My bird, my butterfly

Yesterday was monumental,

I set out to veg, b/c I love,

Mother Earth in all Her beautiful expressions,

Sweet CheChe, Ariel flew into my house & ate popcorn,

Orange butterfly landed, sat on me,

I guess I smell good?

Anyone watch The Best & The Brightest?

That is some funny shiz,




It was All a Dream,

Hi everybody,

Since I’ve been walking the path of discipleship, GOD has shown me strange, wonderful, AND biblical things,

I have first-hand experience,

When Joshua asked the SUN to stop His run across the Sky, He/She granted his request. In modern, Star Trekese, that was a Time-Warp.

When my son, was late for school, just for fun, I asked my son to pray for a time warp. And we were not late for school, but even five minutes early, when I know we should have been about 15 minutes late.

Also in the Bible, we see how Jesus was able to be inside a house without anyone opening the door for Him. That is teleportation. One night, before playing computer, I was drinking my tea and reading the Bible. After my son went to sleep, I moved over to the computer. When I was thirsty, I looked around for my drink forgetting I am not where I was. And guess what I saw next to the computer, my tea. WHOA.

Today, GOD told me something shocking but beautiful allow me to share. When something bad happened to us, it DIDN’T HAPPEN.

IT WAS LIKE A DREAM, so real, but a dream, so He could catch the bad guy or bad gal. The perp was real, and the crime he did was real, but the pain and victimization you remember was NOT,

So, think on that. If you don’t believe, know that pain medications for past memories are legal and biblical. Consider you past like Vietnam. And science has shown us that every molecule of your body is replaced in 7 years, so you really are NOT the same person after 7.


Why is this important?

Thank you Christina Perri,

5000 B.C. – GOD, Son of GOD, and Adam,

4000 B.C. – Jared, Enoch (Fu Xi?), and Methuselah,

3000 B.C. – Lamech, Noah, and Shem,

2200 B.C. – Peleg, Reu, and Serug,

2000 B.C. – Terah, Abraham, and Issac,

1800 B.C. – Judah, Perez, and Hezron,

1600 B.C. – Amminadab, Nahshon, and Salmon,

1400 B.C. – Moses, Joshua, and Caleb,

1200 B.C. – Salmon, Boaz, and Obed,

1000 B.C. – David, Solomon, and Menelik,

00000000 – Joseph, Jesus, and Gebiyah,

200 A.D. – (The dates on St. Augustine are wrong b/c he was contemporary w/ Pliny)

Monica, Augustine, and Adeodatus,

400 A.D. – Merovech, Childerich, and Clovis

600 A.D. – King Suddhodana (Lao Tzi), Siddhartha Gautama, and Joshua Hsueh Chen,

1000 A.D. – Earl of Ibelin, Bailian, and Helvis,

1200 A.D. – King Charles II and Maria of Hungary, Charles Martel of Anjou, and Charles Robert,

1400 A.D. – Vlad II, Vlad Tepes & Mina, and the Mihai,

1600 A.D. – Medmed III, Ahmed I, and Osman II,

1800 A.D. – King Rama III, King Rama IV, and Prince Chitchareon

2000 A.D. – Jaime and Brenda 4ever

From Dust You Came,

What are ghosts?

Some of us, with the third eye open, can see them. And they are scary as sh*t! Sorry, ghosts. Why are they unrest?

Ghosts tell me that remember what GOD said…from dust you came and to dust you shall return. What that means at a practical level is:

There are many reasons the dearly departed are at unrest, but one reason is they have been buried in the wrong place. Wherever we are born, that is where we approximately or exactly should be buried. Otherwise, unrest. So, those family members with means, many bodies need to be removed and reburied in the proper place,

Thanks, the dead thank you for listening,

Happy Halloween,

‘New Age’ Health Tip,

Sun gazing, as they call it, is very important to good health. I’m doing all of the following:

– No coffee, just water,
– breathing exercises, and keeping the windows open mostly all the time,
– a LOT of walking,
– a mostly vegan diet,

but what really enJOYed me, put the LOVE and unshakable JOY in me, was the SUNGAZING, and regular devotional practices of prayer for others and meditations,

Believe this or not, the SUN is the source of Life on Earth. From the Sun, the Earth was created, and the SUN participated in every creation and evolution of life on Earth. It is highly arguable, but most probable that their is intelligence on the Sun. When we see Solar Flares we are seeing activity and movement and that denotes intelligence and life.

More than health and vitality, the SUN can also stream intelligence and knowledge on it’s sunbeams. Why not? We can send intelligence over radio waves.

So the sungaze is a meditation done whenever you want to. But just look at the sun, but not directly. Allow the sun to be positioned where the Indians usually put their bindis (the red dots on the forehead). That way the Sun is not blinding you, us. And maybe for 5 minutes, recite a prayer or meditate, just be.

I’m sure, with regular sungazing, your life will be better. You will feel better. Jesus Himself, said, “The eye of the body is the lamp, if the body is filled with light…” How do you fill the body with light? You allow it to enter the eye! It has also been said that the light going in the body is vital for the bodies’ chemical and metabolic/catabolic processes, etc.


