A Turn of Discussions,

My studies on Hinduism will start soon, just saying, so if that doesn’t jive, vibe, or resonate with you, please return to us at a later time, but


An AHA Moment, p.1,

I’m not the best teacher, so I will just share my experiences,

An AHA Moment was:

When I realized what the Gospel was all about,

It is about Peace.

We are to stopped fighting, start getting along, and loving each other,

Change your shoes to the flat kind, change your clothes to the soft kind, grow your hair, and get ‘fat’,

Let your life, appearance, etc. reflect that you are ALL about peace,

Stop fights, bring people together, especially,

Turn the hearts of fathers to their sons, and sons to their fathers,

As a society we have mostly failed our families, *hangs head* …

I have myself, a son who I know very little about,

What GOD wants most is Children, who love Him wholeheartedly and truly, that WANT to spend time with Him, that make Him smile, that serve Him, that play with Him, that learn from Him, etc.

So our focuses in life should be around the family and children, that’s what I think,

Be Blessed by Being a Blessing,


the Sweetness, the Love,

I got to thinking, what makes one think of the sweetheart, it’s the sweet-NESS,

When we were young, and we watched movies of teenagers having fun, getting to know each other, experiencing life, and falling in love,

What was it that we feel? It is the undying commitment and sacrificing type of love? No,

It was that feeling of freedom, of experiencing life, the feeling of no worries, smiles, goodwill, love, and sweetness,

I had a few good months of that with my wife, before we launched into the ‘work’ of having a marriage, family, and a lifestyle.

This takes wisdom, when does life go back to that? When can I just be a boy and my wife be a girl, and there’s just the two of us, hand in hand,


I’ve heard that a 777 could stand for someone who is a divine, 7 in the body, mind, and spirit,

Our spirits are divine, when we join with the Holy Spirit, or some people say, our spirits simply ARE divine,

Our minds are divine when they are washed clean and Holy with pure thoughts,

Our bodies are divine when they are temples of GOD, work with GOD and His Angels, and they are obedient to His/Her command,

That’s a 777,


The Poor,

That’s the secret,

I won’t reveal any REAL secrets, but guess what, you want to REALLY follow Jesus? One thing, a VERY big thing, a VERY VERY big deal to GOD, Christ Jesus is:

The care of the poor.

If you want to be my friend, care about the things I care about,

If you love me, love my people,

When I consciously decided to show love and care for any poor person that I saw, my life changed. There was a quickening and the LORD Jesus entered my heart in a new and more profound way,

but mostly, I hope I can say this,

Jesus was pleased by the living out of His Way, and then I loved Him more, and He loved me more.

This is the meaning of being ‘In Christ’. It means you are in His Heart, and He is in your heart, and the love is complete. Please try, and open your heart. Do I need to quote Scripture to you, you remember all the Scriptures that mention how the LORD Jesus feels about the poor. Please DO IT,


Memory Blocking and Fallen Angels

They say that we had preexistence, and some say we had past lives,

So why don’t we remember them?

One thought I had is that we need to trust GOD, trust the Divine Guidance. We don’t remember for our own safety and comfort and best interests. So, perhaps we shouldn’t push so hard to remember.

Any Fantastic Four comic book fans out there? Remember, Franklin Richards? Franklin was the child of Reed and Susan Richards. Mr. Fantastic placed mental blocks in his mind, b/c his powers were much too powerful for him to control. In a similar way, I believe we have blocks, for our best interests.

Many people, have illnesses in their spirit and minds, because of unreleased emotional and spiritual energies related to past experiences. You can see it in their face and you can see that they are very angry or sad people. How do we help these people? For we are Christians, we are supposed to help! Often, we don’t want to get into it to deep. A professional is needed when someone visibly has these types of problems. Prayer is always good.

How Fallen Angels come into the picture is,

I’ve noticed that often people whom we see have ‘a demon’ or somekind of darkness in them, often we should be sensitive. We all want to go JESUS on them and say,’Get out!’ But, sometimes, a human or person’s spirit has been deeply wounded and the ‘demon’ is the only one helping them or holding them together or strengthening them. The person has forgotten what has happened often through time, willed amnesia, drugs or alcohol, but the demon IS helping them. When the time is right, GOD will heal both, and the demon will probably be promoted or go home,

Everything is as it should be,


Jesus and the Little Children

I’ve often thought, when the Apostles were jostling for position of who would be the greatest among them, Jesus brought a little child into their midst and said that the greatest is like this child,


Does that mean children are actually the bosses and leaders among us? To some degree, yeah, because realize it or not, they don’t have to do much, you serve them all day long. But, they need you to serve them, because they cannot serve themselves, NOT because it’s their time to BE served or retire. An elder who has put in the work, done their share, earned the right to sit down, is battle scarred and proven DESERVES to retire and receive from those whom he has helped over many, many years.

I’ve come across some parents that, in my opinion, spoil their kids, because they don’t have a firm concept of that. Perhaps they never got all they wanted in their childhood, and now they want to make themselves happy by giving their kids everything they think they want. Perhaps the way things work was never explained to them as kids or they were not taught to be content,


However, what I think Jesus meant was, the greatest or being the greatest in a group, a Kingdom group, means you are the lowest. You are the one that serves everybody. The Kingdom is about service to others. In the world, we still see leaders that simply ‘supervise’. They tell others what to do, and do nothing. There are other team members that guide the supervisors, middle managers. And there are even ‘synergizers’ that just by their presence make things better. Interesting!

