000 B.C. – Terah, Abraham, and Issac,

1800 B.C. – Judah, Perez, and Hezron,

1600 B.C. – Amminadab, Nahshon, and Salmon,

1400 B.C. – Moses, Joshua, and Caleb,

1200 B.C. – Salmon, Boaz, and Obed,

1000 B.C. – David, Solomon, and Menelik,

00000000 – Joseph, Jesus, and Gebiyah,

200 A.D. – (The dates on St. Augustine are wrong b/c he was contemporary w/ Pliny)

Monica, Augustine, and Adeodatus,

400 A.D. – Merovech, Childerich, and Clovis

600 A.D. – King Suddhodana (Lao Tzi), Siddhartha Gautama, and Joshua Hsueh Chen,

1000 A.D. – Earl of Ibelin, Bailian, and Helvis,

1200 A.D. – King Charles II and Maria of Hungary, Charles Martel of Anjou, and Charles Robert,

1400 A.D. – Vlad II, Vlad Tepes & Mina, and the Mihai,

1600 A.D. – Medmed III, Ahmed I, and Osman II,

1800 A.D. – King Rama III, King Rama IV, and Prince Chitchareon

2000 A.D. – Jaime and Brenda 4ever

‘New Age’ Health Tip,

Sun gazing, as they call it, is very important to good health. I’m doing all of the following:

– No coffee, just water,
– breathing exercises, and keeping the windows open mostly all the time,
– a LOT of walking,
– a mostly vegan diet,

but what really enJOYed me, put the LOVE and unshakable JOY in me, was the SUNGAZING, and regular devotional practices of prayer for others and meditations,

Believe this or not, the SUN is the source of Life on Earth. From the Sun, the Earth was created, and the SUN participated in every creation and evolution of life on Earth. It is highly arguable, but most probable that their is intelligence on the Sun. When we see Solar Flares we are seeing activity and movement and that denotes intelligence and life.

More than health and vitality, the SUN can also stream intelligence and knowledge on it’s sunbeams. Why not? We can send intelligence over radio waves.

So the sungaze is a meditation done whenever you want to. But just look at the sun, but not directly. Allow the sun to be positioned where the Indians usually put their bindis (the red dots on the forehead). That way the Sun is not blinding you, us. And maybe for 5 minutes, recite a prayer or meditate, just be.

I’m sure, with regular sungazing, your life will be better. You will feel better. Jesus Himself, said, “The eye of the body is the lamp, if the body is filled with light…” How do you fill the body with light? You allow it to enter the eye! It has also been said that the light going in the body is vital for the bodies’ chemical and metabolic/catabolic processes, etc.


Hallelujah! Amen! Uh, huh?

When we have joy in our hearts we often say “HALLELUJAH”!

When we hear something we like or wish for, we say, “AMEN”!

But why?

Sometimes, it’s just because,

But wanting to know why is important too,

Often when a question forms in our minds, we might need to go another step and ask, “Do I really want to know the answer to this question?” Just as we have meta-knowledge, we now have a meta-question,

Because unanswered questions, like unanswered prayers, can build up, and yes, like Bruce Almighty, this can give you a headache,

Hallelujah, if one looks at Hebrew (arguably, the language of the Kingdom, and a higher vibration language,), Hallelujah is H, L, L, L, J, H, because Hebrew has no vowels.

H = ‘Heh’,
This is the Breath of GOD,

L = ‘Lamed’,

J = ‘Yod’,
The Divine Spark,

Some extra characters for fun,


If you understand pictographic languages, you combine the meanings of the forms so to speak, and the ideas or meaning you get, is the meaning,


ET Phone Phone,

Okay, I lightened it up a bit,

But would you WORSHIP?

Not because it is due, not because of fear or because you want something,

Because YOU LOVE and MISS GOD your Mother and Father,

There lives in you, the Eternal Spirit spark which is basically ‘a piece’ of GOD,

So it’s like you are at boarding school, and you are forgetting your purpose and your mission and you are forgetting to CALL HOME.

Worship is spontaneous, forgetful of self, expressing of Pure LOVE to GOD, and it is cultivated through the experiences we choose. If we live to serve from LOVE, and not for profit or for self aggrandizing or selfish motives, we then become people who experience JOY. JOY is given from above, and is a way for reaching out and touching the High Energies of GOD,

Please meditate on that,


What is an Adam and Eve? The Adamic Sons,

We are getting new information which should ease the suffering of those whom society greatly misunderstand, though some misguidance has been part of the equation.