My Thoughts (2 bits) on ‘Tongues’ in Church of Christ,

As someone who has SIMPLY been there and done that, I’d like to offer my experiences. Take from them what you will, can and I offer my conclusion, which should not be your conclusion, but that there usually are conclusions because that how people think. We need nice, neat and happy endings to things.

I heard about the Pentacostal and Charismatic Church in 2005. They claimed that you had to receive a second baptism of the Holy Spirit for power. They called that being baptized in the Holy Spirit. The Charismatic church appealed to me because I too believed that ‘charismata’ or the gifts of the Spirit are for today, that the Holy Spirit did not cease to give them out to those who desire them and believe. So, I didn’t really believe, but I went anyways. I left my home church (Presbyterian and very conservative), and attended St. Paul Church on Guam for about a year. There I received a laying on of hands by the headship there, and DID receive the ability to speak in tongues. It was a ‘loosening’ of my tongue. I’m not sure if what I spoke was another tongue, but the outflow of the Spirit when I tried to speak was evident to all.

I’d like to report that today I can speak many languages, and it was because of receiving that laying on hands there. And we remember that Christ said that the evidence of His disciples are 5 things:

1) Speaking of other languages,
2) Demons run from us,
3) You will pick up the snakes by the tail,
4) You will drink poison and not die,
5) and you will lay hands on others and they will be healed,

As we grow, we learn to see the Spirit of JC and not be so focused on particular people. Yes, we are commanded to love others and that includes knowing people, but the LORD Himself said that if you love mother and father more than me, you are not worthy of Him. That, to me, is a call to putting Him first in your life b/c there is Holy Work to do.

I too remember thinking what the Pastor was saying is NOT true. Our Pentacostal brothers and sisters seem to claim spiritual superiority and an insensitivity to others by saying if you don’t have the ability to speak in tongues you don’t have the Spirit. Sometimes GOD tests us. Actually GOD tests us a lot and all the time. It freakin’ drives me crazy sometimes how much he wants to train and equip us. But, there is a reason for all the urgency, people need GOD. And although GOD is all powerful and all that, time is a ticking. When you are there,

When you are in THAT church, you are hearing what YOU and ONLY YOU should hear. Looking back, I’d like to conclude, I learned a few things in my experience at the Pentacostal church. GOD is not a liar and He is in charge. He knows what He is doing. He setup the Pentacostal Church for people to go a GET the second baptism which is the baptism of the Holy Spirit. And it appears you’ve done so. Congratulations, you are on your way. And so young. Recall, the Jews had the zero baptism for non-believers, then came the Baptist with baptism for repentance and the outward/inward sign of initiation into the Church of Christ, and Christ Himself baptizes with?

Holy Spirit and Fire,

So, next? Your baptism by Fire comes and that doesn’t sound pleasant does it? Suffering, you will suffer as He did. Suffering for love, suffering for others is the Fire. It basically is suffering for Him, and you will learn to take on suffering b/c GOD’s Son suffered and because,

It is the only way to change the fallen world,

Lastly, I’d like to say, that things are not perfect, but in Christ they ARE perfect. He knows what He is doing and when you can enter that state of mind, then your heart is full of LOVE, and perfect LOVE drives out all fear, (John the Mystic/the Beloved, said that)

Many things, GOD has setup and they just are. I too have experienced injustice and suffered disappointments and seen horrible things. But that’s revealed the hero/heroine in you, didn’t it? Just as you have been given a name, somethings are SIMPLY given and accepted. Sunday IS the LORD’s Day. For a long time, I searched the Scriptures for the Truth and to prove the Pastors wrong, b/c I wanted to know better than them. NOT because I was proud, but that just revealed to me and others where I was going; the position the LORD had for me to take. Another just IS, that I discovered is that the Church (Evangelicals) ARE His Church, that means He loves them (yes, even the bad pastors that created scandal) and belongs to Him. So, we love them too b/c they are family, at least b/c you love HIM.

If you are searching for the True Church or a more Authentic Church, keep searching. They are out there. As you grow and purify yourself, you will recognize them. But of course, the Evangelical Church will say otherwise and try to deter you from learning more and growing and developing your powers and gifts. Why? Because,

Another things I think I learned is this: The Truth oftens hides in the Peace or Reconciliation of issues or conflict. Is the Sabbath Saturday or Sunday? Why can’t it be both? When things don’t make sense, if we peacefully try to bring the different sides of the issue together, you can often piece together the Truth. GOD didn’t give anyone all the pieces for those reasons,

When you tink you are alone, remember that you are NOT. GOD sees all and is BRIGHT and LOVING far GREATER than you can imagine. There are multitudes upon multitudes of Angelic Beings who LOVE you and SERVE you! Some have known you all your life and have watched and helped and guided you. Some are the spirits of your ancestors. Some participated in your creation from day one and from evolutions past,


Road Trips,

I saw the show Road Trips on TV, where a few 20 somethings drive around in a RV and interview famous people from the RV and asking the same question,”How do you know what to do with your life?”

The answer always seems to be the same,

“Follow your heart”

“Do what you love,”

What if you interviewed my parents? They would say, “Get a job, any job!” Ha-ha. Parents come from a different perspective, b/c to them you will always be the poopy diaper wearing kid that didn’t even know how to put on their shoes right. And now, kids don’t even have to learn how to tie shoe laces. They got it easy now.