The Kingdom is not that mysterious. Those who have served have the right to guide and supervise, because they have done the work, they know what to do, through experience and trial and error. The Kingdom of service is simply the right way to move up, or get promoted. Just as there are ‘bad’ companies and organizations, there are many very good companies and organizations, even in the world,

Food for thought,

ET Phone Phone,

Okay, I lightened it up a bit,

But would you WORSHIP?

Not because it is due, not because of fear or because you want something,

Because YOU LOVE and MISS GOD your Mother and Father,

There lives in you, the Eternal Spirit spark which is basically ‘a piece’ of GOD,

So it’s like you are at boarding school, and you are forgetting your purpose and your mission and you are forgetting to CALL HOME.

Worship is spontaneous, forgetful of self, expressing of Pure LOVE to GOD, and it is cultivated through the experiences we choose. If we live to serve from LOVE, and not for profit or for self aggrandizing or selfish motives, we then become people who experience JOY. JOY is given from above, and is a way for reaching out and touching the High Energies of GOD,

Please meditate on that,


What is an Adam and Eve? The Adamic Sons,

We are getting new information which should ease the suffering of those whom society greatly misunderstand, though some misguidance has been part of the equation.

We are not simply humans, among us are many, many different types of creatures and even walk among invisible to the naked eye, higher and Angelic Beings. The inheritors of Earth or Urantia are the original man, who some call the BaKaRe. This civilization started in Africa, and predates all modern societies such as Egypt, China, India, the Urgitities, etc. The Earth is much older than you suppose and have been told. There have been transplanted races of human stock, ETs, fallen Angels, visitations of timeless beings, incarnated beings, etc.

The Adamic Sons, which are/were Sons of GOD, came to Earth to help, in the way of sex creation, procreation. So, when you see someone who struggles with sexuality in having many partners and having many kids. It is NOT always because they are evil and need to be exorcized or ostracized or mad to feel bad by church. Sometimes it is the Adamic DNA in them expressing their function which is to HAVE A LOT OF KIDS. But, the Laws of YHWH still apply,

It is best if we remain with one partner, but if not possible, GOD can do the impossible. Let us not worry about the future of how we will relate to each other in the Heavens,


The choices you make may cause suffering, but sometimes we as a society lack the understanding, and it might serve us better to be more tolerant, peaceable, and merciful. And we can just say, “I DON’T KNOW.” But, I’ll love you anyway.

In Your Service,

I Love Meateaters!

I’m now moving towards Veganism, but I’d like to profess my undying love for the meatatarian and other meat eating personages. Ha-ha, the reason is my family members like meat and I don’t. And I guess this is more of a confession, because I don’t want to be a snobby plant eater. That can be just as bad, so GOD help me to put this in perspective. Change me, and change my attitude. That’s pride, no pride…

Earning Your Wings, p.2


and you have to complete one assignment, helping to save someone’s soul,

forgot about that…


Earning Your Wings, part 1

How do you earn your wings? I’m not an expert in teaching this, but two things I can think of:

1) When you can make the inside of yourself match the outself, and it involves honesty, and putting the inner persona and inner life, morals and the cultivation of the fruit of the Spirit first before the exterior. That is not to say to neglect the outside, because that would be irresponsible as well.

2) When you are perfect like your Father in Heaven, which means that you love all and hate none,

Please meditate on those, thank you,


My Thoughts (2 bits) on ‘Tongues’ in Church of Christ,

As someone who has SIMPLY been there and done that, I’d like to offer my experiences. Take from them what you will, can and I offer my conclusion, which should not be your conclusion, but that there usually are conclusions because that how people think. We need nice, neat and happy endings to things.

I heard about the Pentacostal and Charismatic Church in 2005. They claimed that you had to receive a second baptism of the Holy Spirit for power. They called that being baptized in the Holy Spirit. The Charismatic church appealed to me because I too believed that ‘charismata’ or the gifts of the Spirit are for today, that the Holy Spirit did not cease to give them out to those who desire them and believe. So, I didn’t really believe, but I went anyways. I left my home church (Presbyterian and very conservative), and attended St. Paul Church on Guam for about a year. There I received a laying on of hands by the headship there, and DID receive the ability to speak in tongues. It was a ‘loosening’ of my tongue. I’m not sure if what I spoke was another tongue, but the outflow of the Spirit when I tried to speak was evident to all.

I’d like to report that today I can speak many languages, and it was because of receiving that laying on hands there. And we remember that Christ said that the evidence of His disciples are 5 things:

1) Speaking of other languages,
2) Demons run from us,
3) You will pick up the snakes by the tail,
4) You will drink poison and not die,
5) and you will lay hands on others and they will be healed,

As we grow, we learn to see the Spirit of JC and not be so focused on particular people. Yes, we are commanded to love others and that includes knowing people, but the LORD Himself said that if you love mother and father more than me, you are not worthy of Him. That, to me, is a call to putting Him first in your life b/c there is Holy Work to do.

