It was All a Dream,

Hi everybody,

Since I’ve been walking the path of discipleship, GOD has shown me strange, wonderful, AND biblical things,

I have first-hand experience,

When Joshua asked the SUN to stop His run across the Sky, He/She granted his request. In modern, Star Trekese, that was a Time-Warp.

When my son, was late for school, just for fun, I asked my son to pray for a time warp. And we were not late for school, but even five minutes early, when I know we should have been about 15 minutes late.

Also in the Bible, we see how Jesus was able to be inside a house without anyone opening the door for Him. That is teleportation. One night, before playing computer, I was drinking my tea and reading the Bible. After my son went to sleep, I moved over to the computer. When I was thirsty, I looked around for my drink forgetting I am not where I was. And guess what I saw next to the computer, my tea. WHOA.

Today, GOD told me something shocking but beautiful allow me to share. When something bad happened to us, it DIDN’T HAPPEN.

IT WAS LIKE A DREAM, so real, but a dream, so He could catch the bad guy or bad gal. The perp was real, and the crime he did was real, but the pain and victimization you remember was NOT,

So, think on that. If you don’t believe, know that pain medications for past memories are legal and biblical. Consider you past like Vietnam. And science has shown us that every molecule of your body is replaced in 7 years, so you really are NOT the same person after 7.


Let’s Get Real, by Guest Poster (Santana)

I’d like to voice an unpopular opinion about violence and men,

and women of course, because I qualify as one. I’ve had female spirits ‘around’ me, and I am currently a mom to my son, and my wife.

My wife comes from a let’s say complicated background. She doesn’t read this, so I hope she doesn’t mind. She is very smart, and if I didn’t know better she has some form of mind powers. Just joking. Or am I?

Females are able to get away with hurtful talk, subtle and subliminal thoughts and actions because they often do it with a smile. Or they play like they don’t know. Or they are not violent with fists, but they are sarcastically witty.

Let me say, that just as females would rather be attacked verbally, men would rather be attacked physically. The words and faithless words and discouragement hurt worse than if you just took a knife and stuck it.

It takes two to tango, and women often play the victim when both people had as much fault.

The last factors in why people are violent are the family environment, spiritual heritage, and paranormal involvement, oh AND celestial effects (the moon, solar flares, the planets, etc). The last one is one that gets me. Did you know you are affected by your environment? Your neighborhood’s ‘group thought can affect you. And have you check if your house is haunted or not? Did something happen there? Often there was.

Bottom line, fighting is fighting. And we need to learn to be peaceful people.

If it isn’t working, the only thing to do is separate. And when you miss each other and really want to try again, then please do so. BUT, this time, DO BETTER and really GET ALONG.

I hope I made friends in the male readership. Women, I’m one of you too, more like a mom, so don’t hate me, just trying to keep it real.

and LOVE,

The Butterfly Effect, The Effect of Two,

Why don’t we want to put others down as a way to get ahead,

Because there is GOD, and there are others,

When you put people down, GOD will put you down, and others will put you down too, because of Law and because of Karma,

The Law is the Golden Rule,

So, you actually hurt yourself by hurting others,

The opposite is true if you help others,

SO, be someone that helps not hurts! Otay?


Road Trips,

I saw the show Road Trips on TV, where a few 20 somethings drive around in a RV and interview famous people from the RV and asking the same question,”How do you know what to do with your life?”

The answer always seems to be the same,

“Follow your heart”

“Do what you love,”

What if you interviewed my parents? They would say, “Get a job, any job!” Ha-ha. Parents come from a different perspective, b/c to them you will always be the poopy diaper wearing kid that didn’t even know how to put on their shoes right. And now, kids don’t even have to learn how to tie shoe laces. They got it easy now.

