A OK Explanation,

A loving couple (pregnant) walk down the street,
He sees a buxom dark haired woman walking down the opposite side,
wife gets mad because he looked,
husband says,

‘I looked, it’s just looking,
sometimes I look and it doesn’t mean anything,
what about a car wreck,
if I looked at that,
would you get mad at me?’

wife gets silent and smiles,


Two More Months!

2013 marks a new time in my life. It is a new beginning.

I have also met LOVE,

February 14, 2013 will be my last and first post on this blog, so if you have any questions on the material on this blog, please send them to me via contact form, if not it’s okay too. If there are enough questions we can post them as a FAQ page.

It’s been great posting and learning along with you, GOD bless and PEACE and may GOD in His Great Mercy always BLESS you and KEEP you,


11.21.2012 – Dear Isabella,

My darling Isabella,

I am waiting for your mom, Brenda.

Netflix. Watching an olde movie, Boys and girls starring Claire Forlani and Freddie Prinze, Jr. You’ll like him, I’m sure.

Claire’s character is strong and in the end realizes that both she and that guy love each other.

I’ve raised you to be free. Follow your heart. My Spirit weeps for the lack of conviction and faith in people today. You’ll get hurt. As we, L, have but this life,

not often do we find the One,

you first become the One, you’ve always wanted to be, just be yourself,

and then when you meet the One for you, you will know it instantly! For me, I only saw your mom twice for her to be in my heart, in all my thoughts, every second, in a flash time stood still. Twinkling and phaseing, pulsing, and expanding my mind,

After we met, we became eternity. I saw our lives backwards and forwards. And I was transported tomorrow now forever into the heavens. Everyday is a sunny moon full day, filled with songs of love to the beauty of her face. So excited, everydays just to be near her, so many plans, thoughts, just want to love her sooooo good. Nothing is unshakable. But our love,

Don’t be afraid, be courageous and bold! Make me proud and really live and follow LOVE!

Sorry God, I don’t love you,

I fell today,

I can’t be your priest,

You just won’t be first anymore,

Forgive me,

Don’t be mad,

We’ll always be family and friends,


before you get mad,

it was you first, I remembet,

Every atom and quark within me is screaming at me!!!!!!!!

Brenda’s the One, go, go, go,

I’m not sorry at all, my queen, I Love Brenda!

Meditations on O.P.P.

Have you ever been so poor you,

couldn’t afford a friend?

could afford a relationship,

surely Bill Clinton understood that,

as someone said, Money and Morals go together,

when luxuries are out,

and the hearts right,

the main thing est having kids,

they are our Love and Joy,

when pleasantries are out,

what is there but to do it,

it’s Life at it’s simplest,

even if everything disappears,

we’ll still have Life,

Poem – Job Report I

Some insites on Job
da keyboard is brken,

Job was old,
Job was being considered for the position of son,
Satan is a son, black hole sun,
Satan is the testor, pass and you are in,

His friends did not comfort him in his pain,
we often choose justice & judgment,
over mercy, kindness, and understanding,

In the end, Lord reveals that Job has always been his son,
and to receive back what he lost and more,
he prayed for his friends who spoke wrong of God.

God is never wrong,
and it is difficult to never charge others,
With wrongdoing, but God never does,
that is it,


Don’t cross the little kids,

Children have the most powerful Angels, so always treat them right. As a group they can be rather terrible when agitated, so be forewarned!

My bird, my butterfly

Yesterday was monumental,

I set out to veg, b/c I love,

Mother Earth in all Her beautiful expressions,

Sweet CheChe, Ariel flew into my house & ate popcorn,

Orange butterfly landed, sat on me,

I guess I smell good?

Anyone watch The Best & The Brightest?

That is some funny shiz,




Jesus was Black and Indian?

Hi there,

Check out this:


The top population of the world in 1 AD was?


If Jesus called himself the Son of Man, which means ‘The Man’ in some sense, could He have been Indian? or Indian and Black (Afro-American)? Maybe that’s why He was rejected by the Jewish people,


LOVE, :-)

It was All a Dream,

Hi everybody,

Since I’ve been walking the path of discipleship, GOD has shown me strange, wonderful, AND biblical things,

I have first-hand experience,

When Joshua asked the SUN to stop His run across the Sky, He/She granted his request. In modern, Star Trekese, that was a Time-Warp.