We are not simply humans, among us are many, many different types of creatures and even walk among invisible to the naked eye, higher and Angelic Beings. The inheritors of Earth or Urantia are the original man, who some call the BaKaRe. This civilization started in Africa, and predates all modern societies such as Egypt, China, India, the Urgitities, etc. The Earth is much older than you suppose and have been told. There have been transplanted races of human stock, ETs, fallen Angels, visitations of timeless beings, incarnated beings, etc.

The Adamic Sons, which are/were Sons of GOD, came to Earth to help, in the way of sex creation, procreation. So, when you see someone who struggles with sexuality in having many partners and having many kids. It is NOT always because they are evil and need to be exorcized or ostracized or mad to feel bad by church. Sometimes it is the Adamic DNA in them expressing their function which is to HAVE A LOT OF KIDS. But, the Laws of YHWH still apply,

It is best if we remain with one partner, but if not possible, GOD can do the impossible. Let us not worry about the future of how we will relate to each other in the Heavens,


The choices you make may cause suffering, but sometimes we as a society lack the understanding, and it might serve us better to be more tolerant, peaceable, and merciful. And we can just say, “I DON’T KNOW.” But, I’ll love you anyway.

In Your Service,

Earning Your Wings, part 1

How do you earn your wings? I’m not an expert in teaching this, but two things I can think of:

1) When you can make the inside of yourself match the outself, and it involves honesty, and putting the inner persona and inner life, morals and the cultivation of the fruit of the Spirit first before the exterior. That is not to say to neglect the outside, because that would be irresponsible as well.

2) When you are perfect like your Father in Heaven, which means that you love all and hate none,

Please meditate on those, thank you,


Following Your Heart in Hard,

GOD has been teaching me to follow Him, to do what is right, because often the people around you will disagree. Or they will get mad. Or they will cry and make noises.

When you can see what is the right thing to do, often you just have to do it. Recently, everyone around me has been discouraging. But I can see what is the plan, what people need and want, and what I must do. This is because I really know my people. But, everyone is getting set in their ways, is afraid, and just plain unwilling to do anything.

It’s GOD and me, and surprisingly my 4 year old son. He told me, “It’s me and you, Dad.” I will always remember this.

But you may think, “Why not wait it out and let GOD figure it out and do something and open a door?” I have thought about that and prayed about that and that’s not what’s going on here. GOD is calling for action. If nothing is done, nothing will change, and everyone will not receive the blessings GOD has for us. Sometimes, as we grow perfect, GOD puts more on our plate, gives us more to do, and expects more from us. When I’m up against something that is too big for me, I’ll know. And I’ll be the first to fall on my knees and ask for Divine help or help from others that offer it. But I’m all for doing my part and doing everything I can when I can. If that is wrong then I don’t want to be right,


Crazy, Permissive Child Rearing,

As I age, like good beef, cheese, or something else, I am just becoming a big softie. I don’t like how most people raise their kids. OK, that sounded strange, but you know what I mean. I am not one for ‘permissive’ parenting, but I think most child psychologist and teachers don’t have it all right.

-Kids aren’t stupid. When you realize that, you will start to have real conversations with them, and really connect with them. Parents usually go into ‘commando mode’ with their children. All day, just telling them what to do and teaching them and lecturing them.

-Let’s keep our kids happy. Happiness, joy, is the experience of life. So much of teaching our kids to be responsible results in blah and unhappy and sometimes downright mean times.

-Kids aren’t trying to be irritating or get you mad. They are just like that. You can tell in the eyes. Short of being mean and rebellious, my kid can do no wrong. They can do anything they want, as long as it is not dangerous.

-We’re the ones that have issues, have bad memories and experiences, have bad days, have bad hair, have bad tempers. We NEED to stop taking it out on our kids.

-Finally, and this is not comprehensive, but a start to us thinking about things, you had them to be happy and fill them. So don’t do this halfway. Give them what they want. We’re the stingy ones. And if you stop and think, kids don’t really ask for a lot. And even if they ask a lot, most likely they just want to talk to you. You’ve told them you can’t afford all that. And they understand that, so maybe they just want you to always say ‘yes’ to them. I don’t know, they are your kids, and you only have a short time with them before they fly the nest, so make the most of it. You have plenty of time for you later. If you can stand you, just joking.