A big fear of young people is that they will end up on Skid Row or as a crazy homeless person or bag lady. That is good that you don’t want that. As someone who almost ended up there, I can say that if that is something you DON’T want, then you just have to have PREVENTATIVE MEASURES. The biggest reason homeless people are homeless is NOT b/c they don’t have money or they are lazy. The two biggest reasons in my seeing are:

1) They have severed ties with family. Everyone has somebody. If you don’t have anybody, even if they are far away. If you don’t have anybody at all, then most likely you will end up on the street. You got to have somebody or something like a support group or even a church. So preventative measure number one, always have somebody or a safety net.

2) They have mental illness. People with mental illness often DON’T REALIZE or keep forgetting that they are mentally ill. Mental illness can be heredity. It can be the result of physical or emotional trauma. It can be the result of drug abuse. It can be the result of confusion or reading wrong books or listening to the wrong, toxic people. So, be careful. The surest sign that you have a mental condition IS, communication ability. People with mental problems when given a paper to write an essay, most often, blank out or write things that are not readable. There is a lack of flow, coherence, structure, order, etc. Writers are often the best mental doctors because they can read what thoughts are there and how thinking is put together. If you think you might have a condition, please visit a doctor. There is no shame in that. Everyone has something and after some treatment you may be cured. Praying to Jesus for healing won’t hurt either.

Hopefully, I have eased your fears a little. Can you really achieve your dream life like those actors and other famous people on tv? Yes, of course! But in order to get what you want you really have to know what you want, and have some kind of plan, and work that plan, and pray, and make good decisions, and do good and help people. That’s my two cents for the day. It’s your life,

Everyone Is Going Thru Something,

When I remember how I used to be,

Many people I meet are shiny, happy people with great personalities, no major problems, great jobs, great hair, great girlfriends/boyfriends, etc. They’re just GREAT! And they are the envy of everyone.

I don’t know why but the people, the world I’ve been around are people with problems. They can’t be happy for any length of time. And they selflessly DON’T talk incessantly about their problems. But, I know they have major problems because they are such angry, imbalanced, and sarcastic people. Their thought processes are different and they don’t really see things the way most people do.

Call it what you want to, but I just know that one day, I too will go through something again. I did, from about age 17 to 29 was in a major funk. It was the LORD Jesus that brought me out of it. Life throws curve balls at us all the time. And I know, many people were there for me when I was all alone. Or I thought I was. I hope that I can be there for somebody, always there. And when it’s my turn, she will always be there for me.


The New Fast,

In Mark 2:

Jesus Questioned About Fasting

18 Now John’s disciples and the Pharisees were fasting. Some people came and asked Jesus, “How is it that John’s disciples and the disciples of the Pharisees are fasting, but yours are not?”

19 Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom fast while he is with them? They cannot, so long as they have him with them. 20 But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them, and on that day they will fast.

21 “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. Otherwise, the new piece will pull away from the old, making the tear worse. 22 And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”

What does this mean? Many of Jesus’ sayings seem disjointed, which is interesting, b/c the teachers of the Law never wanted to listen to prophets. What Jesus is saying here is that after Jesus came, things changed. One is the meaning of the fast. In the past, fasting was for self-humbling and to show repentance to GOD. For example, the Ninevites put on sack cloth and fasted, and GOD relented and did not destroy Ninevah, to Jonah’s dissatisfaction. Is there another newer account of Jonah?

Now, fasting still means that, but it has another meaning. As Jesus said He came to do something NEW! Fasting and praying. The fast is a way to bless someone with prayer&fasting. Fasting speeds the answer to prayer, one such as ‘May Jesus return come swiftly’. And fasting can help someone if an entity ‘has’ them. But at the heart of all prayer and fasting is gospel peace and the justice for all (as Isaiah says in the True Fast).


P.S. – Also, Christians should be joyful people. That’s why Jesus talks about wine and partying! We don’t win people over but being too somber, too serious, too boring, and too much about keeping rules,

Don’t Shao Kan the Holy,

Shao Kan, or 小 看, in Chinese literally means look at to be small. It means to discount or consider ill. These days, people consider holiness and righteousness and goodness to be useless or of little practical value. They scoff at GOD’s holy people such as priests, pastors, monks, nuns, etc. All they do is nothing and pray and sing and act holy and look down on me.