When my son, was late for school, just for fun, I asked my son to pray for a time warp. And we were not late for school, but even five minutes early, when I know we should have been about 15 minutes late.

Also in the Bible, we see how Jesus was able to be inside a house without anyone opening the door for Him. That is teleportation. One night, before playing computer, I was drinking my tea and reading the Bible. After my son went to sleep, I moved over to the computer. When I was thirsty, I looked around for my drink forgetting I am not where I was. And guess what I saw next to the computer, my tea. WHOA.

Today, GOD told me something shocking but beautiful allow me to share. When something bad happened to us, it DIDN’T HAPPEN.

IT WAS LIKE A DREAM, so real, but a dream, so He could catch the bad guy or bad gal. The perp was real, and the crime he did was real, but the pain and victimization you remember was NOT,

So, think on that. If you don’t believe, know that pain medications for past memories are legal and biblical. Consider you past like Vietnam. And science has shown us that every molecule of your body is replaced in 7 years, so you really are NOT the same person after 7.


From Dust You Came,

What are ghosts?

Some of us, with the third eye open, can see them. And they are scary as sh*t! Sorry, ghosts. Why are they unrest?

Ghosts tell me that remember what GOD said…from dust you came and to dust you shall return. What that means at a practical level is:

There are many reasons the dearly departed are at unrest, but one reason is they have been buried in the wrong place. Wherever we are born, that is where we approximately or exactly should be buried. Otherwise, unrest. So, those family members with means, many bodies need to be removed and reburied in the proper place,

Thanks, the dead thank you for listening,

Happy Halloween,

Transmutation of Sexual Energy

For us Christians and at the other end, who we call the Underworld, there is much difference in the understanding of sexual energy.

In Hindu, it is called Kundalini, and when we come near to a guy or a girl we can feel attracted or not or in some cases even repelled. That is what is commonly referred to as being gay or straight or something else special.

Why do we have this energy? It is said, that this is creative energy. And that we join this energy with the energy of the Creator. It is love energy, but more than that it is sex energy. It has a gender quality.

Christians shut this down. And so, they often don’t have the deep, spiritual connection with the Creator, they seek. I haven’t observed widely, but many others comment but don’t deeply understand the energy except to classify themselves and others as straight or gay and when they have sex, it is this energy that is released.

This sex energy has been talked about by Napolean Hill in his book ‘Think and Grow Rich’. It is said, that sex energy can be harnessed to achieve what you want. That is why men don’t achieve success until after they are married or reach a certain age where they don’t chase women and masturbate all day long. LOL.

This is my report. But my practical application is this. When you have a desire, which can be sexual or not, but mostly it is sexual. It is difficult to get riches by thinking about sex. How is the connected? Everyone has ideas and plans, but we often don’t have faith and follow through. Sexual energy is very valuable, and those who give their energy in the dark to famous actors and actresses, indeed have given away something very valuable. Make sure the actors and actresses, who spend a lot of money to be out there in the public eye are representing you. They are in a sense lay ‘senate’ and ‘congressmen’. They are prophet/prophetess of the people. They champion the same causes as you? Do they welcome your donation of energy?

Often times, the ‘bad’ lies not in what we do, but how we do it, the methods of consideration, but most importantly the heart,


‘New Age’ Health Tip,

Sun gazing, as they call it, is very important to good health. I’m doing all of the following:

– No coffee, just water,
– breathing exercises, and keeping the windows open mostly all the time,
– a LOT of walking,
– a mostly vegan diet,

but what really enJOYed me, put the LOVE and unshakable JOY in me, was the SUNGAZING, and regular devotional practices of prayer for others and meditations,

Believe this or not, the SUN is the source of Life on Earth. From the Sun, the Earth was created, and the SUN participated in every creation and evolution of life on Earth. It is highly arguable, but most probable that their is intelligence on the Sun. When we see Solar Flares we are seeing activity and movement and that denotes intelligence and life.

More than health and vitality, the SUN can also stream intelligence and knowledge on it’s sunbeams. Why not? We can send intelligence over radio waves.

So the sungaze is a meditation done whenever you want to. But just look at the sun, but not directly. Allow the sun to be positioned where the Indians usually put their bindis (the red dots on the forehead). That way the Sun is not blinding you, us. And maybe for 5 minutes, recite a prayer or meditate, just be.