A big fear of young people is that they will end up on Skid Row or as a crazy homeless person or bag lady. That is good that you don’t want that. As someone who almost ended up there, I can say that if that is something you DON’T want, then you just have to have PREVENTATIVE MEASURES. The biggest reason homeless people are homeless is NOT b/c they don’t have money or they are lazy. The two biggest reasons in my seeing are:

1) They have severed ties with family. Everyone has somebody. If you don’t have anybody, even if they are far away. If you don’t have anybody at all, then most likely you will end up on the street. You got to have somebody or something like a support group or even a church. So preventative measure number one, always have somebody or a safety net.

2) They have mental illness. People with mental illness often DON’T REALIZE or keep forgetting that they are mentally ill. Mental illness can be heredity. It can be the result of physical or emotional trauma. It can be the result of drug abuse. It can be the result of confusion or reading wrong books or listening to the wrong, toxic people. So, be careful. The surest sign that you have a mental condition IS, communication ability. People with mental problems when given a paper to write an essay, most often, blank out or write things that are not readable. There is a lack of flow, coherence, structure, order, etc. Writers are often the best mental doctors because they can read what thoughts are there and how thinking is put together. If you think you might have a condition, please visit a doctor. There is no shame in that. Everyone has something and after some treatment you may be cured. Praying to Jesus for healing won’t hurt either.

Hopefully, I have eased your fears a little. Can you really achieve your dream life like those actors and other famous people on tv? Yes, of course! But in order to get what you want you really have to know what you want, and have some kind of plan, and work that plan, and pray, and make good decisions, and do good and help people. That’s my two cents for the day. It’s your life,

Current Events: The Tom and Katie Split,

What do I have to say about this?

Divorce is no new thing to Americans or anybody. Now that I’m mature, I’ve realized that divorce, man-woman shtuff has always for the most part been the same. The good thing is that nowadays, women are more empowered and independent than before. Which, somewhat, begs the question. Are the teachings of Jesus on divorce still valid?

Jesus was a LOVER of women and defender of the weak and impoverished. He was made wrongs right and freely gave to all who came to Him. When we read His Words on divorce it seems He is saying no divorce at all, for any reason. But I read Him as saying,

‘Do not abandon women when they still love you, if they still need you, if you have responsibility to them and your children.’

I recently have a complicated relationship, marriage with my wife. And when I hear my parents’ stories and remember stories of immigrants and their temporary splits, it seems separations are really no big deal and commonplace in the life cycle of a marriage. When I was emotional about it, I thought,

I have blessed my wife mostly, and even if we were to split now, FOR GOOD, wouldn’t we have blessed each other and improved each other since we met? Also, if the split is mutually decided to be mutually beneficial, then there is no choice but to move forward. There always is the possibility of getting back together again. And on the flipside, not my marriage, of course, but sometimes at least for a time, a couple needs to be apart so they can remember how much they love each other and not take each other for granted. As long as both know, that they REALLY want to be together and they are meant to be. Sometimes, it just isn’t working, and you just split.

But reality and sanity returned to me, and I realized what my little family needs to do. My wife and I love each other to the end,

Whatever the case maybe, we can breathe easier, Christians, knowing or thinking,

‘We have to admit it is getting better, getting better all the time…’

In some sense, Christians who believe very strongly in the infallibility and innerancy of the Bible, and only the Bible are in my opinion having tunnel vision,

The Bible is only one book, and it contains writings in it from thousands and thousands of years ago,

In our early Christians years, we were strong to say the Bible is NOT out of date. Now, I am saying, not so strongly, but respectfully, that some aspects of it ARE out of date. And we have to know which ones. That is what makes us discerning and mature and intelligent and useful members and elders of Christ. Because as elders and interpreters of the Bible, the younger members look to us to know what is right and wrong, and even HOW TO THINK. Teaching wrong doctrine and example can really, really wreak havoc in the community and these are real people’s lives.

Let me end by saying, I believe that the Bible is THE TEXT. But, we shouldn’t be fearful to venture out and read others. And we shouldn’t be fearful to teach, knowing that GOD knows our hearts. And I’d like to finalize by saying, I am teaching here, but hopefully my style and words will be more GOD, and Jesus and less me. I don’t want to teach, I don’t want to give advice, because I realized that advice is personal. What worked for you, WILL NOT work for someone else, the best advice is always to empower people and let them and encourage them to figure things and do things for themselves. And show them how to find help if they need it.


P.S. – Oh yeah, and it’s sad that Tom and Katie split. But, I’m sure Suri will still see them enough and have the best. Tom and Katie may get back together again, they may not, but I pray that Jesus blesses and keeps them always,

P.S.S. – Yes, and if Christians made more common sense, perhaps more regular folk, people would join up. Sometimes, our thinking although noble and admirable is not workable in this world. We have to be both noble and workable. Or something like that. Sorry it’s a Saturday and I’m hungry,

P.P.S.S. – Chomp,

Congratulations to the former Ms. Rebecca St. James,

I just researched, and it appears that Christian Contemporary Music artist Rebecca St. James got married on April 23, 2011. Congratulations!