I too remember thinking what the Pastor was saying is NOT true. Our Pentacostal brothers and sisters seem to claim spiritual superiority and an insensitivity to others by saying if you don’t have the ability to speak in tongues you don’t have the Spirit. Sometimes GOD tests us. Actually GOD tests us a lot and all the time. It freakin’ drives me crazy sometimes how much he wants to train and equip us. But, there is a reason for all the urgency, people need GOD. And although GOD is all powerful and all that, time is a ticking. When you are there,

When you are in THAT church, you are hearing what YOU and ONLY YOU should hear. Looking back, I’d like to conclude, I learned a few things in my experience at the Pentacostal church. GOD is not a liar and He is in charge. He knows what He is doing. He setup the Pentacostal Church for people to go a GET the second baptism which is the baptism of the Holy Spirit. And it appears you’ve done so. Congratulations, you are on your way. And so young. Recall, the Jews had the zero baptism for non-believers, then came the Baptist with baptism for repentance and the outward/inward sign of initiation into the Church of Christ, and Christ Himself baptizes with?

Holy Spirit and Fire,

So, next? Your baptism by Fire comes and that doesn’t sound pleasant does it? Suffering, you will suffer as He did. Suffering for love, suffering for others is the Fire. It basically is suffering for Him, and you will learn to take on suffering b/c GOD’s Son suffered and because,

It is the only way to change the fallen world,

Lastly, I’d like to say, that things are not perfect, but in Christ they ARE perfect. He knows what He is doing and when you can enter that state of mind, then your heart is full of LOVE, and perfect LOVE drives out all fear, (John the Mystic/the Beloved, said that)

Many things, GOD has setup and they just are. I too have experienced injustice and suffered disappointments and seen horrible things. But that’s revealed the hero/heroine in you, didn’t it? Just as you have been given a name, somethings are SIMPLY given and accepted. Sunday IS the LORD’s Day. For a long time, I searched the Scriptures for the Truth and to prove the Pastors wrong, b/c I wanted to know better than them. NOT because I was proud, but that just revealed to me and others where I was going; the position the LORD had for me to take. Another just IS, that I discovered is that the Church (Evangelicals) ARE His Church, that means He loves them (yes, even the bad pastors that created scandal) and belongs to Him. So, we love them too b/c they are family, at least b/c you love HIM.

If you are searching for the True Church or a more Authentic Church, keep searching. They are out there. As you grow and purify yourself, you will recognize them. But of course, the Evangelical Church will say otherwise and try to deter you from learning more and growing and developing your powers and gifts. Why? Because,

Another things I think I learned is this: The Truth oftens hides in the Peace or Reconciliation of issues or conflict. Is the Sabbath Saturday or Sunday? Why can’t it be both? When things don’t make sense, if we peacefully try to bring the different sides of the issue together, you can often piece together the Truth. GOD didn’t give anyone all the pieces for those reasons,

When you tink you are alone, remember that you are NOT. GOD sees all and is BRIGHT and LOVING far GREATER than you can imagine. There are multitudes upon multitudes of Angelic Beings who LOVE you and SERVE you! Some have known you all your life and have watched and helped and guided you. Some are the spirits of your ancestors. Some participated in your creation from day one and from evolutions past,


Taking a Break,

Hi everyone, I will be taking a break from blogging. But I will continue to add content to the above menu. Just to give all an idea of where my mind is going right now:

Vegan eating,
Studies in the Essene Way,
Jewish studies,
Chinese language and lit studies,
Wing Chun and Tai Chi Exercises,

It seems that everyone is having difficulties and challenges this summer. Pray for the strength of the Holy Spirit and patience to see the trial to the end without falling, stumbling, at all. Let’s make our Father and Mother in Heaven proud! Everything is going to be good, and at the END we shall see how even the little things you did the LORD used to create wondrous blessings for others throughout the world and cosmos,


No Rest for the Righteous?

In the Bible, it says, in the Gospels, the LORD Jesus Himself tells us to ‘Watch!’ That made me lose a lot of sleep. And that was good training, because for a guy, I did love my sleep a little too much.

We are to be ever vigilant. But those of us who are not natural watchers. Not everyone can NOT sleep for a week. That’s a talent! But we can work on it. Why is it important? Because someone has to stay awake during the time that the LORD Jesus is coming. The Scriptures say no one knows the day or hour. But I can guess when as in regards to what month and what week.

Most likely the LORD is coming during the Jewish holiday of Tabernacles. That is a reason why the LORD chose to come as a Jewish person. And the Jewish people have been entrusted with much, including the calendar. Tabernacles is the last festival which closes out the year and is after the last summer harvests of fruits (grapes, dates, olives, etc.). Tabernacles is called Sukkhot in Jewish and this festival lasts one week. I don’t know the details, but if someone doesn’t stay awake, some of us could be left behind and miss the ‘prison break’. The LORD Jesus is coming at the right hand of Power, and with clouds of glory. And He is coming like a thief. To me that means, that He is coming to get His people, that have for some reason been kept here on Earth.

So, I’m going to try to stay awake for the entire week of Sukkhot, we’ll see what happens. May GOD, our Holy Father and Mother, the LORD Jesus and His Eternal Love, bless us all,


I Discerned Our Mother,

One of the gifts of Spirit is the discerning spirits,

Mostly, people I’ve come across with the gift can discern good or bad. They can usually sense the presence of ‘bad’ spirits or the general spiritual climate or tone of a room or place.