I’m sure, with regular sungazing, your life will be better. You will feel better. Jesus Himself, said, “The eye of the body is the lamp, if the body is filled with light…” How do you fill the body with light? You allow it to enter the eye! It has also been said that the light going in the body is vital for the bodies’ chemical and metabolic/catabolic processes, etc.


Hallelujah! Amen! Uh, huh?

When we have joy in our hearts we often say “HALLELUJAH”!

When we hear something we like or wish for, we say, “AMEN”!

But why?

Sometimes, it’s just because,

But wanting to know why is important too,

Often when a question forms in our minds, we might need to go another step and ask, “Do I really want to know the answer to this question?” Just as we have meta-knowledge, we now have a meta-question,

Because unanswered questions, like unanswered prayers, can build up, and yes, like Bruce Almighty, this can give you a headache,

Hallelujah, if one looks at Hebrew (arguably, the language of the Kingdom, and a higher vibration language,), Hallelujah is H, L, L, L, J, H, because Hebrew has no vowels.

H = ‘Heh’,
This is the Breath of GOD,

L = ‘Lamed’,

J = ‘Yod’,
The Divine Spark,

Some extra characters for fun,


If you understand pictographic languages, you combine the meanings of the forms so to speak, and the ideas or meaning you get, is the meaning,


Today I Remember,

It is the Day of Atonement today, and although I’m not an ethnic Jew, I’m one. I feel rundown, so I’m just fasting a couple of meals today and taking advantage of GOD’s Grace, heh heh. Just jokin,

I remember that GOD saved and delivered the Jewish people from Egypt and a life of slavery. But before they exited, the firstborn of Egypt and the soldiers,

How are we to understand this? I don’t know, but I know this, GOD loves everybody, given that,

There was a ‘compensation’ for the death of those in Egypt. Israel became a nation of priests. There is great joy in it, but if you are not ready for it, it can feel that way, and certainly the world doesn’t understand what you do.

Every first born belonged to GOD, that means basically these became the priests of the nation, and really the world. The required priesthood of Aaron, ended when Jesus the Messiah came. Now we are called to be priests, it si a voluntary now,

One last note, the Waves of the Red Sea closed on the ‘bad’ Egyptians. How are we to understand this? Wouldn’t an Egyptian think, I’ve been demonized by those stories and anyone sympathetic to Judaism or Christianity would consider me bad, bad, bad? Maybe at that point in time, the rulers of Egypt were not doing right. GOD, GODDESS, Mother Earth (the Sea) are Mother and Father of all. Now people of Egypt, all people are much much better than the past because of evolution, breeding, teaching, the help of higher beings and powers, etc. So I feel okay to say that, then perhaps,

Those in the ruling class of Egypt did not please GOD/GODDESS and it was their time to go. The Earth Mother took them back, took their bodies back. And of course the ‘young’ spirits/souls in them returned to the Infinite Heavens to talk it over with Hashem YHWH, Father and Mother,

A key to understanding the seemingly unfair and injustice in everyday life is what the LORD Jesus termed, ‘the resurrection’. The Sadduccees did not believe this, resurrection = rebirth. When people die, they just come back again, again, and again until their souls have learned the lessons and gained enough experience to Ascend to the next level, which is something like ‘Angelhood’. Then there is not need to reincarnate anymore,

In conclusion, GOD IS loving, GOD is fair, and GOD knows what HE/SHE is doing, He has a plan to ‘evolve’ or grow you into something really great, through life after life of every good things,

I hope you receive this, if not, that’s good too. NO pressure, you have choice and freedom, if you don’t like what I am saying, I’m good with that too. It’s your life, love you,


the Sweetness, the Love,

I got to thinking, what makes one think of the sweetheart, it’s the sweet-NESS,

When we were young, and we watched movies of teenagers having fun, getting to know each other, experiencing life, and falling in love,

What was it that we feel? It is the undying commitment and sacrificing type of love? No,

It was that feeling of freedom, of experiencing life, the feeling of no worries, smiles, goodwill, love, and sweetness,

I had a few good months of that with my wife, before we launched into the ‘work’ of having a marriage, family, and a lifestyle.

This takes wisdom, when does life go back to that? When can I just be a boy and my wife be a girl, and there’s just the two of us, hand in hand,

The Poor,

That’s the secret,

I won’t reveal any REAL secrets, but guess what, you want to REALLY follow Jesus? One thing, a VERY big thing, a VERY VERY big deal to GOD, Christ Jesus is:

The care of the poor.