If I had my child to raise over again:
I’d build self-esteem first and the house later
I’d finger paint more and point the finger less
I would do less correcting and more connecting
I’d take my eyes off the watch and watch with my eyes
I would care to know less and know to care more
I’d take more hikes and fly more kites
I’d stop playing serious and seriously play
I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars
I’d do more hugging and less tugging
I’d see the oak tree in the acorn more often
I would be firm less often and affirm much more
I’d model less about the love of power
And more about the power of love.

~Diane Loomans

Objects of *ate,

I don’t like to say the word anymore, b/c I don’t want to, I want to Love,

Just as people often come home and ‘kick the dog’, everyday, multiple times a day, people need to vent their frustrations, act out, snap, etc at someone whether they have the permission or not.

To me, this is weakness. But, truthfully, it is human nature. As followers of Christ, we are changing into the Divine simply through His instructions, and Divine providence of whatever spiritual strengthening and inner changes are needed. In my experiences, these objects of *ate are:

1) Religious people (esp. Christians),
2) Homosexuals,
3) Poor people,
4) Ethnic minorities,
5) The Weak (women, children, those with handicaps, minorities, etc.)
4) Women (esp. Mom),
5) Animals,
6) The Devil,

This behaviour is so ingrained into society, that check yourself. You may be doing this unconsciously, and that would not be Christ-like behaviour in my opinion. It’s gut check time, can you take the day to day of life? Another secret I have discovered is that life takes on the form? of your beliefs. Whatever you think that is what can/will happen. Thousands of years ago, if you told someone we would be flying in gigantic metallic tubes, you would have been thrown in the looney bin and the key thrown away as well. But, someone had the vision the thought that airplanes could be reality. So, if we simply think that I can take the hardships of life

WITHOUT taking it out on others,

Couldn’t that really happen? Maybe not in one day, but maybe after a week of holding in your frustrations and anger, your body would be able to swallow it up, and perhaps the Divine would pull it out of you as you slept. It was my experience that frustrations, anger, – pent up would eventually explode because it was always there. You could always let it out slowly and in small amounts, or swallow it up like Yoda absorbed the lightning Dark Force power from Siths.

That guy is cool,

Current Events: The Tom and Katie Split,

What do I have to say about this?

Divorce is no new thing to Americans or anybody. Now that I’m mature, I’ve realized that divorce, man-woman shtuff has always for the most part been the same. The good thing is that nowadays, women are more empowered and independent than before. Which, somewhat, begs the question. Are the teachings of Jesus on divorce still valid?

Jesus was a LOVER of women and defender of the weak and impoverished. He was made wrongs right and freely gave to all who came to Him. When we read His Words on divorce it seems He is saying no divorce at all, for any reason. But I read Him as saying,

‘Do not abandon women when they still love you, if they still need you, if you have responsibility to them and your children.’

I recently have a complicated relationship, marriage with my wife. And when I hear my parents’ stories and remember stories of immigrants and their temporary splits, it seems separations are really no big deal and commonplace in the life cycle of a marriage. When I was emotional about it, I thought,

I have blessed my wife mostly, and even if we were to split now, FOR GOOD, wouldn’t we have blessed each other and improved each other since we met? Also, if the split is mutually decided to be mutually beneficial, then there is no choice but to move forward. There always is the possibility of getting back together again. And on the flipside, not my marriage, of course, but sometimes at least for a time, a couple needs to be apart so they can remember how much they love each other and not take each other for granted. As long as both know, that they REALLY want to be together and they are meant to be. Sometimes, it just isn’t working, and you just split.

But reality and sanity returned to me, and I realized what my little family needs to do. My wife and I love each other to the end,

Whatever the case maybe, we can breathe easier, Christians, knowing or thinking,

‘We have to admit it is getting better, getting better all the time…’

In some sense, Christians who believe very strongly in the infallibility and innerancy of the Bible, and only the Bible are in my opinion having tunnel vision,

The Bible is only one book, and it contains writings in it from thousands and thousands of years ago,

In our early Christians years, we were strong to say the Bible is NOT out of date. Now, I am saying, not so strongly, but respectfully, that some aspects of it ARE out of date. And we have to know which ones. That is what makes us discerning and mature and intelligent and useful members and elders of Christ. Because as elders and interpreters of the Bible, the younger members look to us to know what is right and wrong, and even HOW TO THINK. Teaching wrong doctrine and example can really, really wreak havoc in the community and these are real people’s lives.