But, after the truth of the formlessness of spirits is now sinking in, I can see that often spirits talk to us through everyone and everything. If you are a ‘spiritist’ or ‘medium’ in the OT Bible, you would get stoned to death. So where the line between being a spiritist or medium and a prophet or seer or oracle? I think, the line is who or Who you serve? Do you do what you do for money or self? Or do you do what you do out of Love for GOD and your fellow living beings? Sorry, I’m playing James the Just and not the Living Christ.

Yesterday, a beautiful African American woman sat next to me. She asked for a bus token. She said she had been asking around for hours and no one would even give her a token (which cost only one dollar). Of course, I gave. But, she said she just came from church and just needs a ride home. She showed/flashed the Bible. What was interesting was the way she dressed. She wasn’t in a business suit or typical garb that women wear so well to church. She was wearing purple and her clothes were very unique looking like she made them herself. There was gold in there and she told me, ‘I’m not a homeless person.’ I told her I look more like a homeless person than she, and she started to cry. And she told me a bunch of things I don’t really remember but I got the meaning.

After I went home, I thought about it again. And many things she said touched on things I was thinking about or things that happened to me lately. Lately, I’ve been wondering how I can treated the Mother Earth better. How can we commit to recycling, to using safe products, creating less waste, treating animals better, treating all life better even trees and bugs? How about just being sick so the bacteria can have a chance to live? I know it’s madness.

Well, I heard our Mother Earth there. She is a Living Spirit. A Great One! She is in a lot of pain b/c we are not treating Her well at all. And She’s Black. She has mostly appeared to me as So. A secret is all living bodies have spirits. So is Earth a big rock? No, it is a planetary body, and She has a Living Spirit. Our bodies were creating from Her, so She is our Mother. We have a Heavenly Father and Earthly Mother. The Heavens are also masculine and feminine, etc. Please think about it. But, the first step, and we have to take a step back, is to reconnect with the Earth Mother, for Malkuth (The Kingdom) is the Mother Earth Spirit. And She is the root of the Tree of Life, and our first step towards the Kether (Crown) or Most High Heavenly Father and Mother.

Let’s LOVE our Mother Earth, remember Her, She’s crying…

Salt and Fire,

We are the Salt and Light! We’ve heard that, but let’s look at Mark 9:

Causing to Stumble
42 “If anyone causes one of these little ones—those who believe in me—to stumble, it would be better for them if a large millstone were hung around their neck and they were thrown into the sea. 43 If your hand causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out. [44] 45 And if your foot causes you to stumble, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell. [46] 47 And if your eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into hell, 48 where

“‘the worms that eat them do not die,
and the fire is not quenched.’
49 Everyone will be salted with fire.

50 “Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can you make it salty again? Have salt among yourselves, and be at peace with each other.”

What the? Hang with me, and I’ll explain it to you. Although honestly I rather like to, when you feel the Spirit prompting you, don’t come to learn from me anymore, but try to learn and hear the Spirit, Himself. For remember, in the Last Days, the Spirit Himself will teach us. No one will teach his brother or sister, the Law will be written on our hearts and minds,

OK, that said, if you look at the verses before this, Jesus calls His disciples, “Little Ones”. We are Jesus’ kids. And like any good parent, He is protective. If you mess with His kids, who are very naive when young, then you are setting yourself to be burned in hell.

But, here is the thing about GOD, He is mysteriously just and merciful and kind at the same time. We are the Salt and Light (Fire). Those who try to hurt us, we burn, for we are the fire. The hands, feet, and eyes are also metaphorical for members of the church. When GOD sends an Apostle to a church, if the church leaders have eyes to see, and they see members who are treating the Apostle bad, then it is better to discipline that member than be punished by GOD, Jesus Himself.

How can salt lose it’s saltiness, by being messed with and taught wrong by church and the world. Salt can be made salty again, but by GOD, by a miracle. This is the nature of people, they don’t like to have the righteous and holy among them, b/c they are self-conscious and don’t want to give up their deeds. But those who do wrong, must at least recognize the Grace of GOD in the presence of Salt and Light among them. They are helped by it, even if they are not conscious of it. Let us be peaceful at all times and with all people,


P.S. – We are the Salt and Light or the World. And here is the secret, we are also Hellfire, for GOD puts His bright lights everywhere, even Hell, to help those return to Him. Hellfire seems to hurt and scary, b/c the state of those there are so dark, they can’t stand the light and fire anymore.

Love and Love and Love,

In an ideal world, we would marry our sweethearts after high school and have ten kids and stay together forever and ever. My older bro and I were talking about this last week. He has divorced and remarried, and I am in a complicated relationship right now. We both came to the conclusion that there are ideal or ‘fairytale’ relationships. As a society we have in our minds, ‘the way it should be’ for everyone. And when we stop to think about it, that’s just not possible. There should be many ways to do it, as many as there are different kinds of people.

So, in a Christian world, I am ashamed to say I have been with many women. Part of my life work now is to reconnect, make amends, and have a good relationship with those women from my past. Maybe that’s why there is a break in my relationship with my wife right now, so I can do that. There was a reason those women and I crossed paths and shared something briefly, if you believe that everything happens for a reason.

So that’s another exhortation to ‘do no harm’, because when you reach a certain level of enlightenment, you may spend the last half of your life just undoing the damage you did in the first half and never really living in the pure Joy and Freedom and Richness that GOD has for you.