I posted one earlier in 2009 commending her on saving herself for marriage, something I never had the strength to do. Something one of my cousins is doing and achieving, although everyone is kind of concerned for her. Rebecca was 34 when she got married. I was 35. So, I understand having to wait so long.

Praying that if it is your hearts desire to experience the joy of have a baby sometimes soon. I don’t know her and her husband, but may the LORD Jesus bless you richly and keep your marriage and protect your marriage,


The Ministry of Imperfection,

There are many reading this blog who are far along with the LORD Jesus, for those who don’t understand what I am about to say, don’t worry about it, you will, please just listen,

At some point in your life, a switch goes off, you turn around, and life isn’t about you anymore.

For me, that point came late in life, after my car accident, when I was still living with my parents. The title of this blog post to me means that sometimes you have to fail, sometimes you act the fool, sometimes you let others win, sometimes you take the blame or the bill, do you understand?

Christians especially sometimes get caught up in being holy and perfect and they are unwilling to suffer for Christ. What did Adam do after Eve ate the fruit? He ate it too, I’ve read accounts saying that he loved Eve so he ate and joined her in imperfection rather than be separated. Let me bring the example back down to earth. A very simple example is in teaching kids. Sometimes to raise a child’s self-esteem and confidence or even to just get them to do it you have to not act like you know it all or can do it all. I tell my kids I can’t do it on my own, I need their help. I tell my kids I don’t know or I say something wrong so they can be right. It seems strange, but it really works. And now if you think back, HEY, your parents probably did that with you too?!

In these days, leadership means different things to different people. To me, and I really think I’m getting old. Leadership isn’t about being superman or wonder woman anymore. Leadership is more about caring about other people and making sure everything is all good with everyone. The question then is, “If I’m taking care of everyone else, who takes care of me?” That’s a good question and I don’t know. Maybe you have the answer?

My Imaginations: Jesus in Hell,

Our LORD Jesus says in Revelations, that He has the keys of Death and Hades. That means:

Jesus rules Heaven and Earth AND HELL, JESUS RULES IT ALL,

Christians ask, “Did Jesus go to Hell?”

Yes, but not in the way you think. He went there to take over. He was legally taken there, because He carried the sins of the world. It isn’t discussed much. But, I think the devil required the death of the Son, just as depicted in the ‘Chronicles of Narnia’ movies. But remember, the devil does not rule Hell, his domain is now earth, having lost his place in Heaven. His misdeeds are all recorded, and his time is running out. He may have had control of hell, but Jesus gots the keys now.

The very funny, and ‘not fair’ thing is:

GOD is GOD! Jesus, is the LORD and GOD and He can not die. As He said, He lays His life down, and then He picks it up again. And as a powerful Singaporean preacher says, “Grace swallows sin up!” All the sins of the world could not keep Jesus down. He just wiped it all away.

There is a story of Avalokitesvara, an avatar of GOD, who appeared around 500 B.C. She is now worshipped in Buddhism as Guan-Yin, the Goddess of Light. It is my understanding that she is more like an angel or saint, not worthy of worship. She went to the deepest, darkest hell, because she also took on the sins of others. It is funny that she got kicked out of hell. For such was the power of goodness and life and light in her, that while she was in hell, she kept transforming it into heaven. And the powers there were unhappy with that, so they released her.

So what happened when Jesus went to Death and Hades for three days? When He spoke to the Pharisees, He compared it to Jonah being in the belly of the whale for three days. I don’t comprehend it clearly, but GOD-Jesus has always loved and been concerned with all people. Jesus even loves the people in death and hell. In the book of Hebrews, it says that He even led some of them to Heaven in those three days. I guess that just as many in our prisons were wrongfully incarcerated, some in hell did not deserve to be there.

Don’t feel sorry for Jesus. GOD always knows what He is doing. When Jesus went to Hell, He did suffer, but He also went there to tour it as King, take authority, free the captives, maybe He even vacationed there and made it a better, kinder place.

Pastor Mark Driscoll, of Seattle,

He has a real ministry from the LORD Jesus, and it is very successful,

Maybe he has a few more years of whooping it up, and then the LORD Jesus will change him, so he can lead others into the change,

One thing that he is wrong about is how Jesus was. I wasn’t there, but in the Spirit, I know that Jesus was a genius at relating to any and everyone. He was raised blue-collar, but He was a Prince, yet anyone and everyone could talk with Him and understand Him and respect Him. He describes Jesus as a rude, crude, and sometimes mean dude. That’s just how he reads Jesus.

I am sure that he does not preach with the Gospel spirit of peace, love, understanding, etc., consistently. He is very adept at creating a following. That’s important, Jesus Himself was very popular and drew very large crowds.

I wish him the best and continued success in his ministry. He is doing good for Christianity, but he doesn’t accurately reflect the Spirit of Christ yet. It is something a lot of people are waiting for.


P.S. – Something Pastor Driscoll understands is that sometimes some people will never appreciate GOD’s grace unless they taste GOD’s judgment first.

Is Robot Me Expensive?

My son asked me, “Is robot me expensive?”, since I always talk about buying all the toys he wants being expensive. And we see robot shows on TV.

He brings to my mind something I read a long, long time ago. A robot that can do some kind of work, say on an assembly line, is worth – millions of dollars.


Yet, we don’t value life, babies, ourselves. People put each other down. People treated each other like crap.