Let me end by saying, I believe that the Bible is THE TEXT. But, we shouldn’t be fearful to venture out and read others. And we shouldn’t be fearful to teach, knowing that GOD knows our hearts. And I’d like to finalize by saying, I am teaching here, but hopefully my style and words will be more GOD, and Jesus and less me. I don’t want to teach, I don’t want to give advice, because I realized that advice is personal. What worked for you, WILL NOT work for someone else, the best advice is always to empower people and let them and encourage them to figure things and do things for themselves. And show them how to find help if they need it.


P.S. – Oh yeah, and it’s sad that Tom and Katie split. But, I’m sure Suri will still see them enough and have the best. Tom and Katie may get back together again, they may not, but I pray that Jesus blesses and keeps them always,

P.S.S. – Yes, and if Christians made more common sense, perhaps more regular folk, people would join up. Sometimes, our thinking although noble and admirable is not workable in this world. We have to be both noble and workable. Or something like that. Sorry it’s a Saturday and I’m hungry,

P.P.S.S. – Chomp,

Something We Can All Work On, p.1

You ever know people, kids, that treat you hard or are hard on you, but are so easy on other people? They are so generous to the church and pay the people they hire very well, but they are stingy with you, their own kids? You are thinking, “What the!” Shouldn’t it be the other way around? Some Christians are like this too, they are nice to ‘the church’ but what about your own family? We often seek out church because we cannot be with family, but often we stop working on improving things within our own families. The verse that shows that family is foundational is the one that says one cannot rule the church unless you have demonstrated that you can rule your own family well.

Chinese are notorious for this. The culture is often caught up with showing or having ‘face’. So reputation and name in the community are very important. But they often do this at the cost or expense of their own families. It is inside out and backwards if you ask me. It is like someone who uses their money to take care of others but not their own families. In a world if everyone took care of someone else’s, that system COULD work, and often is what Christians do. But, isn’t it more efficient and common sense to just take care of your own FIRST? If you haven’t mastered that, then you CANNOT move on to more public works. Makes sense to me,


The victories you have given me,

I remember the day you spoke to me in the hospital, your Voice has a vibration, a quality I will never forget,

I remember the day I stood up for the first time after my car accident. I thought I would never walk again,

You cured my mother of cancer so she could attend to me, !!!

You woke me from my deep dark sleep and started me walking in the light (~Fall 2002)

You helped me through to get my Masters Degree,

You healed me, from disease, from brokenness, from uselessness, and I married,

Joshua Chen, my son, Your son, came,

I started, Health World, my business, I was so proud,

When the local power company made a large billing error, it was you that came through and reversed it,

I finally started a successful computer business,

I met many of the best on Guam,

When I was down to my last dollar, you sent the ‘miracle check’,

It’s as said in the movie, ‘Nothing is impossible with Jesus’,

We should all be bold to say your Name, Jesus,



There is none that loves us more than He, that much is true,

GOD is LOVE, GOD is in the LOVE,

So you see people worshiping, singing to the LORD Jesus. They are singing contemporary Christian music that sounds frankly like all types of popular love songs. They really love it. They are really getting into it. You can see their eyes shut, smiling, hands reaching out, and they are really trying to connect to GOD.


Is this the only way to worship? The lyrics and emotional movement of the music make it a very, very good way to communicate to the One True GOD how you feel and how you regard Him/Her, but what I realized today is that these people were able to reach out and connect to GOD because?

They all really LOVE music,

Of course, when you reach out, GOD reaches back, and when you honor Him by seeking Him at His House, He honors you with His presence.

But my simple point is that whatever you LOVE to do, GOD can reach you through that. The flip-side of that is if you really dislike going to a church, maybe you want to try a different church? Maybe you want to try to go less frequently? Because although GOD can meet you anywhere and although GOD can do the impossible. I just don’t understand being forced to do things. I understand duty sometimes and one should be rewarded for said duty, but if you don’t enjoy something, why do it? Really, unless there is some other reason I don’t understand, and then that’s up to you.

In my youth, :-), I loved to play sports. When I would jump up and hit a jump shot or spike one down hard, in that split second there was a touching of GOD and heaven. It was like worship music or uh, orgasm during sex. Do what you love, don’t be afraid to fail, GOD is a loving GOD, GOD will cover you, with persistence and hard work and good choices and a little of heavenly ‘luck’, YOU will SUCCEED!