It’s difficult to see that GOD is doing something in your life, when it is painful and full of suffering. I am sorry for it all. It doesn’t help to hear any preaching when life is hard, what we need is help. Often, I am sorry to say, no one has helped me. I don’t know if I was such a bastard before, yeah, that’s probably it. But, that’s why if we have a chance to help we should. If only to give faith to another person in humanity, in the goodness of GOD, in the fairness and justice of the LORD.

When it comes to male female relationships, this world is whacked. Sorry, if my use of medical terms seems condescending. If the church cannot even acknowledge the equanimity (wrong) of male and female, GOD and GODDESS, then we know that as a world, as a society, we still have a long ways to go. Our Sovereign LORD Jesus said that when we go to the Heavens we will be like the Angels that neither marry or are given in marriage. And again He said in the beginning we were created male and female. And for those who really read carefully, the mystery of John the Baptist being Elijah is a reference to reincarnation. That all taken, my thoughts are:

Sometimes, especially on earth, we meet people who will point us to our ‘other half’. Maybe I wasn’t suppose to get so romantic and serious with other women. We were to be friends and I would learn what I like and don’t like. Never hurting, never using, never controlling but serving in Love. Angels must have perfected loving relationships without lording and controlling each other. So when you meet the ‘one’ you will most definitely know and be prepared for a lifelong relationship with him and her. The other women were suppose to help me as sisters, but instead we have regrets about past words and deeds. They actually did help, but the regrets. If you believe in many lifetimes, then sometimes you have to wait til the next lifetime to get it right with your other half. I have reached a point in my life where I am willing to be that patient. I’ve found the one, and things aren’t right. I know through Faith I am sure she is my one and only. But she and I are not good together right now. I will wait for her for the rest of my life if need be.

So, those of you out there with eyes to see and ears to hear, that is my understanding of the Truth. However, everyone has different strengths. Mine just happens to be in the area of marriage and sexuality. Like the Apostle Paul I have the gift of singleness, but I have found my sweetheart. Those of you who don’t see things this way, I am not preaching. It’s your life and how you think about it is what you should think. This is just my take on things and what I think is GOD’s best for us. If you know you have found the one and have problems then please try your best. If you haven’t found the one, then it’s simply that we must learn how to engage and treat our brothers and sisters. I hope that makes sense,


GOD loves Chinese,

When I was young, we were PROUD to be Chinese. Chinese invented gunpowder. We have almost 5,000 years of history. Chinese invented silk. Chinese look like aliens, so we are more advanced.

But now, after living in the United States and other places too. I confess, Chinese are not all that. We have a long history of human rights abuses. We have a long history of disregard for the freedom of choice. But mostly, we the Chinese EAT EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. Yuck!

With, the building wave of vegetarianism, I hope the Chinese ride this. For in the Bible, GOD tells us what foods are clean and unclean. In the beginning, people only ate fruits and green vegetables and leafs. The Apostle Peter had his vision, why? Ask seasoned Christians in Chinese church and they’ll tell you have the freedom to eat what you want. That is true, but GOD always gives us freedom. If you want GOD’s best, you’ll return to the fruits and veggies. Sometimes it is good to be a Gentile, you get to eat all kinds of crazy stuff, but to me, I only eat to eat with other people (ministry). At home, I eat the best, or at least try to.

Part of why, the Apostle Peter and the others ate. It was said by Jesus Himself, that He ate and drank. That’s how special He was. He was the exception and LORD of the Sabbath. These days, some Essenes will tell you the fact that the original teachings of Jesus (Yahshua) on vegetarianism were changed. That is true. But, maybe the LORD allowed this, because He knew how slow the eating habits of the world would be changed. And our LORD is reluctant to lose anyone. He paid for all, it is best that all be saved! The Chinese are the craziest eaters and I pray that the Chinese learn to be more discerning about what they put into their mouths. For there are spiritual ‘consequences’ for even small things like this.

Just as there is blood money. We understand that. When you buy coffee that is not fair trade, you are a party to the unfair treatment of workers. I’m not trying to burden you but encourage you, for GOD is the judge of the heart and knows when you tried your best or not. If you are Chinese and reading this, I am Chinese, and please know that animals are also living beings with hearts, souls, and minds. Eating more vegetables to be kind to animals and for your better health will also result in blessings from above and a greater experience of heaven on earth.


Matthew 23 – Serve

I’ve been thinking and rethinking my approach to ministry. I mean, I’m sure I do good and all that. But, as I study and live and prepare for my ministry, I am starting to see that Jesus simply wanted us to be servants.

Don’t call anyone Teacher,
Don’t call anyone Father,
Don’t call anyone Instructor,

But just as it is not possible to reach some people without being something or a way that they can understand, not everyone can practice this type or level of ministry. It is more important to be faithful to where the LORD Jesus places us.

What the above paraphrase of the LORD’s Words mean to me is that we shouldn’t always minister from a position of authority. We tell people they should do this, and they shouldn’t do that. Why can we? Because of our titles and position. I think Jesus is telling us that we should just serve, love, and give. If people ask and if they need our advice, we can maybe offer a little. But, it is best people figure things for themselves anyways.

What does that look like? I think this type of ministry is more like how a mother would be like. Remember the Oracle in the Matrix films? The crew of the Matrix went to visit the Oracle. Instead of visiting a high and holy temple, they went into a simple apartment and sat with her as she baked cookies. I used to drive a BMW and had a Louis Vuitton pen. I don’t need these things anymore. It’s not that those things aren’t nice or that I wouldn’t have them. I had to choose between them and other things and the other things won out. Sometimes religious leaders need those things because they like them, and sometimes they need them to be able to connect to others. Jesus didn’t need any of those things, yet He was the best minister ever.