I’ve met people, and I understand them. People usually are tough but their ability to take constructive criticism shows extreme sensitivity. And that’s good, what that really means is that they really know what is right and wrong. But, our ears are not attuned to that frequency. What we need for some in the outside and outer courts is a different communication method. We cannot criticize. We cannot say things we usually hear in the sanctuaries. Yes, they need to hear, but we cannot expect everyone to repent in the same way. How many ways are there to say sorry?

Does it have to be with head bowed, a verbal and tearful apology? Are we understanding enough to accept a look down and silence? Are we understanding enough to accept a blink? Are we understanding or powerful enough to see on the face that the sorry happened inside?

With super sensitive people, if you push too hard after the fact. Sometimes you will hurt the process and maybe even undo it. We need to be more flexible and sensitive ourselves. We need to be more sensitive to the leadings of the Spirit. And for that, no secret, we need to practice fasting.

Back on our side, Holiness, if you are not convinced IS SOMETHING. Why does GOD not explain this? Because it has to be discovered to be really fun! In my steps with GOD in greater and greater holiness what has happened? One, my relationships have improved. You become super nice and genuinely sweet and caring. I don’t care who you are (k/j), all people like good things. You can be a murderer but still love your nice, sweet mom. Two, my prayers are answered. GOD answers prayers, but He really answers the prayers of those He favors and that love and seek hard after Him. So that’s why we do these things. There is a material or practical side to holiness and prayers. It makes things happen. It brings the need-want into reality. Three, I’m still waiting for this to happen, but I believe that holiness cures people of disease. The prayers can do it, a touch can do it. I’ve received sickness from other people by hugging them or even just praying for them. I’m not bragging but just sharing with those of you out there doing the same thing; encouragement. What happened with Jesus and His Apostles? Eventually, they were able to heal through Jesus’ and Holy Spirit training, but they could heal with a Word or a touch, instantly! Now, what is that worth?


Why Be FAT?

Yeah, I said it. There ARE benefits to having some fat on the body. One, from my newly found survivor-ist sensibilities is: you can go without food and/or water for a little while, because it is stored up. If some holocaust or disaster would happen, having some fat on the body could help someone. It could be the difference between life and death. There are businesses reasons why someone should have a perfect ’10’ body. It is mostly for image. I’m still too fat and I’m getting there. But, my ideal body weight wouldn’t be one where I’m totally ‘ripped’. I’ve read a healthy body fat percentage is around 10-12%. Most fitness athletes strive for 4-7%, that’s really good, but not for me.

More (on) Forgiveness

As Christians or Catholics, we are to be examples of forgivess.  For as GOD forgave us, we will forgive others.  But, let’s study forgiveness, it’s not as simple as we are led to believe.  It’s great for word studies.  Just type ‘forgiveness’ into the keyword search,and wer’re on our way!

First, I’d like to talk about the natural and the supernatural.  The just and the divine.  Not sure if those are the proper terms for it, but please try to understand.  If I get punched, and I punch you back.  That is?

It’s not evil.  It’s normal.  An eye for an eye.  That is the law.  Our LORD did not say it is wrong.  It is just.  It is reciprocity, reaping what you sow.  The LORD called us to be supernatural or practice divine ways.  Turn the other cheek.  There is a reward in that from Him.  So, should we wantonly chase after the rewards?  No, I say not.  Why?  Because just as with increasing obedience to the LORD, He will tell when to pray, how to pray, who to pray for.  After all, He knows what you, everyone needs before you do.  I belive, and this is just me, that we are to follow the  LORD’s lead in forgiving each other with a capital ‘F’. (more…)

The Brutal Master

Why do you beat down on us, all day all night?