If you want to be my friend, care about the things I care about,

If you love me, love my people,

When I consciously decided to show love and care for any poor person that I saw, my life changed. There was a quickening and the LORD Jesus entered my heart in a new and more profound way,

but mostly, I hope I can say this,

Jesus was pleased by the living out of His Way, and then I loved Him more, and He loved me more.

This is the meaning of being ‘In Christ’. It means you are in His Heart, and He is in your heart, and the love is complete. Please try, and open your heart. Do I need to quote Scripture to you, you remember all the Scriptures that mention how the LORD Jesus feels about the poor. Please DO IT,


Memory Blocking and Fallen Angels

They say that we had preexistence, and some say we had past lives,

So why don’t we remember them?

One thought I had is that we need to trust GOD, trust the Divine Guidance. We don’t remember for our own safety and comfort and best interests. So, perhaps we shouldn’t push so hard to remember.

Any Fantastic Four comic book fans out there? Remember, Franklin Richards? Franklin was the child of Reed and Susan Richards. Mr. Fantastic placed mental blocks in his mind, b/c his powers were much too powerful for him to control. In a similar way, I believe we have blocks, for our best interests.

Many people, have illnesses in their spirit and minds, because of unreleased emotional and spiritual energies related to past experiences. You can see it in their face and you can see that they are very angry or sad people. How do we help these people? For we are Christians, we are supposed to help! Often, we don’t want to get into it to deep. A professional is needed when someone visibly has these types of problems. Prayer is always good.

How Fallen Angels come into the picture is,

I’ve noticed that often people whom we see have ‘a demon’ or somekind of darkness in them, often we should be sensitive. We all want to go JESUS on them and say,’Get out!’ But, sometimes, a human or person’s spirit has been deeply wounded and the ‘demon’ is the only one helping them or holding them together or strengthening them. The person has forgotten what has happened often through time, willed amnesia, drugs or alcohol, but the demon IS helping them. When the time is right, GOD will heal both, and the demon will probably be promoted or go home,

Everything is as it should be,


ET Phone Phone,

Okay, I lightened it up a bit,

But would you WORSHIP?

Not because it is due, not because of fear or because you want something,

Because YOU LOVE and MISS GOD your Mother and Father,

There lives in you, the Eternal Spirit spark which is basically ‘a piece’ of GOD,

So it’s like you are at boarding school, and you are forgetting your purpose and your mission and you are forgetting to CALL HOME.

Worship is spontaneous, forgetful of self, expressing of Pure LOVE to GOD, and it is cultivated through the experiences we choose. If we live to serve from LOVE, and not for profit or for self aggrandizing or selfish motives, we then become people who experience JOY. JOY is given from above, and is a way for reaching out and touching the High Energies of GOD,

Please meditate on that,


I Love Meateaters!

I’m now moving towards Veganism, but I’d like to profess my undying love for the meatatarian and other meat eating personages. Ha-ha, the reason is my family members like meat and I don’t. And I guess this is more of a confession, because I don’t want to be a snobby plant eater. That can be just as bad, so GOD help me to put this in perspective. Change me, and change my attitude. That’s pride, no pride…

Earning Your Wings, p.2


and you have to complete one assignment, helping to save someone’s soul,

forgot about that…


Earning Your Wings, part 1

How do you earn your wings? I’m not an expert in teaching this, but two things I can think of:

1) When you can make the inside of yourself match the outself, and it involves honesty, and putting the inner persona and inner life, morals and the cultivation of the fruit of the Spirit first before the exterior. That is not to say to neglect the outside, because that would be irresponsible as well.

2) When you are perfect like your Father in Heaven, which means that you love all and hate none,

Please meditate on those, thank you,


My Thoughts (2 bits) on ‘Tongues’ in Church of Christ,

As someone who has SIMPLY been there and done that, I’d like to offer my experiences. Take from them what you will, can and I offer my conclusion, which should not be your conclusion, but that there usually are conclusions because that how people think. We need nice, neat and happy endings to things.

I heard about the Pentacostal and Charismatic Church in 2005. They claimed that you had to receive a second baptism of the Holy Spirit for power. They called that being baptized in the Holy Spirit. The Charismatic church appealed to me because I too believed that ‘charismata’ or the gifts of the Spirit are for today, that the Holy Spirit did not cease to give them out to those who desire them and believe. So, I didn’t really believe, but I went anyways. I left my home church (Presbyterian and very conservative), and attended St. Paul Church on Guam for about a year. There I received a laying on of hands by the headship there, and DID receive the ability to speak in tongues. It was a ‘loosening’ of my tongue. I’m not sure if what I spoke was another tongue, but the outflow of the Spirit when I tried to speak was evident to all.