Sower, Reaper, Gatherer, Grape, Wheat, What?

What are these jobs? They are very hard to understand, especially since people these days don’t grow their own food. I have some idea because I had a little farm for a while. And I have some prophetic thoughts on this. I say prophetic because it is divined and I don’t really know what I am talking about. When you hear a pastor or priest speak and it gets deep and it is spiritual, a lot of times that is prophetic utterance, given from above to the speaker to bless you the hearer.

In the LORD Jesus’ parables, who is the sower? He is the sower. And missionaries are sowers. Anyone who is sent out to some field is a sower. And when they work they are doing very important work of spreading seed which is the Word of GOD. The Son of GOD is with them, right there when they speak. Yes, a pastor is sowing in the sanctuary! Even when you see a preacher at the Santa Monica Pier (amusement park) and it seems no one is paying attention. Who are we to say GOD didn’t send him to a very hard, dry field to work it. I’ve had to work dry, hard ground on Guam. The soil is not soft, brown topsoil at all. It is rocky and dry. I’ve often had to use a pickax to break it up. We had to allow weeds to grow to break it up and create a little soil when it dries and dies. Spreading seed is the toughest job that’s why Jesus says the sower is the Son of Man.

But often there is only one sower per locale. That is why Jesus says those who are with me gather to me, and those not with me scatter. Other sowers like Himself, spread out and scatter. But all sowers often have a team of gatherers with them. Who are these? They are the angels. How do you earn your wings? That is a topic for another day. But gatherers are those that receive what is due the landowner of GOD, the Father. A sower should have been a gatherer already. The sower is team leader.

What are grapes and wheat? Who are they? They are mentioned in Revelations aren’t they? They are talked about often by the prophets. The prophets are known by their fruit – grapes and dates. And what about sheep? Who do they represent? Let me know what you think?


Keep the Sabbath,

If GOD is the same GOD, why don’t we keep the Sabbath? When is the Sabbath? The Jewish people got it, it is Friday night to Saturday sundown, you get my point. What do we do on this day? Mostly stay home, study the Bible, and rest. It is a eternal sign that you are His people if you follow this commandment,


Jesus Loves the Homeless,

The dirty, smelly, refuses of people on the street we have so callously dismissed everyday. Fragment. Maybe we can stop and at least think about this for a second.

Does Jesus love everybody? Yes. Then what is going on here? On the surface level, these people have made some mistakes and wrong turns in their lives. They have ended up on the street with no money, no nothin.

But if you really observe, even homeless people have friends. Each other. They talk with each other and they have common experience and they share with each other.

At a deeper level, and I’m not saying Jesus especially loves them, but many of the homeless serve a very important purpose. They are visible reminders of the coldness and problems of our society. If we lived in a perfect place, we wouldn’t see this. There are places in America where there is not even one homeless person on the street because family is so important. Have you ever seen an old lady on the street begging for change? That is really hard to see. Where are her family?

GOD works on everybody and we need to trust our Father in Heaven. But many, many test from Him are to bring us back together. The think Protestants should hug a Catholic one day a week. And in turn, a Catholic should hug a Jewish person once. And in turn the Jewish people should hug an Essene. And the other six days, we can go back to fighting, ignoring each other, and thinking our group is the best.

I really don’t know how to help many homeless people. We may always have them with us, but that doesn’t mean we should stop trying. Another reason we have homeless is that they are the grapes of discipline. Yes, they are responsible for their own state (the street), but at the spiritual level, they are bearers of GOD’s discipline. Note that I said discipline not wrath or punishment. As King Nebuchanezzar, after an ordained period of suffering, usually seven years, they will be restored.

And believe this or not, if you read Jeremiah and Ezekial the same way I do, GOD chooses the leaders or even the royalty of a people group to bear this. So when you see the homeless on the street, you may be seeing the rightful heir of the throne of France or Zimbabwe. Maybe not at that level of leadership, but many are nobility to say the least. That is what Jesus himself bore, for He was the King of the Jews. And that is why He seemed to favor or have a unique association with poor people. The suffering He suffered was for the prosperity of His people. That is the meaning of the lyrics:

‘I’m forgiven, because you’re forsaken,
and I’m accepted and you were condemned,
and I’m alive and well, your Spirit is within me,

Maybe we can add,

‘you were poor, so we could live well,’

I hope this post makes sense, my main point is if you see a homeless person, remember to at least say sorry. Maybe stop to pray for this person. Maybe give them another day of food. Give them a smile.


Public Information Service,

Pastors in the Christian church deserve your encouragement. Pastors deserve your best support. They have been called to serve your church community as counselors, friends, dads, moms, educators, and so many, many more roles. Pastors wear so many hats. If you really want to know what your pastor does just call him up and ask. You’ll be surprised. You will really be surprised if you have a small church and the pastor is doing everything on his own.

I write this, b/c I too have thought and said unfair things about good pastors. This was because I didn’t see or understand his job and just how busy they really were. For that I apologize.