You suffocate us, we cannot breathe

I feel like tearing my skin off

My head is aching

My blood is boiling

crush me, and I’ll crush somebody else

my mind is filling with violence

mercy Lord, please help LORD

The brutal master is Guam weather, esp during the summer.  Don’t come here to live, or he’ll make you regret it…

Spirit, Soul, and Body p.2

There is an interesting explanation of Spirit, Soul, and Body by Watchman Nee.  Please see:

Writings of Watchman Nee

The soul is birthed out of the union of the spirit and body.

So You Want to Be a Pastor?

I’m going to sound a little harsh in this post, so please bear with me.  Seekers and born-again a-like need to be discerning when choosing a church body to attend or join.

I understand because for years, it was the desire of my heart to serve the LORD as a M.Div carrying, denominationally ordained official pastor.  It never happened, and after a trip to Seattle that ended in 2009, the LORD made it clear to me that wasn’t the path He had for me.  To say the least, I was disappointed.

Now after a year,  I happened on some versus in Ezekial. First of all, really quickly, what is a pastor?  Today a pastor is a catch-all term for the leader, teacher, and most often than not chief administrator of the church organization.  But in the strict definition of a pastor, a pastor is simply a shepherd.  He leads the sheep who do not know any better.  He or she takes care of them and loves them.  When they wander off, the shepherd goes after them.  He searches high and low relentlessly for the lost sheep.

Just as there are good and bad people.  There are good and bad pastors.  Yes, bad pastors with positions in card carrying churches all across the world.  Here is what GOD had to say to these pastors in Ezekial:

Ezekial 34:

Woe to the shepherds of Israel who only take care of themselves! Should not shepherds take care of the flock? 3 You eat the curds, clothe yourselves with the wool and slaughter the choice animals, but you do not take care of the flock. 45 So they were scattered because there was no shepherd, and when they were scattered they became food for all the wild animals. 6 My sheep wandered over all the mountains and on every high hill. They were scattered over the whole earth, and no one searched or looked for them. You have not strengthened the weak or healed the sick or bound up the injured. You have not brought back the strays or searched for the lost. You have ruled them harshly and brutally.

A good pastors really loves the people in his/her church.  It’s best if the pastor is a person of means and is self-supporting.  That way he does not feed on the flock itself.  I can’t say I’ve ever joined a church where the pastor really knew me by name and cared for me in a genuine relationship.  There have been great pastors that taught me many things from the Bible, but that didn’t really help me at those times.  I really needed someone to care and understand me.

That brings me to my last points.  Well, some pastors might say, the church is too large for me to care for everyone.  Then perhaps your ministry is too large.  It’s been said often that a pastor is not the dictator of the church but simply one of the elders with the responsibility of feeding the flock with GOD’s word (able to teach).  I don’t know the situations church bodies are in around the world, but from my experience that model would have worked better in the churches I attended before.  I’ve also been to churches where pastors were ordained but they did not have families or did not prove to rule their families well.  Disqualified, in my book, your book, everyone’s Bible.  The man of the house is the ‘little pastor’ behind Christ.  The family unit is foundational.  If your own household is not loved, ruled well, directed, provided for you have not reached the point to pastor a church.  And to those who grew up in harsh, tough, family environments such as myself,  I’ve had to re-learn how to rule my kids in a loving, gentle yet firm and effective way.  Chinese parents often yell, guilt, intimidate, demean, and withhold from their kids in order to better control them.  I’ve had to throw these experiences out, call them wrong according to the Word of GOD, forgive my parents, and re-learn better, truly effective ways of parenting.  One ‘tip’ is to give your kids the most freedom you can, and see yourself as helping your kids grow. They are people from day one just like you.  They don’t have all the powers and abilities that you do, but that doesn’t mean they are stupid and useless.  When you ‘serve’ them and help them grow up well into who GOD wants them to be, they will be thankful to you and will help you back.  Isn’t that really what we want anyways?

Hallelujah! I just lost 25 pounds!


Since I’ve been back from Taiwan, I’ve been losing weight.  From Oct. 2 til now, Oct.31, I’ve lost 25 pounds!

How did I do it? (more…)