It shouldn’t be this way.

You really are a living miracle of a masterpiece. No one on this earth can engineer a human being. You are absolutely priceless.

Please believe that if not anything else. You are intrinsically worth probably $1,000,000,000,000,000. Just by standing there you are worth that. Because you are a biological wonder. Priceless! Love yourself and treat others with respect, please.


The New Fast,

In Mark 2:

Jesus Questioned About Fasting

18 Now John’s disciples and the Pharisees were fasting. Some people came and asked Jesus, “How is it that John’s disciples and the disciples of the Pharisees are fasting, but yours are not?”

19 Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom fast while he is with them? They cannot, so long as they have him with them. 20 But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them, and on that day they will fast.

21 “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. Otherwise, the new piece will pull away from the old, making the tear worse. 22 And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”

What does this mean? Many of Jesus’ sayings seem disjointed, which is interesting, b/c the teachers of the Law never wanted to listen to prophets. What Jesus is saying here is that after Jesus came, things changed. One is the meaning of the fast. In the past, fasting was for self-humbling and to show repentance to GOD. For example, the Ninevites put on sack cloth and fasted, and GOD relented and did not destroy Ninevah, to Jonah’s dissatisfaction. Is there another newer account of Jonah?

Now, fasting still means that, but it has another meaning. As Jesus said He came to do something NEW! Fasting and praying. The fast is a way to bless someone with prayer&fasting. Fasting speeds the answer to prayer, one such as ‘May Jesus return come swiftly’. And fasting can help someone if an entity ‘has’ them. But at the heart of all prayer and fasting is gospel peace and the justice for all (as Isaiah says in the True Fast).


P.S. – Also, Christians should be joyful people. That’s why Jesus talks about wine and partying! We don’t win people over but being too somber, too serious, too boring, and too much about keeping rules,

GOD’s Good Name,

Right now, Christians DO NOT have a good name in the United States,

Some of that is because Christians are hated, and some of that is because we hate, let it be the latter and not the former,

In the oft quoted book of Malachi, we see GOD saying He is a Great King, and that He is concerned about His Name! That is very, very, very, very, very, very true.

Just because we are strangers and persecuted in this world, doesn’t mean that we can do what every we want. We are strangers b/c most of the world does not really know or practice GOD’s good ways. That know it, but they don’t do it. They hate us, b/c we are good.

So, let’s take the game up another level, and love, really love. Because GOD, Jesus’ GOOD NAME is at stake. If we really want to honor, nay, revere and worship GOD, then we need to be MORE CONSCIOUS of PROTECTING HIS GOOD NAME.

How do we do that? Not only by being blameless, because often that is not possible, but by being peaceful, loving people that forgive and are quick to ask for forgiveness and put things right.


The Definition of ‘Perfect’,

Short post today,

What does perfect mean? Often we think it means that there is nothing wrong with someone, then he/she is perfect. But, the Bible definition by context is:

perfect = loving everyone, hating no one.

Be perfect as your Father in Heaven is perfect, who shines the sun on everyone and sends the rain on the wicked and righteous alike. Or something like that,

Just as Jesus is the Way, His ways are not our own. His words are not ours either. Part of joining the Light is speaking the words GOD gives us. And then, part of the work is also either redeeming the words we now use or finding new words to describe totally secular or occult type realities.


Don’t Shao Kan the Holy,

Shao Kan, or 小 看, in Chinese literally means look at to be small. It means to discount or consider ill. These days, people consider holiness and righteousness and goodness to be useless or of little practical value. They scoff at GOD’s holy people such as priests, pastors, monks, nuns, etc. All they do is nothing and pray and sing and act holy and look down on me.

I’ve met people, and I understand them. People usually are tough but their ability to take constructive criticism shows extreme sensitivity. And that’s good, what that really means is that they really know what is right and wrong. But, our ears are not attuned to that frequency. What we need for some in the outside and outer courts is a different communication method. We cannot criticize. We cannot say things we usually hear in the sanctuaries. Yes, they need to hear, but we cannot expect everyone to repent in the same way. How many ways are there to say sorry?

Does it have to be with head bowed, a verbal and tearful apology? Are we understanding enough to accept a look down and silence? Are we understanding enough to accept a blink? Are we understanding or powerful enough to see on the face that the sorry happened inside?

With super sensitive people, if you push too hard after the fact. Sometimes you will hurt the process and maybe even undo it. We need to be more flexible and sensitive ourselves. We need to be more sensitive to the leadings of the Spirit. And for that, no secret, we need to practice fasting.

Back on our side, Holiness, if you are not convinced IS SOMETHING. Why does GOD not explain this? Because it has to be discovered to be really fun! In my steps with GOD in greater and greater holiness what has happened? One, my relationships have improved. You become super nice and genuinely sweet and caring. I don’t care who you are (k/j), all people like good things. You can be a murderer but still love your nice, sweet mom. Two, my prayers are answered. GOD answers prayers, but He really answers the prayers of those He favors and that love and seek hard after Him. So that’s why we do these things. There is a material or practical side to holiness and prayers. It makes things happen. It brings the need-want into reality. Three, I’m still waiting for this to happen, but I believe that holiness cures people of disease. The prayers can do it, a touch can do it. I’ve received sickness from other people by hugging them or even just praying for them. I’m not bragging but just sharing with those of you out there doing the same thing; encouragement. What happened with Jesus and His Apostles? Eventually, they were able to heal through Jesus’ and Holy Spirit training, but they could heal with a Word or a touch, instantly! Now, what is that worth?