One of My Best Choices,

It was actually to get married and have my son, but,

One of my best choices in life was to choose to be kind. It wasn’t to be a Christian, for what does that really mean sometimes? It wasn’t to be a vegetarian. It was to choose to be kind. And what I mean by that is that in thought, word, and deed never do I ever intend to hurt anything or anyone.

How does this play out in real life?

Well, if a bug or ant is walking on your body, do you? a) Squash it immediately, without thinking you destroy a living albeit tiny masterpiece? b) most gently remove it from your body and onto another surface.

Decide to minimize your meat eating b/c you want to BE the change. It is my personal conviction that we as humans can just eat plants. In the Book of Enoch, we read that the whole meat eating was introduced to mankind by fallen angels. I wholeheartedly confess. Meat tastes great! But it is still cruel to animals. I’m sorry to say.

When people try to provoke me, when people put their shit on me, whatever the reason people be mean to me in thought, emotion, words, or deeds, I have decided that I will always just try to TAKE IT. For the cause of Christ. Because actually that is what Christ did. We live in a hurting world. And hurt people hurt people. It is a cycle of passing on pain and suffering and injustice. Being kind stops this continuous cycle. When you are being kind and take on other people’s pain and suffering you are being like Christ.

At some level, people know what is going on. They know and appreciate what you do for them. For example, since I stopped eating meat, I learned to be kind to animals. They really just want food. They are really easy to please. They also want to be treated with respect and they want their own space and to be able to raise up their young and not live in a dangerous world. But since I decided to be kind to ALL living things, butterflies, all insects, birds, cats, and dogs all seems to like me. They smile at me, stop by to say hi, and sometimes they help me, birds and dogs often guide me. Why? Because when you help someone/something, the favor is ALWAYS returned. And the soul or essences of these life forms want to have harmony and to give back. It takes spiritual eyes and ears to observe and then live this. I won’t get into this too much, but I believe that when you don’t eat animals they can smell it. If you eat chicken don’t expect any birds to like you anytime soon. Also, I have experience the aura of the human body. When you eat meat, your aura is changed. Animals see in a different spectrum, so when you have an aura they like, they will approach you. You can try this with babies too.

With people it is the same, but people are a little more guarded, jaded, and they often don’t say what they mean. But if you really want to be kind then be kind all the way and help. I noticed that when I smile more, people smile back more. I realized that when in your heart you clear away prejudice, preconceptions, and be open and love, life takes on a new meaning, color, and sound. Do not fear. But a lot of which movie you are in, also depends on your history. Work with GOD to clear and clean up your life and make it the life you always wanted. Being positive falls flat for some people because they just quit. It’s okay. Just keep on keeping on. As you do it, it just becomes easier like walking or running. Being hopeful, positive, having faith and trust in humanity are all very good things especially for your experience of life. So keep your head up and keep yourself in the light and walking on the clouds as well,


The 10th Commandment is?

When we start to study the Ten Commandments, we often start out good and then blank out,

and then we get to the one on keeping the Sabbath, and kind of go, ‘huh?’

and then we get to the one on Killing (no problem), Adultery (uh, no problem), Stealing (yeah, no problem), and Honesty (uh…), stop.

When we start to get worked on by the Spirit of the LORD, Who comes but the Spirit of Truth. When you minister, if you see someone really start to try to be honest, then you know this a good candidate.

But the tenth commandment is? Do not covet. When we read that, most people think, no problem I don’t want what other people have. But, really the tenth commandment is something EVERYONE, or almost EVERYONE struggles with. We say we don’t want what other people have. But then why are we never content. Contentment is very hard to find and a secret to being happy.

Reality is very simple but confusing. Whatever you are, whatever you have that is reality. That is the life GOD wants for you at this moment. That is because GOD is so, so, so in charge. So running away or trying to change too much, or trying to be something you are not, are all attempts to take charge of your life when GOD is always in charge whether we admit it or not. But the other side of the coin are considerations like: What is GOD trying to teach you right now? Have you addressed some things in your past like He asked you to? Did He/She ask you to do something and did you do it? Or what about, is He/She testing you? Do you really know what He/She is like? Did GOD really want Abraham to sacrifice his own son? I’ve experienced that GOD sometimes tells you the wrong thing to test if you know right from wrong.