I’d like to report that today I can speak many languages, and it was because of receiving that laying on hands there. And we remember that Christ said that the evidence of His disciples are 5 things:

1) Speaking of other languages,
2) Demons run from us,
3) You will pick up the snakes by the tail,
4) You will drink poison and not die,
5) and you will lay hands on others and they will be healed,

As we grow, we learn to see the Spirit of JC and not be so focused on particular people. Yes, we are commanded to love others and that includes knowing people, but the LORD Himself said that if you love mother and father more than me, you are not worthy of Him. That, to me, is a call to putting Him first in your life b/c there is Holy Work to do.

I too remember thinking what the Pastor was saying is NOT true. Our Pentacostal brothers and sisters seem to claim spiritual superiority and an insensitivity to others by saying if you don’t have the ability to speak in tongues you don’t have the Spirit. Sometimes GOD tests us. Actually GOD tests us a lot and all the time. It freakin’ drives me crazy sometimes how much he wants to train and equip us. But, there is a reason for all the urgency, people need GOD. And although GOD is all powerful and all that, time is a ticking. When you are there,

When you are in THAT church, you are hearing what YOU and ONLY YOU should hear. Looking back, I’d like to conclude, I learned a few things in my experience at the Pentacostal church. GOD is not a liar and He is in charge. He knows what He is doing. He setup the Pentacostal Church for people to go a GET the second baptism which is the baptism of the Holy Spirit. And it appears you’ve done so. Congratulations, you are on your way. And so young. Recall, the Jews had the zero baptism for non-believers, then came the Baptist with baptism for repentance and the outward/inward sign of initiation into the Church of Christ, and Christ Himself baptizes with?

Holy Spirit and Fire,

So, next? Your baptism by Fire comes and that doesn’t sound pleasant does it? Suffering, you will suffer as He did. Suffering for love, suffering for others is the Fire. It basically is suffering for Him, and you will learn to take on suffering b/c GOD’s Son suffered and because,

It is the only way to change the fallen world,

Lastly, I’d like to say, that things are not perfect, but in Christ they ARE perfect. He knows what He is doing and when you can enter that state of mind, then your heart is full of LOVE, and perfect LOVE drives out all fear, (John the Mystic/the Beloved, said that)

Many things, GOD has setup and they just are. I too have experienced injustice and suffered disappointments and seen horrible things. But that’s revealed the hero/heroine in you, didn’t it? Just as you have been given a name, somethings are SIMPLY given and accepted. Sunday IS the LORD’s Day. For a long time, I searched the Scriptures for the Truth and to prove the Pastors wrong, b/c I wanted to know better than them. NOT because I was proud, but that just revealed to me and others where I was going; the position the LORD had for me to take. Another just IS, that I discovered is that the Church (Evangelicals) ARE His Church, that means He loves them (yes, even the bad pastors that created scandal) and belongs to Him. So, we love them too b/c they are family, at least b/c you love HIM.

If you are searching for the True Church or a more Authentic Church, keep searching. They are out there. As you grow and purify yourself, you will recognize them. But of course, the Evangelical Church will say otherwise and try to deter you from learning more and growing and developing your powers and gifts. Why? Because,

Another things I think I learned is this: The Truth oftens hides in the Peace or Reconciliation of issues or conflict. Is the Sabbath Saturday or Sunday? Why can’t it be both? When things don’t make sense, if we peacefully try to bring the different sides of the issue together, you can often piece together the Truth. GOD didn’t give anyone all the pieces for those reasons,

When you tink you are alone, remember that you are NOT. GOD sees all and is BRIGHT and LOVING far GREATER than you can imagine. There are multitudes upon multitudes of Angelic Beings who LOVE you and SERVE you! Some have known you all your life and have watched and helped and guided you. Some are the spirits of your ancestors. Some participated in your creation from day one and from evolutions past,


Crazy, Permissive Child Rearing,

As I age, like good beef, cheese, or something else, I am just becoming a big softie. I don’t like how most people raise their kids. OK, that sounded strange, but you know what I mean. I am not one for ‘permissive’ parenting, but I think most child psychologist and teachers don’t have it all right.