Where did Obi-Wan Go?

What did Obi-Wan Kenobi say to Darth Vader before he died? You cannot kill me, I will just keep coming back again and again. There seems to be this duality in the Universe. The darkside and the light. The light wants life, but the darkside wants death.

So which side wins? I believe it is a struggle from which life moves forward. But not in a survival of the fittest sense, but moves forward in the direction set by Higher Powers which lead Ultimately to the Highest, whom Christians call the Most High GOD, or sometimes we just call Him Father.

It is strange and abstract, but sometimes life is that. I believe that Obi-Wan did not incarnate again, but we saw him in spirit. His spirit was alive and lived somewhere but could appear to Luke and was aware of things. Just like KwiGwon’s spirit. Spirits put their hands on people and empower them. And that’s what Obi-Wan meant. He was going to be with Luke, Darth Vader’s son, and ‘fight’ him, but really they were trying to save Darth Vader. In spirit, Obi-Wan could be around Darth Vader and whisper and teach him through the winds or through other people who happened to be around him. That’s what Obi-Wan meant when he said he would become more powerful than Darth Vader could imagine if he died.

Obi-Wan did not fear death b/c he understood what comes next if you have lived your life well. And so we should not fear death either. We don’t always need to read our Bibles, but serve others, love and live well, listen to people that come into our lives, repent and pray for others, give and send out our love to everything, etc. With renewed and revived spirit, the pages of the Bible will come alive to you and your eyes and ears will be opened. You will know and understand everything. It is the mind of Christ,

May you have the success you desire, my best to you in your endeavors,

How to Raise the Dead?

You feed them, you love them, and sing them to sleep, like everyone else? Ha-ha,

Do you know Jessica?

If Jesus is Jesus, then Jessica must be Jesus’ wife.  J/K

Euphemisms and Respect,

I’m Chinese so I KNOW about respect, overload on the respect. I need respect zero, or diet respect,

Children of the Light, I may be speaking to the future, but the game of Light and Dark, is merely that a game. For those who have played team sports, we understand the idea of sportsmanship, rules, and that sometimes you can walk off the field and the game is just a game. The game ‘served’ to create, grow, and teach us somethings. The game gave us friends, love, and a bunch of other values you never even heard about.

In the Book of Jude of the Holy Bible of the Christians, we hear St. Jude talking about the slandering of Celestial Beings. I’ve heard pastors calling out the Devil. I’ve heard other spiritual leaders boldly challenging the forces of evil. So, what do you think is going to happen? They’re coming…

Job, the pious, or Jobab as I like to call him, did as such. His heart was right and devoted in wanting to smash an idol in the land. But that incited the anger of the enemy.

Elijah, in the Christian Bible, in his zeal, challenged the prophets of Baal to a showdown. But, we often glance over, he order all the prophets slain after.

I’ll stop there. But remember as in the 40 Year Old Virgin (movie starring Steve Carell, the Noah guy), the friends said, “…I didn’t use bitches in a derogatory fashion, you did…” Calling demons, demons is sometimes unkind. Hey, creatures of the night have feelings too. In the study of Hebrew letters, and each letter has a theme. demon in Hebrew, if you drop the vowels, becomes dmn, which could mean something if you understand pictographic languages like Hebrew and Chinese. Hebrew is also phonetic and other ways of understanding it, so it may very well be the language of the Angels.

D = Dalet, doorway.
M = Mem, is the flow of divine wisdom,
N = Nun, is the nun…you figure it out!

But, maybe ‘demons’ serve to refine you into the character of divine, with darkness and ‘hellfire’, suffering and all that negative stuff. So instead of fighting them viciously and so seriously, they are our trainers and testers. Maybe they are Light Angels in masks of Ugliness and Darkness. You never know,


It’s Not Just About You or Us,

Sometimes we get caught up in achieving or becoming something or someone, or doing something even FOR G-d. But, I’m starting to see that unselfishness, helping others, and loving others is more where it is at. Bro, you know what I am saying? (think Bruce Leroy) It’s easy to dump your responsibilities and seek happiness and shirk one’s duty for the sake of self-fulfillment.

Let me bring it home. Me, for example, and I’m not bragging. But I decided that my life is now over. Not really, but I’m o.k. with being a nobody. I accept my fate and choose to take care of my parents business and of them in their old age. I willingly do it and soon will happily do it. I’ve had dreams. I’ve had ideas and goals, but maybe they’ll come true alongside taking up my responsibility. If I know G-d, He will. So my faith is not rock solid after all, and I pray for more and more for you.

Again, and I’m not bragging. I’ve met people who are more gifted and more capable. They have developed themselves to a superhuman point. Yet, and I’m not bragging but seeking for more like me, they have admired my dedication to the LORD Jesus in holiness, purity, righteousness, etc. I have talents too, but as I said in previous posts, holiness is SOMETHING. As the Christ said, holiness is what keeps the planet earth acceptable to G-d. The very presence of holy, not just good, people keeps the earth spinning, keeps the sun shining, and keeps the rain falling. Some of the weakest, ugliest, most retarded things you think are most likely holy, and to whom you owe another day of life. Humbling isn’t it?