For a long time, I compared my life to others saying why don’t I have this like that person. And GOD got a hold of me and said everyone is different. What He gives to one, another does not or even cannot have. Often we need to trust that GOD gives everyone what they need. So why is it human nature to look around and want what others have? I really don’t know, but for me it came down to stewardship. Are we really able to handle all that GOD gives us. And for me, the answer was no. For a while, I wanted more and more, but I really wasn’t doing a good enough job with what He already gave me. And I wasn’t really honest with what I had. After I learned to manage stuff well enough, GOD started trusting me with people. And that my friends is where the real treasure is. It all revolves around people. The stuff is just a way to connect. And when you are ready for this truth, the stuff wins/purchases people for GOD.

When the Student is Ready, BLANK appears,

As they say, when the student is ready, the teacher appears,

Whatever GOD is working on with you: be it covetousness (that’s a tough one), honesty, stealing (what about the ol’ mp3s?), sex and sexuality, and violence?

Let me start in reverse order b/c violence has been my latest triumph. And GOD does want us to be victorious in our lives! GOD really started to work with me on this one three years ago. I moved to Seattle and my dad made me move back. When my dad told me to I was thinking WTF. But I heard the Spirit through and through what he was saying. My Heavenly Father compelled me to return to Guam.

I come from a background and lineage of military people. This I know. My great great great grandfather was a high ranking officer in the Dutch military who was granted a fief, so to speak. No, it was colonial times so he was granted control of a large area of land by the Dutch government. On that land, he employed the locals to labor in building projects, farming, etc.

I am a NBK. By nature I should be in Law Enforcement, but after following Christ, I can’t go that way anymore. So it is difficult when you aren’t working in your natural strengths. GOD used the withholding of $$$ to really break me up about this. There were many times I thought about committing a crime to make money. I know that some of our biggest baddest fighters and warriors are? In prison. Why? Because they are just too dangerous to live in normal society. It isn’t that they committed a crime first? It is because of the reaction of society to them and being hated and being pegged as assholes and thugs and not being able to get and/or keep a job. Bosses don’t like to hire someone who could be dangerous.

After three years of breaking shit, almost getting thrown in jail, and mostly beating myself up over failing again and again, I tried the unthinkable, a Biblical solution. Fasting and praying. And it worked, thank Jesus! I am also mostly vegetarian b/c I don’t want to be a hurtful and aggressive person. I’ve been ‘clean and sober’ for…about three months now. I say sober because when you get angry, you really can’t think. So being a person who likes to think I am somewhat intelligent, I now don’t freak out or get mad b/c I want to keep my head. It is really easy to see. Just really observe people who lose their cool often. It isn’t their cool they lose, they lose their minds and their ability to reason very quickly.

What I’d like to say lastly is that when I really started to get on top of this problem, I saw GOD’s encouragement. He started to bless me with money. My surroundings started to get more beautiful. My home was filled with more furniture, food, it was cleaner, my family was happier, laughing, and they were verbally encouraging me. People still react to me initially the same way, but I’m learning to not react back or smile more or do something that makes them laugh. I also try to talk more so they can get the sense that I’m not really like that. And I don’t mind going the extra step to make people feel at ease. I don’t know why, but I just look like a bad guy. I sound like a bad guy. And I’ve been told that I just look like I stink.

I also started to notice Angels all around me. They are happy I got the victory. When I start to stumble a little bit, I can always sense they are helping me. It is usually an Angel’s voice within someone else’s voice while people are talking as I go about my business everyday. But as I move to Los Angeles (I was just there a couple weeks ago), the Angels have mostly always been Catholics or Jewish People. Mostly Jewish People. I really like them. They have a certain look, but it’s…I just like them. The fasting and prayers changed me, but the Angels help and now mostly it was/is because my wife is cold to me, still. I’m determined to win her back over time.

To be continued,

My Imaginations: Jesus in Hell,

Our LORD Jesus says in Revelations, that He has the keys of Death and Hades. That means:

Jesus rules Heaven and Earth AND HELL, JESUS RULES IT ALL,

Christians ask, “Did Jesus go to Hell?”

Yes, but not in the way you think. He went there to take over. He was legally taken there, because He carried the sins of the world. It isn’t discussed much. But, I think the devil required the death of the Son, just as depicted in the ‘Chronicles of Narnia’ movies. But remember, the devil does not rule Hell, his domain is now earth, having lost his place in Heaven. His misdeeds are all recorded, and his time is running out. He may have had control of hell, but Jesus gots the keys now.