-Kids aren’t stupid. When you realize that, you will start to have real conversations with them, and really connect with them. Parents usually go into ‘commando mode’ with their children. All day, just telling them what to do and teaching them and lecturing them.

-Let’s keep our kids happy. Happiness, joy, is the experience of life. So much of teaching our kids to be responsible results in blah and unhappy and sometimes downright mean times.

-Kids aren’t trying to be irritating or get you mad. They are just like that. You can tell in the eyes. Short of being mean and rebellious, my kid can do no wrong. They can do anything they want, as long as it is not dangerous.

-We’re the ones that have issues, have bad memories and experiences, have bad days, have bad hair, have bad tempers. We NEED to stop taking it out on our kids.

-Finally, and this is not comprehensive, but a start to us thinking about things, you had them to be happy and fill them. So don’t do this halfway. Give them what they want. We’re the stingy ones. And if you stop and think, kids don’t really ask for a lot. And even if they ask a lot, most likely they just want to talk to you. You’ve told them you can’t afford all that. And they understand that, so maybe they just want you to always say ‘yes’ to them. I don’t know, they are your kids, and you only have a short time with them before they fly the nest, so make the most of it. You have plenty of time for you later. If you can stand you, just joking.


A Look at Favoritism, a Study of James

We saw that in James 1, a major trial of life is to be happy with your lot in life. If it is to be a humble person, to accept that and not want to be a rich person. And vice versa. Yes, unbelievable, but often times especially spiritual, wealthy people want to have a humble and simple life.

In James 2, this chapter is written to the rich. Surprisingly, it is revealed here, that most of the time, not all, the poor in the church, are the leaders in matters of faith. What is the cause of much suffering in a monetized world where we all depend on a money system? It is money or the lack thereof. In Jewish Scripture, the righteous, wealthy man runs after the poor to give to him. In many stories, we see the rich and the poor, working together. The rich gives out of love, and the poor has to accept in humility. If GOD created us all complete and without need and without each other, why would we need to come together? It is yet another way GOD binds us together as family and community.

The rich set up the money system. Alan Greenspan, a Hebrew, obviously an economic genius, is most likely a rich genius. Being rich is a talent. Understanding money and how to handle and make money is a talent. Some people just don’t understand it. Most people don’t, that is why they can just get jobs and be told what to do. Money is a game, like monopoly but for real. But with any game, battle, or anything, you need luck or GOD on your side. And to get GOD on your side, you really NEED to be nice to people, take care of people.

James uses VERY strong language and metaphors:
– exploitation of poor, dragging them into courts, blaspheming (which just means disrespecting GOD) the name of Jesus,
– Love your neighbor as yourself, adultery, murder, etc.,

James reminds us that Christ chose a humble life. James himself it seems chose a humble life. Maybe people weren’t giving to him as he thought they should. But most likely the anger we hear in James about the treatment of the poor is godly anger at the sight of parents not being taken care of by their children, leaders who chose poverty in order to serve GOD and the poor and the spiritual needs of others not being taken care of by others, etc. The suffering experienced by those in leadership was unnecessary if others did their part. One reason, in my thinking, James mentions the Law, is because if you really study the Law of Hashem (as the Jews call GOD), it is 613 Laws. The Law is not only 10 or 7 Noahide Rules or 2. For those not keeping 10, keeping 613 is totally out of reach. But we need to know there are 613 Laws. Some of them seem stupid, like not cutting your hair, but that’s the difference between Divine Law and the Law of Man. Man’s laws are more practical and based on different principles. One main principle on which Divine Law is based on is Love for GOD. If you love your mother, and she insists that you pick out all the blue M&Ms before serving her up some M&Ms in a crystal bowl for your time together every month, then you just do it. So Divine Law states, if you Love GOD, just don’t cut the hair at the sides of your head. Silly? Yes, but.

Just LOVE,

A Short Lesson on Toughness,

I want to be tougher,

Not meaner,

Not heartless,

Not cynical,

Not sharper,

but say whatever you want to say, do whatever you want to do, I’ll never hurt you,

think how you want, because I love you, yes, even you,

My Hats Off To Our African American Bros and Sisters,

On my way to Los Angeles from Guam,

I was stopped both in Guam and in Hawaii by Airport Security. Because of my appearance, largeness (and in-charge-ness, haa), and sweatiness, and the metal in my hip and legs, I was pulled aside and searched more thoroughly, if you understand.