If you’re reading this and you struggle with life, living a life of unselfishness and service to others. Be encouraged. And be decided. You can’t be a half-way Saint. If you want to be a good person be a 100% good person. Decide to be, and be that. If you complain and need to vent and even stumble sometimes. That’s alright. For if God doesn’t understand then He/She is NOT God.


It’s DNA Darnit,

My knee is busted. When I do heavy digging or construction type work or lifting, I can feel it buckle a little. Why it hasn’t healed yet, I don’t know. But I remember when I was young, maybe ten, I remember reading that the neurons in the brain do not heal. And now, scientists are saying the contrary, nerves in the brain CAN heal. Basically, we can be healed of anything.

Did you know, that every cell of your body is dying and being ‘replaced’? So it is possible to REALLY become a new person, inside and out, because every single cell in your body would be replaced. Maybe every seven to eleven years you will be a new person.

The most real part of us, they say, is our souls or spirits. It is us. It is where we sit in our control center and experience reality, think, feel, and envision the future, among other things. That part as far as I know, does not have DNA. Our DNA contains instructions for our biology. Now we also know that DNA can be changed. We’ve read that our DNA has been spliced, by aliens? Our DNA also can change with time, or miraculously by G-d. Our DNA also can change in response to environmental stimulus.

I have a theory, that disease is not just a disease state or that it is uncleanness in the body. Science has shown us that the body has more than enough defense mechanisms to protect itself from diseases – such as cancer, heart disease, and diabetes. But, the missing factor is the psychological or spiritual. Why do people smoke? It is a deep seeded or seated self-loathing or self-esteem issue or some kind of dissatisfaction with self or family often that is at the root of the behavior called smoking.

Similarly, I theorize that just as smoking is a self-sabotage, our bodies allow disease to come in and take root simply because we have given up hope or don’t really care or are just too tired. In my observations of people, they really don’t know any better a lot of the time. Most are as innocent children, like sheep, as the LORD Jesus said. I’m still a little critical and get fed up with people, but I pray I’m changing. True ministry is from the heart. It is service, but more than that it is your life. A lot of ministry is undoing and coming to terms with your past. So one can say, that the first missionary you should be to – is yourself. The first person you should learn to love is yourself. In seeking out G-d, He becomes our mirror and we see ourselves and our families. In trying to know G-d, we learn about ourselves. Until one day, we learn the G-d is not so much unlike us, but that we can be One with Him, and as we walk with Him, we become as the LORD, perfect representations of His likeness and the radiance of His Glory.

Insites on the Tower of Babbling

In Genesis 11, the story of the Tower Babel, we see that at one time, the whole world spoke one language. I’m not sure but it may have been Syriac. The LORD, Himself, came down to take a look at what the people where doing with themselves, they built a city, a monument to themselves.

He didn’t like it.

What the account says is He ‘confused’ their language. And now we have many, many different languages today. English, Spanish, Italian, Japanese, Chinese, etc.

But let’s take a closer look at the word confused. The account also said, He made it so that people could NOT understand each others speech.

That is true even today. Do you realize how much of everyday speech is just slang, colloquialisms, catch phrases, sentiments, etc. Even the phrasing and word choice of today is often subconsciously offensive and sometimes violent, sometimes disrespectful. I have a theory that as the heart of man is often corrupt, the speech and language itself is corrupted.

That led me to be a little more conscious and careful of how I say things to people. The order of the wording is also important. Hand and body language is also important. And that led me to the discovery and notion and perhaps that some languages are better, YES, better than others. I am investigating and studying Hebrew. The Jewish literature says that Hebrew is a Heavenly Language, of course, or better yet it could be true.

Clean and ‘Unclaen’, Before the Flood

I notice parallels in G-d’s stories. After a more careful reading of the Noah flood story, in the Bible. I noticed the G-d tells Noah to bring 7 of every clean animal, and 2 of every unclean animal into the Ark. Noah, himself, his wife, his sons, and their wives were 8 people. Does this mean, it was hinted at that G-d allowed Noah to bring in 2 or maybe 3 ‘unclean’ people in with him? I wonder who they were?

My Thoughts on Communal Living

Three characteristic outlined by Wikipedia for Communes:

1) Egalitarian – no hierarchy to get things done.
2) Smaller scale organization – they thought society was organized in too large units.
3) No or less bureaucracy – An unofficial definition of a bureaucrat is a type. They don’t actually work, b/c of their social status. Their work is mostly, observation, thinking, rule making, and the shaping of behavior towards goals of the organization.

The only way these can be pulled off, is with the help of the Spirit. There has to be a common spirit shared between all members who choose to live together. People who are seeking are testing the waters will not be able to instantly join a commune or utopia. Like all groups, there is a testing period, does he/she fit in, and is it meant to be?

Weight Management p.1

I’m almost forty, and unless you have been blessed by GOD in the fat gene department, or the not having the fat gene department, or unless you are what we call a freak of nature, then you also might have challenges with weight.