I haven’t seen many pastors held up and honored in the media. It is always pastors in this scandal or how this priest did that. Pastors might not really have any close friends. Pastors always have to be positive when many people are very negative towards them. They not only suffer from burnout but I believe they may suffer or be prone to depression. Their job is very difficult and how would you feel if what you did was considered worthless?

Maybe someone should produce a book or video on what pastors do. Because it is surely needed. It would really help the community of believers and church as a whole.


Following Your Heart in Hard,

GOD has been teaching me to follow Him, to do what is right, because often the people around you will disagree. Or they will get mad. Or they will cry and make noises.

When you can see what is the right thing to do, often you just have to do it. Recently, everyone around me has been discouraging. But I can see what is the plan, what people need and want, and what I must do. This is because I really know my people. But, everyone is getting set in their ways, is afraid, and just plain unwilling to do anything.

It’s GOD and me, and surprisingly my 4 year old son. He told me, “It’s me and you, Dad.” I will always remember this.

But you may think, “Why not wait it out and let GOD figure it out and do something and open a door?” I have thought about that and prayed about that and that’s not what’s going on here. GOD is calling for action. If nothing is done, nothing will change, and everyone will not receive the blessings GOD has for us. Sometimes, as we grow perfect, GOD puts more on our plate, gives us more to do, and expects more from us. When I’m up against something that is too big for me, I’ll know. And I’ll be the first to fall on my knees and ask for Divine help or help from others that offer it. But I’m all for doing my part and doing everything I can when I can. If that is wrong then I don’t want to be right,


Crazy, Permissive Child Rearing,

As I age, like good beef, cheese, or something else, I am just becoming a big softie. I don’t like how most people raise their kids. OK, that sounded strange, but you know what I mean. I am not one for ‘permissive’ parenting, but I think most child psychologist and teachers don’t have it all right.

-Kids aren’t stupid. When you realize that, you will start to have real conversations with them, and really connect with them. Parents usually go into ‘commando mode’ with their children. All day, just telling them what to do and teaching them and lecturing them.

-Let’s keep our kids happy. Happiness, joy, is the experience of life. So much of teaching our kids to be responsible results in blah and unhappy and sometimes downright mean times.

-Kids aren’t trying to be irritating or get you mad. They are just like that. You can tell in the eyes. Short of being mean and rebellious, my kid can do no wrong. They can do anything they want, as long as it is not dangerous.

-We’re the ones that have issues, have bad memories and experiences, have bad days, have bad hair, have bad tempers. We NEED to stop taking it out on our kids.

-Finally, and this is not comprehensive, but a start to us thinking about things, you had them to be happy and fill them. So don’t do this halfway. Give them what they want. We’re the stingy ones. And if you stop and think, kids don’t really ask for a lot. And even if they ask a lot, most likely they just want to talk to you. You’ve told them you can’t afford all that. And they understand that, so maybe they just want you to always say ‘yes’ to them. I don’t know, they are your kids, and you only have a short time with them before they fly the nest, so make the most of it. You have plenty of time for you later. If you can stand you, just joking.


A Look at Favoritism, a Study of James

We saw that in James 1, a major trial of life is to be happy with your lot in life. If it is to be a humble person, to accept that and not want to be a rich person. And vice versa. Yes, unbelievable, but often times especially spiritual, wealthy people want to have a humble and simple life.

In James 2, this chapter is written to the rich. Surprisingly, it is revealed here, that most of the time, not all, the poor in the church, are the leaders in matters of faith. What is the cause of much suffering in a monetized world where we all depend on a money system? It is money or the lack thereof. In Jewish Scripture, the righteous, wealthy man runs after the poor to give to him. In many stories, we see the rich and the poor, working together. The rich gives out of love, and the poor has to accept in humility. If GOD created us all complete and without need and without each other, why would we need to come together? It is yet another way GOD binds us together as family and community.

The rich set up the money system. Alan Greenspan, a Hebrew, obviously an economic genius, is most likely a rich genius. Being rich is a talent. Understanding money and how to handle and make money is a talent. Some people just don’t understand it. Most people don’t, that is why they can just get jobs and be told what to do. Money is a game, like monopoly but for real. But with any game, battle, or anything, you need luck or GOD on your side. And to get GOD on your side, you really NEED to be nice to people, take care of people.

James uses VERY strong language and metaphors:
– exploitation of poor, dragging them into courts, blaspheming (which just means disrespecting GOD) the name of Jesus,
– Love your neighbor as yourself, adultery, murder, etc.,

James reminds us that Christ chose a humble life. James himself it seems chose a humble life. Maybe people weren’t giving to him as he thought they should. But most likely the anger we hear in James about the treatment of the poor is godly anger at the sight of parents not being taken care of by their children, leaders who chose poverty in order to serve GOD and the poor and the spiritual needs of others not being taken care of by others, etc. The suffering experienced by those in leadership was unnecessary if others did their part. One reason, in my thinking, James mentions the Law, is because if you really study the Law of Hashem (as the Jews call GOD), it is 613 Laws. The Law is not only 10 or 7 Noahide Rules or 2. For those not keeping 10, keeping 613 is totally out of reach. But we need to know there are 613 Laws. Some of them seem stupid, like not cutting your hair, but that’s the difference between Divine Law and the Law of Man. Man’s laws are more practical and based on different principles. One main principle on which Divine Law is based on is Love for GOD. If you love your mother, and she insists that you pick out all the blue M&Ms before serving her up some M&Ms in a crystal bowl for your time together every month, then you just do it. So Divine Law states, if you Love GOD, just don’t cut the hair at the sides of your head. Silly? Yes, but.