The very funny, and ‘not fair’ thing is:

GOD is GOD! Jesus, is the LORD and GOD and He can not die. As He said, He lays His life down, and then He picks it up again. And as a powerful Singaporean preacher says, “Grace swallows sin up!” All the sins of the world could not keep Jesus down. He just wiped it all away.

There is a story of Avalokitesvara, an avatar of GOD, who appeared around 500 B.C. She is now worshipped in Buddhism as Guan-Yin, the Goddess of Light. It is my understanding that she is more like an angel or saint, not worthy of worship. She went to the deepest, darkest hell, because she also took on the sins of others. It is funny that she got kicked out of hell. For such was the power of goodness and life and light in her, that while she was in hell, she kept transforming it into heaven. And the powers there were unhappy with that, so they released her.

So what happened when Jesus went to Death and Hades for three days? When He spoke to the Pharisees, He compared it to Jonah being in the belly of the whale for three days. I don’t comprehend it clearly, but GOD-Jesus has always loved and been concerned with all people. Jesus even loves the people in death and hell. In the book of Hebrews, it says that He even led some of them to Heaven in those three days. I guess that just as many in our prisons were wrongfully incarcerated, some in hell did not deserve to be there.

Don’t feel sorry for Jesus. GOD always knows what He is doing. When Jesus went to Hell, He did suffer, but He also went there to tour it as King, take authority, free the captives, maybe He even vacationed there and made it a better, kinder place.

I Saw Your Teardrops and Heard You Cry,

These are lyrics of the song – “I’m Your Angel” by Celine Dion and R. Kelly,

What do you do when GOD asks you to watch and pray? You don’t sleep anymore and can sleep or stay awake anytime. It is said in the Jewish scriptures that the dedicated students of Torah, meet with the LORD in the garden at midnight.

No problem,

What do you do when GOD pushes you to change. He shows you that violence is NOT the Way. He shows you, NO convinces you that gentleness, kindness, goodness is the Way. Period. No double mindedness. No wavering between sternness and severity AND gentleness and peacefulness. So, He changes me, and I accept His change.

No problem,

What do you do when GOD asks you to fast and pray. He asks you to push yourself to two, three, then four days of fasting. You pray and sing into the night. The suffering of days, abuse heaped on you, sickness thrown on you, all the crap of everyone you’ve encountered in the last few days becomes the gift of tears as you give it all up to the LORD.

No problem, just part of the call,

So, what do you do when GOD moves the neighbors in. They are always partying, always have different people over at all times of the night, they treat their kids good, fight with other tenants, and don’t help the apartment look nice and clean. At first, you avoid them and complain about them. But what happens if GOD gives you Love for them? We love them now. We still have a hard time with them, but they are always on your hearts, mind, and in our prayers.

I have a problem with how life has treated them. When I took the trash out at 2 AM, on more than one occasion, I saw you sitting by yourself, back turned to me, drunk, not aware of me there, crying and obviously crying to GOD. You were praying, and I know He heard you. I will not forget that until you have moved into the better/best life GOD has for you,

Is Robot Me Expensive?

My son asked me, “Is robot me expensive?”, since I always talk about buying all the toys he wants being expensive. And we see robot shows on TV.

He brings to my mind something I read a long, long time ago. A robot that can do some kind of work, say on an assembly line, is worth – millions of dollars.


Yet, we don’t value life, babies, ourselves. People put each other down. People treated each other like crap.

It shouldn’t be this way.

You really are a living miracle of a masterpiece. No one on this earth can engineer a human being. You are absolutely priceless.

Please believe that if not anything else. You are intrinsically worth probably $1,000,000,000,000,000. Just by standing there you are worth that. Because you are a biological wonder. Priceless! Love yourself and treat others with respect, please.


Why o Why? Thank Jesus for Thy Peace and Love,

Jesus cares about each and everyone of us. At some level, we all know it and feel it. But the experiences and pain of the past, the deafening loud experience of the here and now, drown out the still, small voice of the LORD Jesus.

I guess that’s why it is important to have ‘quiet time’ with GOD each morning if possible,

Right now, my life is not all puppy dogs and rainbows. But, I have faith in Jesus, that He is doing something and has His eye on me, and will not let me fall. Even though it feels like I can freak out anytime. He holds me together as He holds the entire Universe together by His mighty Word!

I just breathe, take things slow, and keep smiling. I keep my eye on the ball, the prizes – which are my Jesus (never, never, never leave You), my wife, my son, and my parents. I also pray for my family, my extended family, church family, neighborhood, the communities in which I belong, societies, countries, and the world, and the Universe. Praying unceasingly helps me through this life, a lot.