Gone are the days as in adolescence when you could eat whatever you wanted. Now, maintaining a healthy weight is important to preventing what I call the big three – Cancer, Diabetes, and Heart Disease. Here on Guam, it is the eleventh hour when it comes to weight issues. People here are fat. If you have weight issues, it is almost worth it to fly out here so you can feel better about yourself.

I have victory in the area of weight management. How did I do it? I cut through all the b.s. and focused on the two main things that are the things. Eating less and moving more. Key is being patient and to not get discouraged. You have to expect to eat less and move more for a year or even two years before you look and feel changed.

It is easier said than done. But my guidelines are to eat very little carb, mostly vegetables. Eat about one bowl full of food only per sitting. Three or maybe two sittings per day. It is very strict, but just consider it work towards a goal (you have to set your weight goal) and then it is maintenance. The suffering will stop one day. Don’t be afraid to skip a meal or two, but don’t do it if it is making you dizzy or other side effects. You have to get enough nutrients and calories for your needs, so this is not that easy to find the right balance, regarding diet.

Not everyone will be able to, but I changed my job from computer to building maintenance, so I am moving and working all day, almost everyday.

Lastly, for stubborn areas, they say there is no such thing as spot reduction. But I beg to differ. If you have more fat in one area of the body, it only makes sense to move that part of the body more. This means understanding fundamentally how each muscle functions. Let’s say you have a little extra in the hips, that just needs a lot, maybe a LOT of walking. If you have fat in the arms, you have to scrub and clean a lot. Maybe your house is already in need of that, so take that on, and have a clean house to boot.

The best overall way to burn fat is to run. My study of biochemistry – the chemical that breaks down fat is released when the body does anaerobic exercise. Not just walking, but exercise that really raises your heart level, gets your heart and lungs going, and fills your body with O2. I really dislike running, but it is a MUST in order to really get lean. There is no other way.

Best to you in your endeavor, may GOD grant you what you need to achieve your goal!

Men, Be A Dishwasher

Why? B/c in a restaurant, the dishwashers are usually men anyways. Water get hot and sweaty, women don’t like that. Drying and putting away dishes is kind of heavy and scary for women. What if they break a dish. And pots and pans can be very heavy to wash – for women. So what’s manlier than washing dishes? Hm? haha. Just do it. Your wife, girlfriend will love you for it. And isn’t that what we all want?

The Sixth Sense or Sight?

Remember Haley Joel Osment in The Sixth Sense? The movie where a boy could see ghosts and the narrator or investigator of the story ended up being a ghost himself? Creepy yet thought provoking. But, we see that this is a reality. Where? In the Bible. King David in 2 Samuel 24, sees the Angel of the Plague stop at the threshing floor. It is this ‘vision’ that confirms within him with the prophecy from Gad that he has to sacrifice to the LORD at that spot; so he buys it. Then the plague stops.

Have you ever seen something you couldn’t explain? The supernatural, I mean? Many, many of us have. I have. I’ve seen a lot of stuff actually, you’ll never believe me if I told you. My mom, a long-time, faithful follower of the LORD Jesus Christ has met people who have seen. She herself could have seen, but asked the LORD not to show her. She does not want to see, so the LORD being the gentleman that He is, I’m thinking, spared her this. Thank GOD.

One story I recall, was that the Chinese church elders were called to Ghost Bust. Ha-ha. Funny but true. A well-known building in Agana Bay once had some paranormal activity going on the upper floors. So, the Chinese pastor, armed with a Bible, along with a few faithful, including my mom went to “gwa gui”, chase off evil spirits.

Have you ever seen an angel? I mean really seen one in it’s glory? If so, let us know. Some one who came through this blog, saw her guardian angel. There have been people I’ve met, that I’ve had a feeling about, that they were not quite who they were. I met a homeless man once that I’m quite sure was an angel of the LORD.

So, does that make the seer (I get that word now), really special? Well, we’re all special to the LORD. But, when one sees or hears, I think, we just have to do our job and let someone know what that was. What we see or hear may be able to help someone. That’s all. It doesn’t mean we’re holier or any more special than some else. That’s just what we can do, or have received from the LORD. Just doing our job, is all. Haley Joel Osment’s character in the movie, probably got used to the sights eventually. Once he reach the maturity to know that what he saw was ghosts of people unjustly murdered, he then had the responsibility to report what he saw to the authorities so that justice could be served. Also, like the character of Keanu Reeves in the movie Constantine. His purpose for seeing was to be a demon-hunter or spirit cop; CRAZY. That would be a really crazy job; for who knows what to do when faced with heavenly beings.

Peace all, remember our LORD Jesus this season. He gave His all so that we might live. Love the LORD with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Why Be FAT?

Yeah, I said it. There ARE benefits to having some fat on the body. One, from my newly found survivor-ist sensibilities is: you can go without food and/or water for a little while, because it is stored up. If some holocaust or disaster would happen, having some fat on the body could help someone. It could be the difference between life and death. There are businesses reasons why someone should have a perfect ’10’ body. It is mostly for image. I’m still too fat and I’m getting there. But, my ideal body weight wouldn’t be one where I’m totally ‘ripped’. I’ve read a healthy body fat percentage is around 10-12%. Most fitness athletes strive for 4-7%, that’s really good, but not for me.