Just LOVE,

A Short Lesson on Toughness,

I want to be tougher,

Not meaner,

Not heartless,

Not cynical,

Not sharper,

but say whatever you want to say, do whatever you want to do, I’ll never hurt you,

think how you want, because I love you, yes, even you,

Road Trips,

I saw the show Road Trips on TV, where a few 20 somethings drive around in a RV and interview famous people from the RV and asking the same question,”How do you know what to do with your life?”

The answer always seems to be the same,

“Follow your heart”

“Do what you love,”

What if you interviewed my parents? They would say, “Get a job, any job!” Ha-ha. Parents come from a different perspective, b/c to them you will always be the poopy diaper wearing kid that didn’t even know how to put on their shoes right. And now, kids don’t even have to learn how to tie shoe laces. They got it easy now.

A big fear of young people is that they will end up on Skid Row or as a crazy homeless person or bag lady. That is good that you don’t want that. As someone who almost ended up there, I can say that if that is something you DON’T want, then you just have to have PREVENTATIVE MEASURES. The biggest reason homeless people are homeless is NOT b/c they don’t have money or they are lazy. The two biggest reasons in my seeing are:

1) They have severed ties with family. Everyone has somebody. If you don’t have anybody, even if they are far away. If you don’t have anybody at all, then most likely you will end up on the street. You got to have somebody or something like a support group or even a church. So preventative measure number one, always have somebody or a safety net.

2) They have mental illness. People with mental illness often DON’T REALIZE or keep forgetting that they are mentally ill. Mental illness can be heredity. It can be the result of physical or emotional trauma. It can be the result of drug abuse. It can be the result of confusion or reading wrong books or listening to the wrong, toxic people. So, be careful. The surest sign that you have a mental condition IS, communication ability. People with mental problems when given a paper to write an essay, most often, blank out or write things that are not readable. There is a lack of flow, coherence, structure, order, etc. Writers are often the best mental doctors because they can read what thoughts are there and how thinking is put together. If you think you might have a condition, please visit a doctor. There is no shame in that. Everyone has something and after some treatment you may be cured. Praying to Jesus for healing won’t hurt either.

Hopefully, I have eased your fears a little. Can you really achieve your dream life like those actors and other famous people on tv? Yes, of course! But in order to get what you want you really have to know what you want, and have some kind of plan, and work that plan, and pray, and make good decisions, and do good and help people. That’s my two cents for the day. It’s your life,

Bible Study – James 1: 1-12, Trials, Bigger Trials, Biggest Trial,

Be patient, younglings, as you grow in the Spirit, you will have more of the Spirit, more eyes to see, and ears to hear,

Don’t depend on others, but figure and prayer and meditate on GOD’s Word yourself,

But as there are paradoxes stated in the Bible, the point is Spiritual Truth is hard to explain but IS UNDERSTOOD with your heart, depend on me, I pray a spirit of understanding be imparted to you,

If you can explain it adequately, maybe you could be a pastor or pastorette,

That said, let’s look at the text:

1 James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ,

To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations:


Trials and Temptations

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.

12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

We are to consider it joy when we are tested? That is hard to do, but becomes easier as you become stronger. Sometimes we don’t grow well, but complain and whine, and that’s ok, it just shows us where we are in our growth. But our faith is growing by the testing which everyone has experience of. Part of having a more developed faith is having perseverance. We can see perseverance in someone who prays diligently and consistently for something from the LORD Jesus UNTIL they get it.

It is beautiful and refreshing to hear that GOD provides, we just have to know first that He does not want us to lack anything. Psychologically, if we rationally think GOD wants us to suffer, be poor, always suffer lack, then we will choose that and that will be our experience of life.

It’s not that the LORD Jesus doesn’t want to give us. The passage says we should not EXPECT to receive, because we didn’t show the faithfulness and put in the work to get what we wanted. But as the Rich Landowner in the Parable of the Workers, GOD always gives us what we need, anyways, because He loves us.

I like to take a breath and take a step back to understand the flow of the text, to help word or frame, for your understanding this passage. James first talks about the importance of testing and trials. It is to grow us up. It is to help us trust and know GOD. Many of our trials, if you think about is are about character, yes, but they revolve around our needs.

We often live our days needing this and wanting that. And that my friends is the basic summary of existence. We need to know that GOD,

GOD gives us generously and without finding fault.

So the bigger context is, a trial of being rich and being poor. That is simplified but also a major experience of life. You either see yourself as a poor or humble person, and we often want more money. That is your experience of life. And the rich, when spiritual, are often seen as moneybags, and they often wish for a humble life. The grass is always greener they say. Also the rich, in the spiritual world, are sometimes marginalized when it comes to spiritual things. Just give me the money.

The biggest trial is life itself, if you stand til the end. You receive the crown of life from Jesus Christ. I expect mine to be big, heavy, gold, with many jewels – blue ones. I like blue.

As I posted about before, there is the idea of pre-existence and we all heard about the after world, or after life. Our brothers, the Jewish people, have many writings on pre-existence. It’s possible that we lived as baby spirits in some other realm before being born here. This life is a trial or set of lessons to be learned. So be patient, be good, and attentive, and learn your lessons well, please,