As a guy, I can’t talk about anything, so my relationship and trust in Sovereign LORD Jesus is deepening. It really seems true that nothing is really free. The Israelites were freed from Egypt at the cost of the firstborn of the Egyptians, we, Gentiles now have faith, at the cost of the unbelief of the Jews. And my wife’s relationship with GOD, it seems, is blossoming (though I can’t see it), at the cost of my relationship with her.

Be Not Angry, Like the Hulk!

The Hulk is angry, don’t make me angry, you wouldn’t like me when I’m angry.

But, it’s funny and we all get angry. Is there anyone who doesn’t get angry? Who we are talking to and how we talk to them is very important.

Most of us are hardened to anger. We don’t really see how it affects people at the very sensitive level of the spirit. If we did, then we would understand why Jesus starts the paragraph in Matthew 5 (Murder) with the words ‘murder’ and then talks about ONLY getting angry and saying ‘raca’, and saying ‘you fool’.

It is very confusing. Murder we all agree should get you burned in hell, but just calling someone a fool? That happens all the time. Heck, I just did that yesterday to someone. I’m being sarcastic, but what I think Jesus is saying is:

For example,
When my son is ‘bothering’ me, I get angry. He doesn’t mean to. He just doesn’t understand a lot of things. He is irritating me, but of course I love him so much.

But to my son, when he doesn’t understand, me getting mad sends three signals (I can think of)
1) I don’t respect you.
2) I don’t like you.
3) You are so stupid.

And those match up with what Jesus is saying – the ‘raca’, the ‘you fool’, etc. :-) I added one. My point is, Jesus is asking us to really think about how other people feel. Yes, He is calling us to a higher standard, but mostly he is asking us to be more mature and sensitive and loving. That’s all. If you really love your wife, son, daughter, etc. don’t get mad at them b/c they will think you don’t like them. The fires of hell is the hell you will be in when you lose the love of your wife, son, daughter, or etc.


The New Fast,

In Mark 2:

Jesus Questioned About Fasting

18 Now John’s disciples and the Pharisees were fasting. Some people came and asked Jesus, “How is it that John’s disciples and the disciples of the Pharisees are fasting, but yours are not?”

19 Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom fast while he is with them? They cannot, so long as they have him with them. 20 But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them, and on that day they will fast.

21 “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. Otherwise, the new piece will pull away from the old, making the tear worse. 22 And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”

What does this mean? Many of Jesus’ sayings seem disjointed, which is interesting, b/c the teachers of the Law never wanted to listen to prophets. What Jesus is saying here is that after Jesus came, things changed. One is the meaning of the fast. In the past, fasting was for self-humbling and to show repentance to GOD. For example, the Ninevites put on sack cloth and fasted, and GOD relented and did not destroy Ninevah, to Jonah’s dissatisfaction. Is there another newer account of Jonah?

Now, fasting still means that, but it has another meaning. As Jesus said He came to do something NEW! Fasting and praying. The fast is a way to bless someone with prayer&fasting. Fasting speeds the answer to prayer, one such as ‘May Jesus return come swiftly’. And fasting can help someone if an entity ‘has’ them. But at the heart of all prayer and fasting is gospel peace and the justice for all (as Isaiah says in the True Fast).


P.S. – Also, Christians should be joyful people. That’s why Jesus talks about wine and partying! We don’t win people over but being too somber, too serious, too boring, and too much about keeping rules,

GOD’s Good Name,

Right now, Christians DO NOT have a good name in the United States,

Some of that is because Christians are hated, and some of that is because we hate, let it be the latter and not the former,

In the oft quoted book of Malachi, we see GOD saying He is a Great King, and that He is concerned about His Name! That is very, very, very, very, very, very true.

Just because we are strangers and persecuted in this world, doesn’t mean that we can do what every we want. We are strangers b/c most of the world does not really know or practice GOD’s good ways. That know it, but they don’t do it. They hate us, b/c we are good.

So, let’s take the game up another level, and love, really love. Because GOD, Jesus’ GOOD NAME is at stake. If we really want to honor, nay, revere and worship GOD, then we need to be MORE CONSCIOUS of PROTECTING HIS GOOD NAME.

How do we do that? Not only by being blameless, because often that is not possible, but by being peaceful, loving people that forgive and are quick to ask for forgiveness and put things right.