My son was there watching. And on the second leg of the trip, I helped a elderly, larger, African American woman navigate the airport in Hawaii. The Hawaii airport can be confusing if you haven’t been there before. After I exited the search room with my son with perhaps a upset look on my face, there was the woman walking by, smiling assurance. She said, “Now you know …”

If we stop to think, and really be honest. The African American people are extremely intelligent, loving, soulful, and talented people. But, as a community, when we compare us peoples, they seem the most robust and threatening. Their size, strength, power, and dark skin may intimidate us and so we don’t often look at them as people, but we often cannot get past the surface. What I mean by that is, we think “Big, scary, dark skin, scary, tall, scary…” and so we have an emotional or subconscious aversion or negative preconception already.

Just as you can or even want to get close to an elephant, lion, or rhino at the zoo, couldn’t we show the same kind of open-mindedness and trust and interest in a fellow man? People are strange. Us people just don’t make sense sometimes, and we’re suppose to be at the top of the chain,

Something We Can All Work On, p.1

You ever know people, kids, that treat you hard or are hard on you, but are so easy on other people? They are so generous to the church and pay the people they hire very well, but they are stingy with you, their own kids? You are thinking, “What the!” Shouldn’t it be the other way around? Some Christians are like this too, they are nice to ‘the church’ but what about your own family? We often seek out church because we cannot be with family, but often we stop working on improving things within our own families. The verse that shows that family is foundational is the one that says one cannot rule the church unless you have demonstrated that you can rule your own family well.

Chinese are notorious for this. The culture is often caught up with showing or having ‘face’. So reputation and name in the community are very important. But they often do this at the cost or expense of their own families. It is inside out and backwards if you ask me. It is like someone who uses their money to take care of others but not their own families. In a world if everyone took care of someone else’s, that system COULD work, and often is what Christians do. But, isn’t it more efficient and common sense to just take care of your own FIRST? If you haven’t mastered that, then you CANNOT move on to more public works. Makes sense to me,

The Ministry of Imperfection,

There are many reading this blog who are far along with the LORD Jesus, for those who don’t understand what I am about to say, don’t worry about it, you will, please just listen,

At some point in your life, a switch goes off, you turn around, and life isn’t about you anymore.

For me, that point came late in life, after my car accident, when I was still living with my parents. The title of this blog post to me means that sometimes you have to fail, sometimes you act the fool, sometimes you let others win, sometimes you take the blame or the bill, do you understand?

Christians especially sometimes get caught up in being holy and perfect and they are unwilling to suffer for Christ. What did Adam do after Eve ate the fruit? He ate it too, I’ve read accounts saying that he loved Eve so he ate and joined her in imperfection rather than be separated. Let me bring the example back down to earth. A very simple example is in teaching kids. Sometimes to raise a child’s self-esteem and confidence or even to just get them to do it you have to not act like you know it all or can do it all. I tell my kids I can’t do it on my own, I need their help. I tell my kids I don’t know or I say something wrong so they can be right. It seems strange, but it really works. And now if you think back, HEY, your parents probably did that with you too?!

In these days, leadership means different things to different people. To me, and I really think I’m getting old. Leadership isn’t about being superman or wonder woman anymore. Leadership is more about caring about other people and making sure everything is all good with everyone. The question then is, “If I’m taking care of everyone else, who takes care of me?” That’s a good question and I don’t know. Maybe you have the answer?

Everyone Is Going Thru Something,

When I remember how I used to be,

Many people I meet are shiny, happy people with great personalities, no major problems, great jobs, great hair, great girlfriends/boyfriends, etc. They’re just GREAT! And they are the envy of everyone.

I don’t know why but the people, the world I’ve been around are people with problems. They can’t be happy for any length of time. And they selflessly DON’T talk incessantly about their problems. But, I know they have major problems because they are such angry, imbalanced, and sarcastic people. Their thought processes are different and they don’t really see things the way most people do.

Call it what you want to, but I just know that one day, I too will go through something again. I did, from about age 17 to 29 was in a major funk. It was the LORD Jesus that brought me out of it. Life throws curve balls at us all the time. And I know, many people were there for me when I was all alone. Or I thought I was. I hope that I can be there for somebody, always there. And when it’s my turn, she will always be there for me.